My final farewell

I've searched for you for awhile now on here. The other day I told myself this would be my last time, But yet there you were. It took me a couple day to build up the courage to write to you tho. So I didn't write till now mostly because I wasn't sure what to say, but I think I figured it out. So here it goes.

My final farewell

I'm happy that I got to call you my friend if only it was for a short while. When I first met you, which to my recall you didn't even remember, I had just moved to a new school. Western brown in the cafeteria...I couldn't believe this guy sitting in front of me with glasses on was about to play cards, with me! And of course with who ever else was there I don't remember. Lol. But then you nudge me with your foot and then your hand, making it completely hard to play cards the entire time. I was like omg who is this guy! And like that you were gone...I never seen you after that. I thought it was for the best because you couldn't have been good for me, nor could you have been interested in me. Lol and you just seemed like a Hugh flirt. (Which as it turns out I wasn't wrong.) but then yet again I changed schools and as faith would have it there you were. Southern hills...I feel like I literally pushed my way into your life. I don't really remember how we met again at that point, I just know that it happen. Even tho we had the some of the same friends it was as if you were a nomad. You were ever were and no where at the same. And could sit anywhere but yet you sat alone at lunch. Of course I wouldn't have this, so again there I was sitting in front of you. It seemed this time you would push me to a distance forever. But we became friend's and it begin to feel like you didn't mind I kept invading your space. Lol and it began to feel like are space, of course that didn't last long before my huddle of friends breeched that. And made it there new table. And let me tell you they weren't there because of me...Even if I knew it would never be more I didn't care, I enjoyed our friendship and hated when you didn't come to school. Even with all the people sitting around me I couldn't indulge in what they were talking about and felt alone, because the one person at school I wanted to talk to wasn't there. Even if you gave me way too much info about who you were dating, and even if it made my heart ache just a bit to hear about it. I didn't care as long as we were talking. And like that you were gone... Now so much time has past but yet I still haven't been able to let you go. Many years ago I told myself that if I ever got the chance to see you again, I wouldn't let it go to waste. That if I could just have a taste of your lips and run my fingers through your hair that would be it. That's all I would need, then I could set you free from my soul. But yet that day never came... then I found you on here. But alas it wasn't meant to be. So it's time to let you go in a different way. It was short but thank you for being my friend. I had many small light that made it bright enough to help be out of the darkness and you were one of them. So again thank you and I'll cherish the little time we had as friends. I'm glad to see you happy and I wish you and yours the best. And I hope you guys have many years of happiness. So good bye.

This of my final farewell...

Lol I really wish I had the nerve to send this. But this will have to be my own way of coping. I don't want to offend any one, cause that is not my intentions. Or make any kind of unnecessary ripple no matter how small. For him or myself. So I'll leave it sit here and read it one more time Before I delete it...🤐😶 and who am I anyways