Chapter 17

NIGHT'S POV:

I sighed again and I don't know how many times I did this since I got out from the cafeteria. I don't even know how I got out and arrived here in my condo, all I know is that I am not in my right mind right at this time.

Should I be upset while hearing those from that girl?

We don't have any relationship, right? And as far as I know, Ethereal is a straight man and I know that he won't like a man also.

Maybe when he did all those gestures, it was just a pure goodness, as a friend but not more than that. Am I wrong in assuming that there's a chance, a possibility that a guy I like will like me too? I mean, this is the first time that I have someone I like, this feeling is foreign to me but I didn't know that I would be heartbroken because of it too.

After all, I always believe that the things that make you happy are the things that can hurt you the most also. I shook my head and changed my clothes before lying down on my bed. I slowly close my eyes and remember all the negative things that I can think of and I didn't notice how I sleep but I am thankful that I did.

I don't know what time it is but I woke up suddenly because of the sound of my stomach. I slowly stood up and flicked the light switch before looking for my phone in the bag. By the way, it's already morning, I didn't even realize it.

I saw a few calls from P'Ocean made to me and the others as well as Ethereal and P'Cadwell also and the others too, fortunately it was put on silent. I don't want to talk to any of them now. I just sighed and took a shower.

I glanced at my calendar that was hanging on my walls and saw that today, I needed to go to the cemetery. I just cooked some bacon, egg and fried rice after I changed my clothes into a white long sleeve hoodie and black ripped jeans with a pair of white Nike shoes.

After that I just took my phone and then wallet before leaving my condo. I closed it first before walking and calling a taxi.

"Where is our destination, sir?" The Driver asked.

I looked at him and saw a man who was still not that old, he was only in his mid-40's, I guess. "Xuaereved's street please." I answer him.

"Are you sure, sir?" He startled and asked which made me nod. "Then let's go, I'll take you there." He just said and drove the car to the place I said.

I just kept quiet on the ride until I remembered that I still had to buy flowers.

"P', can we go to a flower shop? I'll just buy flowers." I ask him.

He nodded. "All right, sir. Don't worry." He answered and then the taxi suddenly stopped in front of a flower shop.

"Wait a minute, I'll be back." I said and got out of the taxi. I suddenly entered the store and the woman at the counter looked at me immediately. She has long tied hair and wears thick glasses but she looks cute since she was wearing a pink dress.

"What flower do you need?" She asked me in a modest tone.

"Roses and tulips, I need one small basket of red roses and one basket also of tulips." I answered.

She just smiled. "I'll be back, please take a seat first." She mumbled while pointing at the couch behind me so I smiled back and sat at the couch.

I just waited a few minutes before he came again carrying my order. I just smiled at her then paid before getting out of there again. I put the two baskets of flowers inside the taxi and then we left. When the car stopped again for the last time, I immediately looked around. The street is not here yet but I understand why the driver does not want to enter that road.

"I'm sorry, sir. We're just really avoiding that street. This is the only place I can really take you." He mumbled politely but I just smiled.

"I understand, thank you." I just replied and then gave him my payment.

He nodded and concern was obvious on his face. "Be careful there, sir." He reminded me with a serious face which made me nod and walk into the street that I wanted to go.

I just walked straight while carrying the two baskets and looked to the side. The walls surrounding this street are full of vines. It really looks abandoned and there are many rumors also that criminals are hanging here so maybe that's the reason why no one goes to this place.

I shook my head on that idea since I was already near the cemetery when I felt many eyes looking at me but I just didn't mind them since I am still pretending that I don't know anything.

I arrived in front of a mausoleum that was painted with white and gold outside. I entered my finger print on the scanner that was on the wall and entered inside after it opened but I just smiled when I saw someone inside already.

"Good morning, uncle." I greeted him and walked towards the graves.

"I thought you wouldn't visit them. It's been so long since the last time that you did this." He mumbled calmly.

I glanced at him and smiled faintly. His face was still the same 6 years ago but because of age, it was already showing on his skin.

"You know I can't forget them, they are the only people who accept my personality aside from you." I calmly answer him before turning my attention back to the two graves.

"What's the news? How are you?" He asked in a serious tone.

I sighed. "I already found him." I answered truthfully.

I heard him breath a sigh of relief. "How is he?" He asked and I felt how he turned his face onto me.

I glance at him and bite my lip hesitantly. "He was fine but I discovered something." I answered which made him look at me.

"What do you mean?" He asked with a confused face and tone.

I sighed and closed my eyes helplessly. "I think he was the same guy that night, uncle." I answered again.

Shocked was instantly written all over his face. "Are you sure?" He asked again which made me shake my head while avoiding his eyes.

"I wasn't sure right now but after 5 days from now, I will be." I answered in a serious voice and paused before looking at him again. "I will investigate further to know the truth." I added.

He nodded his head. "Then what if he is really that guy?" He asked again, evident in his voice.

I became quiet because of that question. What if they are the same?

I sighed. "I will do the right thing. After all, you are here and I knew that I didn't do anything bad, they did something to me instead." I answered after a few minutes.

"I know, don't worry about it because I am willing to help you." He says. "You aren't going back with me?" He asked which made me frown.

I shook my head. "Even though I want to, I still can't." I answered truthfully which made him nod.

"I understand." He mumbled and glanced back at the graves before sighing. "I will go first, take care of yourself." He mumbled while tapping my shoulders. I just nod my head in response and look at his retreating back before looking at the two graves again with a smile.

I stood there for how many minutes before I decided to go too. When I arrived in front of the building, I paid the taxi driver and entered the place before riding on the elevator.

When I got to the floor where my condo unit was located, I immediately got out and walked in that direction but when I got pretty close I immediately stopped.

"Night." He called my name which made me remember what happened yesterday but I still approached him and there I saw his face.

He has dark circles under his eyes and he looks tired. As much as I want to comfort him, I can't because I need to stop myself.

I averted my eyes from him. "What are you doing here?" I ask him.

"I want to talk to you." He answered hoarsely. Did he cry?

I cleared my throat and looked at him. "You should go back, you don't need to explain anything to me. We are just friends." I told him, my voice was steady but my heart said otherwise. I am in pain! I want to tell that to him. I want to hug and kiss him but I can't!

I averted my eyes again and walked to the front door then opened it. Before I could enter I was shocked when he pulled me in at the same time as the door closed.

He pinned me to the door and looked at me with a serious expression. "Damn it! I like you, Night. No, I have loved you since the day that I met you. You understand? I love you so please, stop ignoring me." He mumbled and sincerity was screaming in his whole body. "I am just finding a perfect time to confess but then, it happened and now, we are already in this situation." He added with a more frustrated tone.

I was shocked so when I tried to say something, no words would come out of my mouth. What should I say?

"Tell me the truth, do you love me too?" This question caused me to swallow the lump on my throat. I don't know how and what to say.

I saw some mixed emotions from his eyes, pain, rejection, love and sadness but I don't know what to say. I'm afraid but when I saw how his tears stream down from his eyes, I knew that everything he said was real.

"All my life, this is the first time I've ever loved someone like this. If you don't like me, tell me." He mumbled with tears in his eyes. "Because you know what hurts the most? It is when you just keep quiet even though I know you want to say something. If it's not the answer that I want to have from your mouth, it's okay as long as you just answer." He added.

"I don't know what to say. Equinox, look at me. Aren't you afraid of being criticized? Aren't you afraid that no matter how hard we try, they'll still want to separate us? We're both men and this relationship was wrong in the eyes of others. " I told him while trying to calm myself.

He shook his head. "If you're scared, then I'm not. I can fight for you, but don't worry, I'll still wait. I'll wait for you until you love me back because no one else will own you but me. I'll protect you from them even if it were the cause for me to be hurt and be crushed forever. " Hearing those words, I can feel the pain he feels.

"Even with your family?" I ask him directly.

He nodded his head truthfully. "Even with my mom. You are the one I love so I will do everything not to marry that woman. They are the only ones who want me to marry, I didn't agree. If I were to marry someone, it would be you and no one else. " He answered but I shook my head.

I walked away from him and sat on the couch here in the living room. "We're not in the movie and the book. We're in reality, Equinox. I know you know our destiny if we continue to do this." I cried out while not looking at him.

He paused and walked in front of me, he kneel and cupped my left cheek. "If you are afraid and you are not still ready, just take a rest and I will be the one to fight for you. But if you are already okay and willing, come back to me and stay by my side, let's fight together. " With that he kissed me on the forehead and walked away silently. I just let him.

I just silently stared at the floor and after I heard the door close I was there crying.

"I'm sorry, Ethereal. I don't deserve you right now." I mumbled helplessly with all the pain that I felt. I don't want to hurt him but because of my reasons, the only person I love was in pain as well as myself.