To Marineford

"Captain!..." Bepo charged into the room as I was explaining Shira's plan to Hat-kun. Bepo's eyes locked onto me and whatever he was going to say seemed to leave him. I couldn't tell if he was shocked to see me moving around or just scared.

Hat-kun cleared his throat, stealing back Bepo's attention. "You came here to tell me something?" Trafalgar leaned back in his chair, resting his hands behind his head. Bepo's gaze was reluctant to leave mine but he did so anyways.

"It's Strawhat. He just showed up at Firefist Ace's execution." Trafalgar's hat hides his eyes from my view, but his lips formed a half cocked smile.

"That guy never ceases to amaze me. Well, he is a D afterall." Hat-kun rose to his feet and readjusted his hat. "Tell the crew to set sail for Marineford. It'd be a waste to let Strawhat-ya die." Bepo nodded his head and ran out of the room. I rose to my feet, ready for my orders also. "Raven-ya, you are going to stay here and rest."

"B-but I feel fine! I can help!" I pleaded. Does he really think I'm that weak?

He turned his eyes to meet mine and his glare sent chills down my spine. "That wasn't a request."

I held my fear back in my chest, I wouldn't back down on this. "I can fight! You are diving headfirst into the marine's base. You are going to need all the help you can get!" I could feel my voice beginning to rise, along with my anger.

"No, it's more dangerous for you to come. You're a timebomb and we can't keep an eye on you and still fight." And there it was, what I'd been fearing since I joined the crew. They think I'm a freak, they think I can't be trust.

"Fine... Go get yourself killed, see if I care." I bumped into his shoulder as I shoved past him and out of the room. I was halfway down the hallway before my cheeks began to feel cold. I slowed my pace and lightly touched my face. It was wet... I was crying. No, no, no. I'm stronger than this. Suck it up whimp! I dug my nails into my palm as I continued to make my way to my room. I shoved the door open, hitting my toe in my rage. "Shit," I muttered under my breath. I slammed the door behind me, the sound ringing in my ears like a bombshell. I kicked my boots off and flopped onto my bed. I just sat there, staring at the metallic ceiling.

"You know they don't want you here. You should just go, but then again, no one will ever want you."

"Shut the hell up." I whispered as I wrapped my pillow around my ears and drowned out the whole world.