Nine

He was stupid, as soon as he made it out of the resto he just want to kill himself for saying those things to her, he was mad, he was furious but he knew he shouldn't said those things to her, it was so unfair of him to say something like that to her that he just want to dig a hole 6 feet deep and bury himself in it, or better much disappear.

With a tear stained face, he found himself on a playground near the resto, he sit on one of the bench. Claire lingering on his thoughts. He was a fucker to say something like that giving up thing, he didn't even deserve to say something like that nor deserve to give up on her when all he ever did was to hurt her with his oblivious self.

He might not be a dumb when it comes to war crafts or something in the army but he was sure dumb when it comes to love. For a moment he wish he should have bought Gilbird with him.

For a moment a flash of memory of her come into him.

"When you felt like giving up"

She hold his hand and hold him up

"Remember why you held on for so long in the first place"

She said smiling sheepishly at him

This snap him out of his endless thoughts,

Shit! like the hell I'm giving up on her now!

He stand up from the bench, only to be sited again when he bump into someone.

"das tut weh!!"

he said in his native language, german.

When he look up to see who he bumped with, he realize it was just her. And he sigh in relief, he was about to ask if she was okay but she stood up so fast and said

"I was so in love with you that I ignored how horribly you treated me"

She said, looking at him dead in the eye.

"You're right"

He was about to speak about but she gave him no time to reply.

"And I can't wait to see the day where you realize how much you fucked up"

He sweat dropped at his, but let's her continue as he look at his lap.

It was unusual for him.

"But.."

Then he realize she was crying again.

"You thought me that love can be such an amazing thing"

He look up to meet her teary glaze

"So tell me Gilbert, If you really love me, why did you let me let you go so easily"

She cried, closing her eyes as tears ran out, then she left his hand on her cheeks, gently stroking it, wiping her tears in the process,

"you deserve the world, you know."

He smile sheepishly at her as she open her eyes at his answered

"I love you and you deserve happiness. That's all I want for you, I'd rather go through any pain than be the reason why you're miserable."

He sigh, his red eyes filled with sadness

"I was already the reason why you're hurting that time, that would be to selfish of me to say I love you when I know I've hurt you during the last couple of decades"

She sob at his words, waiting for him to continue,

"The moment you told me you're giving up on me i lose myself"

He followed

"That time you give up on us before we could even start, that time i lose you. And the worst thing about losing you is that you took my heart with you"

He place his free hand on his chest,

"I'm sorry"

Just like that, he was breaking down in front of her

"The... there's nothing to be sorry about"

He hold into her, holding her close to him, she still standing.

"No. I shouldn't let you give up easily on my awesomeness"

That was one way to break the mood

She break out from his hug and get a hold of his tan cheeks,

"No"

She cried

"I'm sorry I'm not that strong to hold up for us"

He kiss her nose.

"You're forgiven"

"Just like that?"

"Yeah, I'm too weak for you"

She smile at him, looking at him straight in the eyes.

"Can I kiss you?"

"I thought you'll never ask"

Without second thoughts, he pull her at the back of the neck close to him.

As their lips meet,

everything comes back into her, all the pain, suffering, all the sleepless nights, all the thoughts.

But she knew this was worth it,

It was worth watching him from afar back then,

Because that's what it takes to have this man in her arms right now.

Both of them pull away, panting.

Eyes sparkling at each other,

telling each other,

"I love you"

"I love you too"