I refuse to let it end here, not after everything that’s happened.

I repeated the same thing in my head for days on end,

Trying to distract myself,

Trying to stop the anxiety I felt daily,

It was so hard,

For the longest time I was alone,

And now I'm trying to reach out farther than I ever did,

In an attempt to fix what was cracked for so long,

Because It's the only option I have left,

Because this is a problem that I can no longer ignore,

Because it's the end game,

and either I win this war,

Or I give up,

And let my past swallow me whole.