ErikTheBat

"If I keep on pushing people away I won't get hurt."
"If I stay calm and collected, no one can reach me."

We give our all to everyone around us, believing that if we make them happy, we too will become happy.
It is not that easy and Ashton has been stuck in that realization for awhile now, not wanting to believe that life could be so cruel.

We fight to be seen and acknowledged by the ones we care about. But is it really worth it, when you give your all and it's still not enough. Corey is conflicted, fighting with his own brain, not knowing if he should take a step back or keep going.

Both of them need a break, someone that will listen and comfort them, without making a fuss.

"They say great minds think alike."
"Only that we don't think, we feel.”

I Want My Forever

"Ssshhh, I'm here. We're here Ash." Tony stroked the boy's hair. Realizing that they should leave this place, if they wanted Ashton to feel better. 


He couldn't let his friend stay here,  the place where his sister died. Staying here would just worsen his condition. Only that Tony could feel that his friend wasn't strong enough to move. 


"I'll have to carry you to the car. So I'll just let you go, for a short moment." Tony explained, as he removed the crying boy from his lap. Standing up and then lowering himself down again, crouching on the floor. Taking Ashton up with him, holding him up, bridal style.


"What are we gonna do about his dad? He usually comes ba…."


"Escorted back by the police, in the middle of the night. Yes. If Ash's not here, they will take him to the station." Nathan interrupted his sister, as they walked back to the car.


Tony held Ashton close to his body, his friend clinging to him like a koala. One sobbing, crying, miserable koala. 


Cole was wide awake, staring at his sleeping brother. Contemplating whether to tell him that he saw or not. 


Corey was already mad at him, for a reason he didn't know. If he told him? He would become furious. Corey would probably not speak to him, for…. Forever?


'Corey, you're my twin. I love you as much as I love myself. Why do you have to be like this? Why does it have to be like this?


I wish I understood you. You know I accept you, no matter what. You should know that. Why don't you know that? Do I need to tell you? If I do, you'll just get mad at me. Mad because I'm supposedly being "sappy".


Maybe it has always been, I don't know. Maybe I'm being too intrusive. Wanting to know everything about my brother, so I can take care of him and be by his side. Always. 


Corey doesn't have any friends. I could have made many friends. But along the way growing up, I could see how you struggled. I couldn't leave you behind. So I stayed beside you.


And now? Maybe I'm just afraid that I will lose you. That you don't need me to protect you and take care of you anymore. If that happens, what will I do?


What will happen to me? I know I'm being pathetic. But you are the only one by my side. Because I never left yours.


Miserable koala