Side chapter: The untold truth

I lost her again...

It's always been like this...

Whether it is in this life or the next or the past...

You'll never be mine.

And I...

I will now have to stand by your side not as a lover but as one of your appointed guardians.

Just like what father and mother wished for me to do...

I will do my duties as your god-brother. I will try to help you break away from the endless cycle.

I will forever love you, though I still hold some romantic feelings towards you, I have to fulfill my promise to myself. I wasn't able to win your love in 10 lifetimes and this was the final chance I had. Now it's time to move on from my love for you, my dear sister.

And just like that, I had begun writing my final letter to the one person who I cherished the most whilst reminiscing about my past.

It only took Rhea in this lifetime to make me finally see that, throughout all the lives we had lived together, she only saw me as family...someone who she could rely on but not someone who would stay by her side forever until death.

Maybe that's why father put me through.

Maybe this wasn't just his punishment for me but to give me enlightenment.

Now after 10 lifetimes I can finally go back, my wings have fully grown back and now the Carisons symbol has reappeared on my neck.

I can finally go home after so long I can finally go back to the land of the gods...

Just thinking about it made me feel happy, I swear I'll protect my little sister no-matter where she is or what time she is in. Father and mother appointed me as her guardian and just like this, I will finally be able to look after her once I return.

It was really foolish of me to think that this punishment was a curse from father. But it turns out that I was just careless and foolish back then too...

Remembering back to when I had first met Rhea, she was the new priest my parents had adopted as their god-daughter. I knew it was wrong of me to try to change destiny by justifying my actions with my love for her.

I did some terrible things, I caused harm to Rhea and on top of that, I stripped her of her life by playing with her life strand.

I was and am the Operator, I am a god who foresees each world and every single being's life strand. My job was to not alter or touch the life strands but to make sure nothing would happen to it as I looked over the various world's...

But because I had fallen for Rhea and her pure and kind personality, I had lost clarity and my judgment was clouded. As of right now, I'm considered to be in my early adulthood faze and as the son of the Goddess Linila And the Supreme God Halos, I was gifted with beautiful angel wings to represent my role in judgment and overseeing life.

But because of my meddling with Rhea's life strand, I was forced to live in a constant loop of watching the woman who I had loved to be taken away. My powers stripped and slowly my love for her faded as I saw her happy and gorgeous smile to the man she stood beside.

I used to think 'how nice would it be if she smiled like that to me?' Or 'maybe I'll get to be that man in our next life...'

I used to hate the fact that she remembered the lifetime's where I never meet her. I use to ask why mother had allowed her to take on this endless task.

What was the put in sending her to these worlds just to kill her in the end?

I hated Jackson's existence as he was the only obstacle in the way of achieving my happiness with Rhea. I had really envied Rhea's soul mate, Jackson as he took her away from me in every single lifetime.

But now seeing how devoted he is to keep following her and enduring the consequences for reincarnation with her. I can finally say that I wish for their happiness, and for him to protect and cherish her with all he has. As this might be my last time being in her life.

Just like in every lifetime they managed to find themselves together, even when they don't remember each other. The smiles and looks in their eyes were always the same, ones of passion, love, and affection.

I use to question why my destiny was to sit and watch as Rhea was taken away from me. But as I became apart of her life and not just a heavenly entity that she worshipped I was able to see how my previous thoughts were foolish.

I didn't write any of this down as it was quite personal, so after taking my time ending my precious recollection of memories. I had written what I sincerely wanted to say to her...

We weren't fated lovers but I wanted to have you, so bad to myself but...

You were never mine in the first place...

You don't know this but in our original lifetime, I had gotten to have your love and care...

Even if it was for a single moment, but because I fooled around with your life strand I had caused you to lose your life at that time...

You never got to meet Jackson in that lifetime and I'm sorry for that.

I'm sorry Rhea...

No...

Lilith.

You are your own person now, whether or not you remember who you were or who I am, who mother is and who father is...

You won't remember Jackson but he'll always be there for you. So will father, mother and I...

Whether you remember or not I'll continue watching over you...

We all will,

You weren't and never will be truly alone.

This message will be delivered to you once you meet Jackson though it is up to him to unlock this message and it's also up to him to inform you about everything.

From your god-brother Aaron…

(But you know me as Felix.)

After finishing writing the message for Lilith, I signed it and sent it away to Jackson, as he is the only one other than me who remembers our past, though it does seem like he didn't realise that Lilith is his soul mate as his memories of his lover are blurred.

I had already flown my way to God Lands Gates, this was the final moment to which I had to say goodbye to this world as I will be kept away from the mortal life until another lifetime or two passes.

But I have no regrets whilst my stay as a mortal rather I'm grateful for it and as I crossed the heavenly barrier to the land of the gods my last thoughts were of Rhea.

I really wish I could've stayed longer...

But now...

Maybe...

Just maybe...

I'll let you go...

I wish that in your next life, and at a time we meet, whether you remember me or not. I do hope that I can regain your trust and that you look towards me as an older brother.

I bless that you'll live happy with your fated soulmate who will forever be with you no matter the lifetime and I really do promise to you that I'll be there for you no matter what, but until then please live happily without me...

This is the least I can do for you...

Goodbye Rhea...