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Tyler's thoughts:
Coming out to my dad…
Why had I been so nervous?
He'd already rejected me…
He'd already abandoned me…
I shouldn't be this crushed by his response…
Chris:
*Watching the road with a glare
*bruised right knuckled
*glances at Tyler
I'm sorry…
Tyler:
*Fidgets with thumbs
You don't have anything to apologize for…
Tyler's thoughts:
I can't believe he punched my dad!
I couldn't bring myself to do it myself…
I'm a coward…
Chris:
*Grips steering wheel tighter
Still… I was hoping to make this day special…
…
Tyler:
…
*Awkward
Chris:
Ty… what were you two talking about before?
Tyler:
*Grips pants
A lot...
Tyler's thoughts:
I can't work with someone who said what he said today…
… I still can't believe he'd actually say those things…
especially in public…
Tyler:
*Sob
Chris:
*Stunned
Ty--….
*Pulls car over
*Leans towards Tyler
*Pulls Tyler to rest his head on his shoulder
*kisses the top of his head
*sad eyes
I'm sorry he said those things…
I can't even imagine how much that hurts to hear a parent say that…
Tyler:
*Sobbing
Why do I care?
I don't understand why I care so much about what he thinks!
*Looks up at Chris with tears in his eyes
Chris:
*Pained face
Because no matter how crappy of a parent he has been…
He's still your dad.
Tyler:
*Squeezes eyes shut
*tears spilling
… I know you had all these plans for today…
I really just need to lay down and think for awhile…
Chris:
*places hands on the steering wheel
*Blank expression
Alone?
Tyler:
*Eyes open quickly
No!
Just us though.
Can we just be somewhere quit for awhile?
Chris:
*Nods head
*Soft smile
Chris's thoughts:
I had the whole day planned…
Go for a hike and eat a picnic that I have packed in the back of the car.
We were going to spend the rest of the day shopping at the random stores in the street.
There's a farmer's market today, I wanted to share an ice cream with him while we looked through the venders.
We have dinner reservations at the hotel's restaurant that looks out over the lake.
After dinner we would walk the boardwalk and then, instead of dropping him off at home,
I booked a hotel room at the resort…
Chris & Tyler:
*Chris curled around Tyler from behind on Chris's bed.
Chris:
*Forehead resting against Tyler's back
*Concerned expression
What… what were you talking about before I showed up?
Tyler:
*Shivers
Chris:
*Squeezes Tyler
Tell me… talk to me…
You've been so quiet since we got home.
I miss your voice.
Tyler:
*huff
*Blank stare forward
He's married. I have two half siblings.
My mother willed me her shares in the company that my family apparently owns.
He offered me a job at the company. He said I would need to move closer to the company….
Which is Newark. Which would be amazing, because we could stay close when you go to Juilliard next year…
Chris:
*Frustrated
Except for the fact that you have no real interest in running a business…
Tyler:
*focused expression
Tch
I don't really care about that…
I can work a job I don't like if it means I can take care of you.
Chris:
*Eyes wide
Tyler:
It's just the idea of working with him now that he's publicly called me a perverted waist of cum...
Chris's thoughts:
… That honestly wasn't the worst thing he said to us…
Tyler:
How could I work with someone who threatened the person I love's life?
Talk about hostile work environ—
*Kiss
Chris:
*pulls away from the kiss with a slight smile
Sorry… you've just never said it before… so I got a little excited…
Tyler:
*Confused
What haven't I said?
Chris:
*Blush
You haven't said that you love me…
Tyler:
*BLUSH
Yes I have!
Tyler's thoughts:
Have I?
I've thought it. I've thought it in my head for so long it hurt. I think it every time I see his face, wether in person or in my imagination.
Have I not been saying it out loud?!
Chris:
*Looks amused
I would know if you did Tyler…
Tyler:
*Rolls on top of Chris
*Bring face very close to Chris
I love you Christopher Masters. I love you. I love you. I love you.
I have been saying it for so long inside of head…
*Kiss
*Pulls away
*Smiles
I will say it out loud from now on.
Chris's thoughts:
He's smiling.
Chris:
*Soft eyes
*Smiles
*Reaches hand up to Tyler's cheek
I love you too.