Five

He watches him as he looks at her,

He smiles, knowing he was much capable of loving and making her happy,

He watches him help her get up, making sure not to make her stumble on the ground as she clings into her.

"Brother"

his eyes drifted from them to his brother.

"Did you regret it?"

Then he looks at them.

"You could have had her"

He added, making him feel an odd feeling on his stomach.

"Yeah, I know Brother"

He sighs, looking at the sky where his pet was flying wandering around the place

"Our 'Almost' will always hunt me"

He chuckles, releasing his laugh in the process.

"But looking at her now, looking so happily in his arms. I don't regret it"

I said, watching as Arthur chase after her, smile painted both on their lips.

"But you loved her... You still do"

"Louis"

He called his brother, this time making Louis at Gilbert

And shocked to see him looking serious as he watches them from afar.

"I hurt like hell."

Louis watch him tear up.

"It fucking hurts like hell"

He added, watching as his older brother for the first time let his guard down.

"But"

He then once again chuckle.

" She suffered a lot from loving me"

He sighs, rubbing the back of his head.

"I cannot be selfish and burst out 'I Love You' like I promised myself I would"

He then called his bird, letting it rest on his shoulder.

"I know Claire, once she says that. There's no turning back, I know that of course. That's one thing I always love about her"

He smiled, wiping his tears.

"I still love her; she isn't just a star to me."

He then put his attention back to Claire and Arthur who was having a peaceful picnic from afar.

"She was my whole damn sky"

"Why did you let her go?"

He sighs, his brother won't let this go until he said the truth, right?

"I didn't"

He stated, eyes closing as his bird starts to snuggle with him.

"I had to let her go because... I love her"

He started,

"when she told me, she's giving up on me as she looked at me in the eyes hurts, it was as if my whole awesomeness was robbed out of me."

He added,

"she looked like she was begging me to let her go, let her free form her suffering from loving me"

He sighs,

"So, I did, I.... I can't"

He holds back a sob,

"I can't be selfish when she was begging me not to tell her I love her. I can't be selfish when the one love the most was breaking on front of me just because... because of me"

He opened his eyes, watch him hug her close.

"Besides, I think that gentleman is doing his job taking care and treating her what she deserves."

He said, standing up.

"Come one, let's go bro"

Patting the back of his brother as he turns around.

"how did you know he was taking a good care of her; this is the first time you've seen her for years"

His younger brother asked him, deep voice wondering.

He shrugs,

"I have my ways. Right Gilbird?"

the bird then chirps

"How about your feelings, brother?"

"Nothing changed"

he laughs.

"I'm still awesome as always."

I guess I'm still holding on something that I know probably never happened as I miss the chance, but somewhere deep inside me, I still have this little piece of hope that someday, it will.

"I need a drink"