Why Can't You?

I was left in a state of shock after the teacher said that cause the secret that I've been keeping all this while even hiding it from Oppa and you want me to unhide just because of a silly prize. I know I may sound weird to some but I can't accept the prize.

Y/N : "Ma'am I'm sorry to say this but I can't accept the prize."

The teacher was so shocked and so was everyone cause it was a one in a billion or once in a lifetime or even eternity chance and I was just letting it slide.

Teacher : "Y/N listen. How about you think it through and then reply on it? Cause it's a huge thing. I think you do know the chance you're getting is not something anyone easily gets. You're getting cause you're talented and everyone knows our school respects and nurtures real talents. Please Y/N think it through."

Y/N : "Ma'am I've done all my thinking and then only I'm saying this but I can't accept this offer. I also do know how big of a chance this is but I just can't."

Irene : "Ma'am Y/N doesn't wants to do it then let it go. It's her choice you should give this chance to me cause I'm the second one."

Teacher : "Irene would shut up! There something else I need to talk to you but I'll do that later. Y/N why do you don't wanna do this? You joined our school to pursue in music and dance then why are you not agreeing to do this."

Y/N : "There are reasons to why I'm doing this but I just can't."

Bomin : "Y/N why can't you? You're so talented. You're not respectable of the talent you got. You're getting the chance to show it and you're disrespecting that as well. If someone else had the amount of talent you had they'd be so happy to get this chance."

Y/N : "This was reason Bomin. This was reason why I wanted to hide my talents and who I really am till the end. But I don't know what got into me today. You guys never understood me. You never did and you're never gonna do it. You guys just judge me. I was always a nerd so you judged me. When today I performed you guys judged me. You know judging doesn't always means in a bad way. Judging can be positive as well. But who are you to judge me. UHHH!!!!"

With that I just ran away. I couldn't take it anymore. I don't know what got into me but I just bursted out. I thinks it's all the thinks that have been piling up inside of me because of my secret.

I miss you eomma! I miss you appa! I Miss you both so much!!!!

*NO ONE'S POV*

Seeing Y/N burst out like that everyone was shocked cause she's never done that before. It was really new for everyone. Seeing a totally different her.

When she ran away Dahyun ran behind her and tried to catch up with her. Seeing all of this Seonghwa was also shocked cause he has seen her dance before but he couldn't get one thing in mind as to why she reacted like that. He now was sure that there was something that she wasn't telling him and he wanted to know what it was.

He wanted to go and comfort her but Hongjoong stopped him saying.

Hongjoong : "Seonghwa hyung get yourself together. We're in a public place yet alone her school. Don't go behind her. Dahyun went to see her. You can talk to her later. For now stay here for the safety of both of you. Please listen to me just this once. It's really important. Please stay."

Seonghwa get what he was trying to d say so tried to control himself cause he was really anxious.

Manager : "Excuse me receive actually ATEEZ needs to leave now."

Principal : "Oh ya. Thanks for coming to judge their finals and sorry for the fiasco that happened here. I hope you don't mind and thanks."

ATEEZ greeted and left. Seonghwa sneakily left for the rooftop cause Y/N told him that whenever Dahyun or her needs so place to think they go there. So he quickly went there.

*Y/N POV*

I'm so sad and angry on both how everyone reacted and also on how I reacted. I came to rooftop cause it's the most quite place where I can find a piece of mind. Soon Dahyun came.

Dahyun : "I know Y/N why you're doing all of this. I know why you don't wanna be there. I know--"

Y/N : "No Dahyun no one knows that. No one knows why I don't wanna participate in that performance. No one knows and no one wants to understand why is it so. Dahyun you know why I've been like this for so long."

Dahyun : "I know Y/N what is talking about. I know but till when?"

Y/N : "What till when?"

Dahyun : "Till when are you gonna keep it?"

Y/N : "Dahyun there's nothing hidden from you. You know I've worked so hard on my secret. You know how hard it is and was since the beginning for me. To keep this secret from everyone including Oppa. I know he's gonna be mad at me but I'll take whatever he gives me. I've hidden only one thing from him and that is my secret. The secret I'm so scared of the world knowing. The secret that I've kept for years. The secret that made me run away from home. I live with the girls. But still I sometimes feel like I'm so alone and lonely. Hiding my secret from Oppa was a big thing for me and I don't even know how to tell him about it now."

??? : "What secret are you talking about?"