Alone

I want you, Beatrice, I want you, Beatrice, I want-

"Aaaaah. Get out my fucking head!"

What Lucas said a while ago was ringing repeatedly in her head. She tried to ward them off but it kept wriggling its way inside and find ways to completely bother the hell out of her.

She was left alone to suffer from their conversation after Lucas was called in an emergency meeting back in their company.

He left quickly as soon as he received the call leaving her baffled and her mind was not working properly after receiving that much information.

"How can he say those embarrassing words?!" She covered herself with a pillow feeling her cheeks heat up and covered with red pigment. She closed her eyes but Lucas appeared in her vision.

"I want you, Beatrice"

She mentally screamed telling it to stop and without much thought, she threw the pillow out of embarrassment.

"Stop it, Beatrice! He's an asshole and he just said that to make you confused and constricted."

She tried to reason out as what Lucas said to her doesn't make sense. They never knew each other nor interacted before so how could he say that he wanted her. She doesn't have any amazing qualities and she wasn't attractive so how?

How?!

She sighed and looked up at the ceiling of her room. "Haah! All this thinking is making me hungry again"

She opened the door and was greeted by a complete silence. She noticed that there were no other people in the house except for her and Lucas and now she's alone in this enormous house.

She checked the time and it read 5:30 indicating she was holed up in her room for five hours straight.

No wonder her stomach was complaining all over again. It was grumbling, releasing an atrocious loud sound and she was thankful no one was present with her today.

She opened the refrigerator to get some food and luckily it was full of stock to eat.

She need not to worry about starvation and having nothing to eat in this place as it was a haven of food.

She grabbed some chips and yogurt and some frozen chicken to cook for dinner.

Although Beatrice lived in her condo alone most of the time, she never knew how to cook complicated recipes and would settle with simpler ones and fried chicken is one of those recipes her poor skills in cooking could execute.

She would rather order food online but she got no money and she would rather cook than ask Lucas for money who is fortunately absent today.

Today was a great opportunity for her to escape, but her condo was sold off and she has no money. She got nowhere to go if ever she escaped and she was flat broke.

So escaping might be a terrible decision right now.

She let the chicken sit for a while to defrost it and proceeded to sit on the sofa with chips and yogurt on her hand. She grabbed the remote control of the T.V and turned it on.

"I'm sorry she never got her miracle" the man on the T.V uttered as he was talking with a Reverend.

The scene in front of her was familiar, it was one of those romantic movies she grew up with as a kid and fell in love with.

She ransacked her memories for about a minute and the title of the movie was on the tip of her tongue.

It was A Walk-

"Ah! A Walk to Remember!" she felt a sense of accomplishment and relief as she was able to remember the title. Knowing her, it would be a hassle and it would constantly bug her mind if she doesn't realize the title even though it was very familiar.

The scene in the movie changed and the man was now walking on the bridge near the river. He was walking alone with his hair and clothes tousled by the gentle wind.

His hands were in his pockets and he was looking far out to the horizon.

"Jamie saved my life. She taught me everything….About life, hope, and the long journey ahead.

The man faces the setting sun as the gentle wind swirls around him.

"I'll always miss her. But our love is like the wind. I can't see it but I can feel it."

The man smiles as the scene fades out into the blackness. The credits rolled out but were instantly cut off by an advertisement.

She remembered that she used to love and hate that movie. It was tragic and beautiful at the same time but it was also a constant reminder that life and love can be complicated.

"I wonder what's the feeling of being in love?" She asked herself a question and pondered over it.

Beatrice Chastain had never been in love, she never experienced the marvelous and extraordinary feeling of delirium caused by falling in love. She never felt that incredible rush, that fuzzy feeling, that moment where your world and the surroundings around you brighten up.

Falling in love was a completely unknown phenomenon to her and she both not and wants to experience it. She was scared of what it might bring to her but she also wanted to know the feeling of being in love.

In the movie, the woman he loved dies, and he was left alone and hurt but he was happy in the end. He was happy he was able to fall in love and that was the part she couldn't understand.

Why was he happy? Why was he happy that he fell in love with her? Even though she died and left him alone miserably how can he still be happy freely?

Those were questions she usually asked regarding the movie when she first saw it and now it was still the same questions she's asking.

"Yeah right. That's because it was just a movie but if it happens in real life he would be living a miserable life"

She just couldn't understand love and how it is able to change people in a matter of a heartbeat. She doesn't know what love is capable of doing and how it is able to do that.

She stood up after some deep thoughts which she was very thankful for because her mind was able to forget what Lucas said. She dipped the chicken in egg mixture then the flour mixture and cooked it in a pan.

She ate fried chicken with rice for dinner and spent the entire night watching movies and eating snacks. It was already midnight when she finished watching a movie and she could feel drowsiness coming to her.

She was unknowingly waiting for Lucas to come home but for the entire night, he never showed up at home and was nowhere in sight.