Our Talk

The Way to Become an Empress Special Chapter

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"Ling-er... It seems I tired you out pretty well last night." Ji Zhen Tian chuckled as he said so.

...He did. He took me over and over again, punishing.

But it was a sweet punishment. I didn't exactly hate it. Rather, I liked it even.

I just nodded at his statement.

"Ling-er..." He called out. Then he seemed hesitant to say something. "I want to know things that Ling-er likes too." He said.

...Things I like?

...I don't know.

Because... I'm still on the way of discovering my self myself.

My speechlessness must have troubled Ji Zhen Tian a little.

"If Ling-er doesn't know where to start... then, shall I ask questions?" Without waiting for me to respond to that, he continued, "What does Ling-er want to see?"

...What I want to see?

I thought for awhile.

The first thing that popped up to my mind was...

"Fireworks." I only saw them from the previous Ye Ling's memory. Ye Ling at that time... seemed genuinely happy. Everyone around seemed to be so too. The fireworks I saw from her memory... looked beautiful. I want to see such beautiful things myself too.

"You want to see them?" His eyes looked doting.

"Un." I nodded.

"I'll take note of that." He said.

"Then, what does Zhen Tian want?" I asked this time.

He went silent for awhile, pondering.

"I want to become strong." He said.

"Doesn't being an Emperor mean you're already strong enough?"

He hesitated. "...No."

"Why?" I think I'm being quite insensitive right now. Ji Zhen Tian looked sullen.

"I'll eventually tell you someday." He said. Why won't he tell me now, I wonder.

"Then, what do you think is the means you need to attain strength?" I asked instead. Maybe, I could help.

"...I'm not sure. But... I think if I am able to fight someone who's very experienced and win... but perhaps I couldn't do that... I'm... too weak right now."

"You want to fight against someone experienced? Why? Who do you want to fight?"

"I won't tell Ling-er that." He poked my forehead with his finger.

I held the forehead he poked and blurted out, "If you want to go against someone experienced... then what you simply need is a good weapon, right? Maybe something that can be used from a distance..."

"Such a thing...." Then he paused. He seemed to have considered my suggestion.

I only blurted that out, though. I don't know any means to materialize such a weapon.

But Ji Zhen Tian seemed different. He seemed to have gotten an idea.

Ji Zhen Tian removed my hands that covered my forehead and kissed it.

"Ling-er is such a genius."

Why's that? I didn't say anything special... I'm genuinely confused.

But from there, our topic diverted into something else.

Then, time came for Ji Zhen Tian to leave and visit another woman's palace.

But that night, before Ji Zhen Tian left, he set up a few fireworks for me, and we viewed them together for a short while.

Had he not left, the night would have been more perfect.

I'm really in trouble for thinking so, aren't I?