Journey To My Dreams

I decided to keep everything aside and focus on my training. I've been training for around a year. The date for pre-debut activities begin soon. So I need to focus on them as well. I'm just fed up with the amount of complications in my life.

Let's get it straight Y/N! Let's just focus on your dreams right now. Lets see what my schedule for the next week. I opened my phone to see my schedule, but there wasn't any. Maybe the manager forgot to send me the schedule, so I decided to ask unnie for it.

Y/N : "Manager-unnie, I don't seem to have the schedule, can you please send it again. Not now, knowing you're driving, but later."

Ae-ha : "Don't worry, Y/N. I'll send it to you."

Y/N : "Oh thank you unnie."

Soon I got the schedule and I started reading my schedule. Currently all of us have the same schedule, but sometimes we have different, mainly because as I said I'm the hidden card of the group so there are places where I can't go with them.

Like photoshoot which are being held outside the company, like a magazine or like that. Or an interview. They want me hidden cause, I'm the last to join. I still feel like a newbie while I rehearse with them. But even though I was the last one to join, they treat me like we've known each other for a long time. I feel blessed to have them by my side.

Manager : "Oh Y/N, that reminds me you have a photoshoot on 2nd June. It's a solo shoot. So be prepared. Remember, its on 12th April."

Y/N : "Ok I'll remember, 12th April. My solo photoshoot manager-nim."

I said that cheekily which made everyone laugh. I opened the calendar app on my phone to feed it on 2nd June, so I'll remember it. But when I opened it I saw something that brought back a lot of my past memories and made me remember someone even more than ever.

My past memories just came right in front of my eyes and I got teary remembering all of it. I tried my best to control myself, but I just couldn't and I sobbed loudly that everyone look at me.

Berry : "Yah! Y/N what happened to you? Why are you crying?"

And that's when I lost it and started crying loudly, I cried my eyes out.(Author : If that makes sense)

All of them were wondering why was I did I suddenly started crying. But they kept consoling me at first.

*TIME SKIP*

I did eventually stop crying, but due to so much crying my eye were puffy red and my voice became a little hoarse. If you see me or even hear me you'll know I cried. The members and my manager unnie did ask me why did I cry. They even teased about Seonghwa Oppa, saying that if he's gonna breakup with me and that's why I'm crying. They know how to make me laugh.

We soon reached the office and of course the other members did ask about if I cried or not. And also who made me cry. Having such members and even managers that fool around just to make you laugh. I know one thing is that, even though I have sorrow in my life but I also have happiness in my life. That happiness is brought by my members, my managers and of course the love of my Park Seonghwa Oppa.

We decided not to waste a lot of time and start rehearsing. Currently we working on a cover. The song we're covering is our senior BTS's ON. I would be lying if I say its not hard, but its super hard. The main chorus part is so difficult that I've actually hurt myself, but you know I'm super determined right now about my dreams so, as soon I recovered I joined back.

Our company doesn't over work us, but it is us who over work ourselves. After dancing for about 2 hours, our choreographer begged us to stop dancing cause he was also tired.

Choreographer : "Wah! You girls are surely something. You dance for 2 hours non-stop. I don't get how you don't get tired, I get tired just by teaching."

He clapped while saying it and all of just chuckled at his reaction.

Berry : "Sir, its the determination that makes you go there. Plus the determination Y/N has is not even comparable to us."

Ae-ha : "Yeah even when she hurt herself. She took a week off, but in that week she worked so hard on her vocals and raps. She also made compositions. That girl is something."

Choreographer : "I would be agree on that. Y/N is truly something."

While we were chatting we didn't even notice that Bang pd-nim came in our rehearsal room. He heard every single bit of our conversation.

Bang pd-nim : "Y/N!"

Y/N : "Oh pd-nim! Yes?"

Bang pd-nim : "Y/N you know, you all remind me of the tome when I was working on BTS. You all are just as passionate as them. You all work hard so you can reach your dream. And that's good, but taking care of yourself is also important. Y/N I know what all you've overcome just to be here, but your health also matters. So all of you take care. And you Mr. Choreographer, you shouldn't over work my girl, and if you do then you know what's gonna happen to you."

That made all of us laugh and we had a 20 minutes just so we can freshen ourselves up. I was just scrolling through my personal Instagram when I got a call from Oppa. I went somewhere else, where I can get some privacy.

*ON CALL*

Seonghwa : "Hey Jagiya! What are you doing? I hope I didn't disturb you!"

Y/N : "No, you didn't disturb we're currently on break from rehearsing."

I totally forgot that my voice was still coarse from all the crying. I didn't even notice that my voice was sounding really weird but Oppa noticed it.

Seonghwa : "Y/N did you cry? And don't even think about lying to me cause I know you did. Tell me now who or what made you cry? Jagiya tell me."