Part 17: Revealing X The X Past

SECCO RASVIN

The morning came and it was the start of our harsh training to build up our strength to open the first Test Gate. It was not easy training for us, though it reminded me of my experience in my years on the ship.

Kurapika and Leorio didn't let Gon do the training because of his serious injuries during the final phase of the Hunter exam.

"But Secco also had injuries! Why can't I join too?!" Gon complained about the two guys' decision while I was just standing beside him, couldn't deal with the situation, and just let out a fake laugh.

"It's because her wounds are not so serious, unlike you," Leorio explained with an annoyed face, poking Gon's forehead. The latter pouted his mouth and just stayed beside a nearby tree, accepted the conditions, and just watched the training.

In the past days, we sometimes caught Gon doing a training on his own, and Kurapika and Leorio really got angry at him.

A few days later, I felt like the training is getting harder and harder as time goes by. I wonder if this is what Killua was doing during his whole childhood. Just doing training in becoming an assassin, not caring for joy and happiness about being a little kid.

It was already night time but I couldn't sleep, even though that's a lot of work. Is it because something's bothering me?

I turned around to see Gon's bed, expecting him to be there, sleeping messily, but the whole bed is empty with no traces of him at all.

Where did he run off to?

Out of curiosity, I got up from the bed and wore the heavy shoes they lend us the other day. Since it's prohibited to go out without wearing the vest, I also wore it. I searched for Gon quietly in all the parts of the cabin, but there was no sign of him.

I looked at a nearby window and saw a silhouette of a boy with spiky hair, doing push-ups. I looked closer and stared at him until I realized that it was Gon doing some training.

He never listens, huh? He always breaks Kurapika and Leorio's orders.

I ran downstairs without making noises and opened the door that leads outside. On the first day, it was hard for me to open this because it weighs a lot of kilograms but now, because of the training, it already feels like a normal door.

I rushed towards Gon doing some exercises, still in bandages. He suddenly stopped moving and noticed me standing meters away from him.

"Secco?!", he startled and suddenly fell on his knees after doing push-ups with one hand. I ran towards him as fast as I can to keep him from falling but still, I didn't make it.

We grabbed something to drink and started a conversation.

"Secco?", he asked me. I looked at him with a questioning look to say that I'm listening.

"Will you tell this to Kurapika and Leorio? Me doing push-ups?"

I finished my drink first and answered his question. "They are worried about you, Gon.", I said with a worried face.

"I know, but, I can't just stand there and let my friends do it for me. They're just here to assist me, not the other way around." he explains and sparkled his eyes at me.

Couldn't stand his hypnotism, I sighed and smiled. "Don't worry, I won't tell them!~"

He smiled back and we laughed together.

"It feels nostalgic. You reminded me of my father, Gon!~" I said to him while we are looking at the starry sky, some stairs are twinkling while the others stayed still.

"Your father?" he asked me, forcing me to tell my relationship with my family. "Oh sorry, I didn't mean to ask about your life, Secco. It's okay for me if you wouldn't tell me."

I know I shouldn't tell him about my past, but it was already exposed, I have no choice. I shook my head, telling him it was fine. "Don't worry, I was planning to tell you all someday, and now is the right time."

"My mother left me after she knew about my arm, and even my father doesn't know where she is. So... he took care of me... and loved me, didn't care about my arm and the people bullying us.", I keep smiling, couldn't help but to be happy.

"I always looked upon him... proud that he is my father. He is my everything... He was working as an auctioneer in Yorknew City, underground or legal auctions, as long as it has a high salary." I hugged my knees for the saddest part of reality.

"But... he left me." when I said this, Gon gave me a surprised expression, couldn't believe what happened in my story. "He lied to me one night... and got sold from the auction. I managed to escape from them after a year of prison, I even killed five bodyguards and it was the first time I knew how dangerous my arm was.", a tear fell on my cheeks, followed by rows. I wiped it with my own hands.

"I-I couldn't believe him! H-he loved me, and I loved him back! It's because of this disgusting arm, my life wasn't normal!" my tears didn't stop falling on my cheeks. I tried to cry in silence and keep my mouth shut, but I couldn't help letting some noises from my mouth.

"Secco..." Gon gave me a worried look and tuck my shoulder. He grabbed for my other shoulder and pulled me to him, hugging me with his warm arms.

"Aha!", I stopped crying when he suddenly shouted. "Why don't you go and see him in Yorknew City? Ask him why did he abandon you."

I fell down my knees and started to think that his idea was really terrible. As if that old man let me enter his home.

"I'm sure... he has a reason why did he do that to you!" his optimism made my eyes sparkle. My tears didn't fall anymore.

"Mm." I nodded and smiled at him. After that long conversation, we decided to head back inside to sleep.

***

I sat on a chair with both hands and feet tied up by a rope. I looked around and I was surrounded by five men.

They are wearing the same tuxedo and some are younger than the other. Wait! They are the five bodyguards I killed at the mansion of that man.

Then, I sensed someone behind me, so I turned my head around as far as I can and saw Killua in my peripheral vision.

"Killchi?" he seems pale and his bangs were hiding his eyes. "What's going on here? Let me go!"

"You're just a burden," he said to me, still not looking at my eyes.

"Eh?" it was my only response as I widened my eyes, confused about what he said to me.

"You're just a burden." when he repeated his words, he lit up his head, showing his deadly eyes, thirsty to kill. "So... I must kill you."

***

"KYAAA!!!" I shouted as I quickly got up my back from the bed, with my whole body started to shiver in fear.

I felt my arm grew into a monster for the third time in my life.

"Secco!" I heard Gon shouted at me. I looked around the room to see a boy ran towards my direction, which was actually Gon, with the worrisome face.

I noticed that my arm was still turning into a monster so I get off from my bed and took some steps backward, with my other hand raised to Gon. If he came near me, he might get hurt.

"N-No, Gon! Don't come near me!" I shouted at him, but I was too late. The tongues already reached for my friend's mouth and trying to move further inside him.

I don't have a choice but to stare at Gon, starting to get purple skin because of the tongue's making an entrance deeper through his body.

After some seconds, the tongues went out like how I saw during the fourth phase of the exam. It grabbed something and I realized that it was Gon's heart. The tongues then crashed it, causing the blood inside it to splash in both me and Gon's lifeless body.

My eyes widened more as I stared at Gon dropped on the floor. A tear fell on my eye.

"Gon!!! No!!!!" I shouted at my tears.

***

I immediately got up from the bed with shaking and sweaty bodies. I can feel my heart started to beat faster than ever.

"I-I killed G-Gon... No..." I muttered as I covered my face using my fingers. I noticed that my demonic arm didn't turn into a monstrous creature at all, and it was all covered with bandages just like before.

So that was all just a dream? If it is, it is the worst nightmare I ever had.

"Secco?", I saw Gon got up from his bed and walked towards my direction at a slow pace. He showed me his worrisome face, just like how he looks in my nightmare. I thought that my dream will be repeated but thankfully, it didn't.

"Are you alright? You look pale," he told me.

All of a sudden, I felt a drop of water fell from my eyes down to my cheeks until I realized it was actually tears, as I knew Gon was fine.

"Eh? Secco, what's wrong?" my companion started to get worried because of my sudden cry. I immediately rubbed my eyes to remove the tears and smiled at him.

"It's nothing."

Still, he doubted accepted my answer and smiled back.

"Kurapika and Leorio already had breakfast to start training. You should, too, okay?!", he said to me. I nodded as an answer.

He suddenly raised his hand formed into a fist and lend it to me, offering me a fist bump.

"Together, let's get Killua back!" he said to me.

My eyes widened in just seconds, which turned into an optimistic smile and accepted his hand.

"Yeah!"