Chapter 12 - Lilith's home

It's nearly been a week since Lilith was admitted into hospital, I can honestly say it has been the worst experience ever, I wouldn't admit this to my brothers or Luicfer but I blame myself for the reason why she is in hospital I just keep blaming myself for it, I will say this since she has been in hospital for almost a week I haven't slept or eaten, it's my way of punishing myself really. I know Luicfer told me to rest today but I could bare looking at the empty cot any longer I had to get up.

One morning on the day that I finally leave my room I couldn't be bothered to do anything with my appearance so I decided to go down stairs with my greasy un brushed hair with my slob clothes on. Everyone was already sat at the table and they all turned towards me as I came in I hadn't noticed that we had 2 extra guests in the house that morning, everyone looked at me with concern as my clothes hung off me, my hair was a mess and I looked so drained out of my mind that I couldn't see straight, i noticed that when Asmo looked at me he nearly choked on his food and because I hadn't eaten in days I could barely stand properly, luicfer came running over to me "Charlie, I told you to rest" I really wasn't in the mood for any of this so I turned round and said

"Obviously I had other ideas" of course I had forgotten the only person who has seen me is Luicfer as I'd not come out of my room since Lilith has been in hospital, Satan came over and said

"You should listen to Lucifer, you need to rest" I shook my head which made me light headed and I gripped on to Lucifer's arm for balance,

"Look Charlie you can barely keep you balance up" Mammon said coming over by this point everyone was over to where I was now Asmo put his arm on my shoulder and said

"Charlie I think you should go and have a nice relaxing bath" I shook his hand off of my shoulder and said

"No I'm not going to relax" I was getting annoyed Beel said

"Why cant you"

"Because Lilith isnt home" I snapped at Beel and when i squinted my eyes to see his face i could see that he was hurt by my comment. I felt bad but I was still mad, i hung my head in shame when i noticed that there was another person next to Luicfer i looked up and it was Belphie i started to shake because I was cold as I had no meat on my bones Lucifer took off his jacket and put it over me, Mammon said

"You need to go back to bed Charlie" Lord Diavolo spoke up and said

"I agree with Mammon you should go lie down" I shook my head again causing me to grip more on to Luicfers arm Mammon continued

"Why not, you need it you'll be all nice and tucked up in bed" pulling myself away from Luicfer I looked up at Mammkn

"I cant go back to bed" I was starting to loose my patience with him I'm guessing Luicfer knew what was going to happen and so did Barbatos because before Luicfer go the chance to say anything Barbatos said

"I think you should stop there Mammon" but he didnt listen

"Yes you can" I was now losing all of my patience with him now

"I cant go back to that room" Mammon still going said

"Why not" running my fingers through my matted hair I said

"Bscause I cant be in there any longer" and that's when Mammon said the worst thing possible to me

"Why not, at least you wont be disturbed by Lilith crying, shes not here" that was it I lost it big time I transformed into my demon form and scared the shit out over everyone and I walking all the way put to Mammon and shouted

"DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT IS LIKE STARRING AT HER EMTPY COT EVERYDAY, NOT BEING ABLE TO HOLD HER, GIVE HER CUDDLES, DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT IS LIKE TO HAVE YOUR BREAST CONSTANTLY HURT AND LEAK BECAUSE YOU NEED TO FEED YOU BABY BUT CAN'T" I had lifed up my shirt to expose my painful breasts to him just to show him how much pain I was in I continued as he looked away "DONT YOU DARE LOOK AWAY FROM ME MAMMON, NONE OF YOU KNOW WHAT IT HAS BEEN LIKE FOR LUICFER AND I TO GO THROUGH THIS" Luicfer had come to my side and said

"Honey you need to calm down" I ignored him and carried on I walk closer to Mammon

"WHATS MADE IT WORST IS THAT THE HOSPITAL HAVE NOT TOLD ME ANYTHING, SO FOR ALL I KNOW MY BABY COULD BE DEAD" as I said that I feel to the floor because I could not hold my balance any longer everyone one came rushing over as I cried and Luicfer and Barbatos put theirs arms around my shoulder I said to him in my tears "you know I blame myself with what has happened to my baby, you won't know what it's like until you have a child of your own, and I swear to God, then you'll understand what you and your partner have gone through" that was the last thing I said as I came back to my normal self and I was fading in and out of consciousness through lack of sleep and food, the last thing I remember was falling into Lucifer's chest.

Lucifer's P.O.V

Charlie had collapsed in my arms after her argument with my pathetic brother of mine she lay there heavily breathing and I say "we need to get Charlie to bed" Satan said

"We dont want to put her back in your room as shell still be reminded of Lilith" my smart brother Beel said

"You could put her in her old room, it has no traces of Lilith in there" I look at my brother and reply

"Yes that's a great idea"i stand up with Charlie in my arms and carry on talking "Barbatos could you run Charlie a nice bath for me please"

"Of course"

"Asmo you pick a pair of Charlie's most relaxing pyjamas out for her"

"Sure thing"

"Belphie and Beel could you make Charlie's bed" they nod at me and leave

"Now Satan could you take that one and find a cloth for Charlie's head"

"Of course"

"Lord Diavolo" he chuckles at the comment

"How many times you can drop the formal act" I sigh and said

"Diavolo, could you help me with all of the door please" he nods and he helps my Sith the doors.

Once we get into her room I ask everyone if the could leave just while I bathe her once that was done and she was in bed with a cloth on her head. I pulled up a chair and sat on it and took her in mine I turn to everyone and said

"I cant believe that she blames herself" Asmo sits on the floor next to me and says

"I know I wonder what brought this on" I watch Charlie sleep while squeeze her hand I felt a hand on my shoulder I look up to see who it was and to my surprise it was Lord Diavolo he smiled at me and said

"The reason why she said that is because she couldn't do anything to make Lilith better and had to leave her in the care of someone else" I look at charlie again to watch her breathing which had slowed to her normal pace Satan said

"I think we should all leave and let Charlie rest, she needs it, come on Luicfer" I really didnt want to leave her, I wanted to be with her when she wakes so I said

"I'm going to stay with her" Satan nodded and everyone left and I stayed by her side until she woke up

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When I wake up again I realise that I'm in my old room, it felt like being in here for the first time again allcmy memories come back to me, I look to my right and I find my Luicfer holding my hand with his head leaning on my bed I giggled a little and stroke his raven black hair causing him to stir in his sleep he opens his eyes and I say "good morning sweetheart" he blushes before kissing my hand and replying

"Good morning princess, how are you feeling"

"Much better"

"I'm glad to hear it"

"Can I ask something Lucifer"

"Sure"

"One how long have I been asleep and two have you been at my side all the time" he chuckled and said

"You've been asleep for 4 days and yes I have been by your side the whole time" i blushed to think that he'd say with me just at that moment Lucifer said

"I bet you hungry, so I'll help you down to breakfast"

"Thank you" he helped me off of the bed and helped me walk down stairs towards the dining room. I reached the dining room where everyone was including Diavolo and Barbatos were there, as I walked in everyone looked in my direction and were so pleased to see me looking better Satan helped Luicfer sit me down in my chair before Lord Diavolo asked

"How are you feeling Charlie"

"I feel very refreshed after 4 days of sleep" I giggled Barbatos placed a pate of food down in front of me and said

"I only gave you a little amount of food as I didnt want to overload you stomach" I giggled and started to eat the most scrumptious food I've ever eaten and I ate the lot, as we carried on eating my D.D.D started ringing I looked at it before answering with a concerned look on my face Levi said

"Charlie what's wrong" still looking at my phone I say

"Its the hospital" I looked at Luicfer and started to panic "do you think something has happened to Lilith" he placed a hand on mine and said

"The only way is to answer it and find out" I nod and answer the phone and I prepare my phone speaking tone that no one has heard before

Me: Hello

Doctor: Hello is this Charlie Spicer

Me: Speaking

Doctor: Hello, I was just phoning up about your daughter

Me: *squeezes Luicfers hand* what's happened is she okay

Doctor: she fine I was just phoning to let you know that she can come home

Me: *tears fall from my eyes* really

Doctor: yes

Me: okay I'll come right away thank good bye

As I put the phone down I look at Luicfer with tears running down my face he says "Charlie what's the matter" I didnt say anything when Belphie said

"Charlie what did the hospital say" I look at everyone with tears now drenching my sleeve as I wiped them I replied

"Lilith can come home" I started to cry harder and Luicfer held me tight in his arms I looked at him and said "Our baby can come home Luicfer" he replied

"I know, shall we leave then" i nod my head and leave to go and bring my daughter home.

Once we are leaving the hospital with Lilith in our arms I say thank everyone who help Lilith at the hospital, I couldn't describe the feeling of having Lilith in my arms again, when we got back to the house we walking into the living room where everyone was at the time and they all greeted me with Lilith in my arms I sat down on a chair and she started to cry to I said "please excuse me with what I'm about to do I took off her blanket and put it over my shoulder, took Lilith back, got my breast out from under the blanket, placed Lilith near my breast and she immediately started suckling my milk from my breast. I started to smile as I came from underneath the blanket Asmo said "bet that feels nice huh Charlie" i look at him and replied

"Asmo you have no idea what this feels like right now"i go back under the blanket to change her over to the other breast and I was so happy the my Lilith is home.