✿ Chapter Eighteen

NATHANN'S POV

Walking up to my locker, I noticed it was slightly open. I frowned as I slowly opened the locker door and saw a note inside with a flower beside it.

Funny. A flower. An innocent flower that for sure didn't know was killing me already.

A scoff came out of my mouth before grabbing the note that was written with such neat handwriting. A small smile begged to show but I forced a straight face, knowing very well it was from Geor. The small stickers on the note gave it away, even putting his most valued sticker on.

Please don't tell me to leave you alone, Nathann. You're my best friend, and you're the one I really like. Please...

My heart skipped a beat as I read the note. My heart was telling me to let him in, but my mind said otherwise. I didn't want to hurt him when... He didn't successfully save me. I know he's already suffering right now, knowing his one and only best friend since birth is gonna die, because of a stupid reason called love.

I didn't want to fall in love, because I knew for sure it wouldn't be reciprocated. I didn't hope. I didn't pray for it. Because even if I did, all I would be given is pain and rejection.

I didn't even know I have feelings for Geor, let alone being a part of the LGBTQ+ community. I knew my parents would be very much disappointed if they found out I was a part, so I kept my mouth shut.

I don't want to hurt anyone anymore. If I was gonna die, then I die. I want to distance myself from everyone, so no one will get hurt more than they already are. Especially Geor.

I don't want to see Geor stressing and crying over the fact I was gonna die. But then again, I appreciate that he was trying all sorts of things to try and save me. But I know he'll never be able to save me. Not when he's feelings for me are not genuine.

"Nathann..."