Chapter 35: Depression

Angel's POV:

Eight Months Later:

"Justin I don't need all this." I said, as I watched him buy some clothes for me. "Oh my God shut up baby." He said, as he grabbed more clothes. "Baby, okay stop. Stop. I don't need all theses clothes. I'm fine with what I wear." I said. He looked at me. "Justin I'm fine. I just want to go home and see my baby." I said. "Jewelina's not home yet." He said. Jewel started kindergarten three months ago. I missed my baby girl. She missed us but after a two weeks, she stopped. She made lots of new friends. Two she really rocked with. She knew not to use her powers or tell them anything about our world. "I was talking about Kacey but her too. And Keisha." I said. Keisha and Colin got together one night we had a party. They had a drunken mishap and it resulted in a pregnancy. Her parents were pissed. I was there with her when they yelled at her. So was Colin. He stuck up for her but wasn't allowed to see her for a month but now he's allowed to.

He wanted to be there for her, no matter what. Because we were pregnant, we could go to AA and finish off people. Annie and Bishop builded their empire back up and we were back to killing. It felt good to have a release. I've been feeling built up frustration towards Abby and Grey since they were getting closer to discovering where we all lived. I was worried because of my physical state I was in. Justin told me he'd handle her when she gets here but I wanted to do it. "Angel?" Justin callee, snapping me out of my thoughts. "Hmm?" I asked. "You okay?" He asked. I nodded. He stared at me. "I'm fine baby. Now let's have you go shopping." I said. "No. I got enough shoes. Can't speak for you." He said. I hit his head playfully. "Boy shut up. Don't diss my Jordans." I said. "Ain't nobody dissing em girl." He said. I looked at him. "Sorry. I've been hanging around Trey for the longest." He said. I laughed.

"Well stop." I said, laughing. We got in the car and drove to Mike's house. He's been careful with Kacey, trying not to upset her. He did that once and she flipped out. She made the house levitate and we had to calm her down fast. We walked in the house to see Kacey laying on the couch. She looked at us and smiled. "Angel!! Justin!!! Hiiii!!!" She said. She sounded like she was high. "Is she okay?" I asked. "She's fine." Mike said, walking downstairs. He came over to us. "Kacey, did you remember to ask Trey about his mission?" He asked. "Yep. He said he leaves in two days." She said. "Shit." Mike muttered. "What's up?" I asked. "I have to be with my parents in two days for my little sister's party for finding her mate." He said. "Justin can go in your place." I said, cheerfully. "No Justin can't." Justin said. "And why not?" I asked.

My eyes turned red. "Okay I can do it." He said. "When is the party?" I asked. "At 7:00." Mile said. "He'll be there." I said, as I walked over to Kacey. "You okay Angel?" She asked. "I'm getting better." I said, as I laid down. She grabbed my hand and pulled me upstairs. "Uh Uh. Where y'all going?" Mike asked. "By our business." Kacey said. I laughed at her. She pulled me into her room. "Okay Angel. The baby is doing great. And so is yours. But your pregnant with twins." She said, smiling. "Who what?" I asked, in shocked. She laughed. "Angel, that's great." She said. "I'm not ready for twins damn it. Jewel is turning five this weekend. I have so much to do. And now I have twins?!" I cried. "Justin will do everything for you. Relax and let him take over." She said.

"He does that during the nights and it's how I became pregnant twice." I said. She laughed hard. "Oh my God. TMI." She said, as she walked past me. Then the sound of something spilling sounded. She then jerked forward. "Kacey?" I called. She didn't respond. "I'm fine." She said she took a step but fell down. "Kacey?" I said. "I'm fine." She said, as she took another step but she fell down and began to cry. "MIKE?! MIKE!!!" I cried out. The sound of running footsteps approached us fast. Mike and Justin ran in. "KACEY?!" Mike cried out. Her parents came running in. "Kacey!!" Her mom cried. Her dad picked her up and he and Mike carried her downstairs. She started screaming and crying. I cried at the sight of her. "It's okay Angel. She's gonna be okay." Justin said. "Oh my God." I said. He held me as we walked downstairs. Kacey's Mom was in the living room.

"They're taking her to the hospital." She said. "Is she gonna be okay?" I asked. "She'll be fine Angel. Psychics, vampires, and wolves deal with the worse pain." She said. "Well I'm all three." I said. She looked at me. "But you'll probably be able to handle it." She said. I shook my head and walked out to the car. I got in and sat down and cried. Justin came out. "She's gonna be okay Angel." He said. "It was so scary seeing her like that." I said. "It's never a pretty sight seeing someone you love go into labor." He said. I looked at him. "I seen Abby go into labor when she had Tyler. It scared me." I said. I covered my ears. "I don't wanna hear that bitch's name." I said. He nodded and got in the car. We drove off to the hospital. I ran in but Justin stopped me. Celia, Colin, Trey, Keisha, and Tasha were all already there. Tasha and Keisha ran up to us. "Mike told us she went in labor." Tasha said. I nodded.

"She did." I said. "I can only imagine what Mike and Kacey must be feeling." Keisha said. Colin came up behind her and hugged her. "Me too." He said. We sat down and waited. Kacey's parents came just in time for the doctor. We were told that she's in too pain and that we should come back tomorrow. We left but my mind stayed on her. I was shaken up. I walked in to find Mama and Alicia sitting at the table. Jewel was too. They all looked at us. "Hey Mama. I drew a dolphin." Jewel said. "That's nice baby." I said, as I walked upstairs. "Uh Uh what's wrong with you?" Mama asked. I broke down. Justin wrapper his arms around me. "Kacey won't I to labor today. Angel is shaken up by it." He said. "Oh my God. Is she at the hospital?" Alicia asked.

"Yes Mom But they said for us to come back tomorrow. She's in pain right now." He said. "Where's Mike?" Mama asked. "At the hospital with her." He said. He walked me to my room. I sat down at the bed. Justin could tell I was worried about her. I was shaking. "Angel, calm down. She's gonna be fine. She's a strong girl." He said. I got angry. "What if she doesn't get better?! Then what?! She dies before Abby touches her?!" I yelled. He stared at me. I began to cry. "I'm so sorry Justin. I'm just so scared." I said. He hugged me. "I know baby." He said. There was a small knock on the door. I smell watermelon. "Jewel?" I called out. She opened the door and she looked scared. "Mama?" She cried. Justin picked her up and took her to her room. I followed them but stayed in the hallway. "Jewel, Mama's not feeling well. She's upset right now." He said.

"I heard yelling." She said. I heard sadness in her voice. "Are you and her gonna get a divorce?" She asked. "Jewel do you even know what that is?" He asked. "It's when a husband and wife leave each other." She said. "That's right but that's not gonna happen with me and Mama. She's going through an emotional time right now. We can't bother her." He said. She broke down. "Jewel please stop crying. It hurts me to see you like this." He said. "I can't help it Daddy. I don't want you and Mama to leave each other." She said. "Baby, we're not. Until Mama gives birth, let's not bug her so much. She needs to relax for awhile." He said. "Okay. What's wrong with Aunt Kacey?" She asked. "Aunt Kacey is in pain right now so we can't bother her either. We won't see her for awhile." He said. "Why not?" She asked. "Because Kacey will be busy with her baby and she's gonna need space too." He said.

"Is that what Mama will deal with? She won't love me anymore?" She asked. "No no no Jewel. She will. She'll just be busy with the baby." He said. "She won't have time for me?" She asked. "Jewel, She will. But the baby will take her attention til their big like you. Now please sleep." He said. "I wanna sleep with you and Mama." She said. "Jewelina." He warned. She started to cry. He sighed. "How bout this? You and I sleep together? Mama can rest and you and I can hang out?" He said. She sniffed. "Okay." She said. I walked back to the room and laid down. Rose? Yeah baby? Why is my life complicated? Without a test, there can be no testimony. You right. I turned on the TV and watched Bad Girls Club. After awhile, Justin came in. "What are you doing awake?" He asked. "Couldn't sleep." I said, not looking at him. "Angel, she's gonna be-" I cut him off. "It's not Kacey." I said, irritably.

"Then What is it?" He asked, sitting down. "My life." I said. "Angel, please don't start that." He said. "Why?! Because I-" he cut me off. "Our daughter is sleep so inside voice please." He said. "Because I didn't ask to choose this life Justin. I didn't ask for any of this to happen." I said. He stared at me. "Angel....are you feeling okay?" He asked. "I don't know. I didn't ask for any of this shit to happen. I didn't ask to become a damn Uni-Hybrid. I didn't ask to become a target for Abby to Grey. I didn't ask to become a damn assassin. I didn't ask for you to save me. I didn't ask for anything!!!" I cried. He grew silent. Then I realized what I just said. "Justin-" I was cut off by him abruptly getting up and leaving. I laid down and cried. It was awhile before he came back. He didn't speak to me. Just headed to the shower. I noticed he reeled of alcohol. I felt bad and got up and left. I got in the car and drove around.

I looked around for something to take my mind off what I said. I feel like an asshole Rose. You should. Angel, what you just said was unforgivable. There's no coming back from this. I'm stressed out Rose. I didn't mean what I said. Too late now. I drove around til I came to a stoplight. I seen other cars drove past me. I felt so bad for what I said to Justin. I didn't mean any of it. I watched the cars zoom by. Then I did something wrong. I hit the gas and slammed into another car. Then it was black. Rose? Rose I wanna go home. You should've went. No. I mean home home. Where Abby is. I don't wanna be here anymore. Angel your depressed. Stop this. You are pregnant and you probably killed your twins. I'm sorry. I just wanna go home, forget this life. I didn't ask for any of it. But your loving it. I don't want to anymore. I'm over it.

What about Jewelina? What about our babygirl? Justin will take care of her. He doesn't wanna do it alone. He has to. If not, he got my Mama and Alicia. I honestly can't believe you rammed into another car. I couldn't help it Rose. I want out of this life. Wake up. What? Wake. Up. No. I don't want to. Angel, wake up. Now. I then woke up to a bright light. I held my hand over my face but saw a needle attached inside it. "What the hell?" I asked. "Angel!!!" Called a voice. I looked to see Keisha, Justin, Alicia, Annie, Bishop, Trey, and Tasha. I sat up. "Angel, what the hell did you do?!" Keisha cried. "Wha...." I trailed off. "Angel, you got into a damn car accident." Trey yelled. Then it flooded back to me. I turned over on my side. "Angel?" Justin called. I didn't answer.

He got up and walked over to me. "Angel?" He called. I covered my face with my hands. He held them. "Angel?!" He called. "What Justin? Damn!!" I yelled. "Angel, what did you do?" Mama asked, walking in the room. I shook my head. "Angel answer us." Dad yelled. I cried and shook my head. Jewel walked in the room. "Mama?" She asked, looking scared. I closed my eyes and visualized Abby. "Angel why did you do it?." Kacey's Mom said. "Do what?" Treat asked. "Why did you do it Angel?" She asked. "Do what?" Keisha asked. "She rammed into the other car on purpose." She said. They all looked at me. "ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR FUCKING?!" Justin shouted. I glared at him and rolled my eyes. "Angel what were you thinking?!" Mama cried. I shook my head. "Angel?!" Dad called.

"I wanted to kill myself!!! Ya happy now?!" I yelled then I teleported out of the room. I looked around and saw I was at the house. I walked around and up the stairs til I was in my room. I looked around and got angry. I began to tear at the pictures and the TV. I grabbed whatever I wanted and threw it to the ground. I walked down to the living room and threw the couch. I threw anything I could get my hands on. I then walked out the house and transformed into a dragon and flew off. I came across a familiar scent and flew away. I do not want to face Justin. I wouldn't either. I then landed behind the hospital. I saw the gang run out. I then teleported back home where I used to live. I walked around the house and to my old room. I looked around and sat down on my old bed. I began to cry again. What's wrong with me Rose? Why am I so angry? Why am I so hurt? Why am I everything? Baby you have depression. It's making you crazy.

I don't like it. No one does. I wanna end this. All of this. I'm not happy. I fucking hate my life. I know love but it will get better. Just hang on. Remember what I said. Your gonna make it through this. No I won't. Yes you will. Lose the negative attitude and everything will be fine. I can't. I'm so upset and I don't know why. It's depression. It's what makes you so upset and unhappy. It'll get better I promise. I cried some more. Then Jewel suddenly appeared. I looked up at her. "Jewelina? What are you doing here?" I asked. She stared at me. "Mama, what's wrong with you? You've never been like this before. This isn't you. This isn't my Mama." She said. "Baby, go home. Your Daddy will take care of you from now on." I said.

She shook her head. "No Mama. I want you both there. Mama I'm worried about you." She said. She walked over to me. "Baby please just go home." I said. She kept coming closer to me. "JEWELINA LEAVE!!! NOW!!!" I screamed. She jumped but didn't leave. She then hugged me. "It's okay Mama. Let it out. I'm here for you." She said. I began to cry in her arms. She let me. I finally felt so safe with her. "I'm so sorry I yelled at you baby. I'm just so upset right now." I said. "Mama, it's okay. It's all right. I know your hurt and upset. I feel it. That's how I was able to find you." She said. I looked at her. "What?" I asked, curiously. I was confused. "Mama, I have an emotional connection to you. It's how I'm able to know where you are. I'm able to see where you are. Mama, you can't leave us. And you can't do what you did anymore. That scared me and Daddy. He's mad at you. He started to break things. Punch things. It scared me so I had to find you. Please come home." She said.

"Jewel we're both feeling things we can't explain. I'm feeling something I can't explain." I said. She nodded. "I know Mama. I can feel it and it's making me upset and mad too." She said. She looked around. "Mama, please come home. It feels empty inside this house." She said. "I will baby. But I will when Daddy calms down. I know he's mad at me." I said. "Mama, why did you crash your car into the other one?" She asked. Her eyes welled up. "Baby, please go home. I'll be home soon. I just have to do something." I said. She bit her lip and nodded. "Mama, please be careful. I don't wanna lose you." She said, as she hugged me. "Please Jewelina. I need a minute." I said. I kissed her forehead and watched her teleport. I pulled out my phone and dialed a number. Please pick up. Then she did. "Abby?" I asked. "What do you want?" She asked.

"Do you and Grey want the Great Amulet or not? Cause I wanna give it to you. You can have it. Take it. I don't want it anymore. You can have Justin too." I said. "Your messing with me." She said. "No. I'm not. Come get the necklace and that's it. No more beef. No games. I'm done with this life. Please bring Grey with you. I want him to end me. I crashed myself into another car to end myself. It didn't work. Ask anyone. They'll tell you." I said. "Are you sure?" She asked. "Yes. I'm done with this life. I'm unhappy. I want you and Grey to kill me." I said. "How do u know your not playing with me?" She asked. "Because I called you. Why would I call you if I wasn't serious?" I said. "Glad you see it my way Angel. I'll be there tomorrow. Just tell me where you are." She said. I gave her my address. "Good to know. See you tomorrow." She said. Angel your playing a dangerous game.

Your already in trouble with Justin. This will make it worse. I don't care. You sure you wanna go through with this? Yep.