Inside turmoil .....

INSIDE HER Bedroom.....

SAHAR was laid down on her bed and was thinking deeply what his father said to her.

SAHAR was murmuring to herself :- "DAD ! I don't feel like I want 'someone' in my life.....No reason !....Maybe you can say that it's just seeing your Marriage or ..end of Marriage....I don't know which incident has hurt my heart so badly that I am not forgetting over it and believe in love or someone "..(sad)

" I am not a coward DAD..... I am your daughter ZHAO SAHAR ! Daughter of ZHAONIEL !.....

[she didn't say "Daughter of BELLA" ]

I can't run away from my responsibility and situation .....But I am---am afraid of betrayal .....I know myself that if I opened my heart for someone and if he betrayed me .....I think that won't be breaking my heart but my soul will die that day....I won't handle that pain what you are bearing in wait of mom.....I can't do that ....I am not that strong like you..."

"SO it would be better that I shut my heart for others.... Because you are my happiness now.

You did your responsibility as father but now it's my turn to be responsible as daughter for you DAD" ...(confidently)

" I will be happy if---if -- one day your WAIT won and mom came back to US ...." (tears)

" Your happiness matter to me rather than having a partner...Or if oneday I met someone like you , I will accept him for my new journey of love " ...(convinced herself)

SAHAR sat up on her bed and wrote her diary as her every night routine .She wrote every detail from her day start to end in her diary...

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DIARY TITLE :WHAT SAHO THINK !

TIME :11:30 p.m

SAHAR started writing her diary...

' It was good day from start Because DAD and grand ma gave their blessing to me'

'I drove by myself in city P after so long time later....I like it '

'I scared two bodygaurds with my e-mail of XUO company .But I have a doubt , they were so daring before but seeing the e-mail from BOSS their face was not so pleasant...why?(thinking)....Maybe they don't like the demon boss. BOSS is so arrogant. I think they are afraid to demon boss. ' (uff ...)

"I waited for boss call"

"Then ,I met a older - younger lady at reception...I forgot their name, so I will write tommorow(saho left the space for their name)....But they were good to me. they even helped me.....But older lady was looking at me like she wanted to warn me and younger girl wanted to help me a lot but We don't know each other.....so why they were trying to help me or warn me ?.....They were looking tense too.....I have to find out." (thinking back)

"Then I waited again for his mood to be okay "

GOD ! I BEAR SO MUCH TODAY ! (pity on herself)

"Then assistant SU came and he seems good man but not for me (angry) ....He was following the boss order only .He didn't even try to speak to his boss not to give me any punishment. how would he handle the rude boss ?"

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I HAVE PITY FOR HIM TOO .HIS LIFE IS MORE PITYFUL THAN OTHERS !

"I had my lunch then waited again....poor SAHO"

"After waiting long , Finally I met the demon boss ,He was so rude that he didn't even ask me to sit but ordered the punishment and deduct my payment for it a week( false tears ).....He even said that I am not a employee of his company yet.....(false cry).....How would I pay my debt and leave the company soon and get my freedom back"

"Demon boss was mistreating his employees with his rules ...I have to do something for poor employees of company....

WAIT ! SAHO !....firstly you have to join the company to stay there then you will fight with demon king for others. Fight for yourself first than others.....One week punishment.....will he give me some task for my punishment from tommorow onwards? " (thinking again)

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HELLO ! GOD .....ARE YOU LISTENING ME OR ASLEEP....HAVE MERCY ON ME.

...

"I waited to long outside his office and he gave me punishment . it was not right...."

(POOR SAHO...YOU BEAR TOO MUCH TODAY. )

"After coming back to home , Suddenly I met a stranger.... He was good and said with his strict voice ' Don't lean on branches you won't fell off back ' something like that

.....more than that Which I forget..... actually that's one was not rude but strict with poker face ...."

WAIT.....AM I REALLY A SORRY GIRL ! ....

[Flash back .....sorry !....sorry....! sorry !....]

I THI--THINK I AM....[hehe]

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"And I came back home talk to dad and grand ma then we had dinner together...But in the end I and DAD are again in our pain moment.

He is doing this for my happiness and his responsibility but don't I have a responsibility to care him and give him happiness back a little as a daughter....."

Suddenly SAHAR remembered about the Handkerchief which she had in XUO COMPANY. she stood up from bed to go near desk to open her bag and took out handkerchief...It had same feelings taken out from MOM .....(sad).....MOM ! .....DAD & I MISS YOU....I HOPE YOU TOO .

SAHAR write down her quote of daily in her diary....But today her quote became analytical.

"MOM !....I am trying hard to understand what is real love ?....What made you so hard towards us to come on this desicion....to leave us alone ? Don't you think mom....DAD really loves you a lot and you are breaking someone's heart so badly from 5 years..... won't that be called that you are killing without any weapon Your own family and someone's heart .....I actually want to listen your point of view about love and why did you do that ?...But MOM - DAD ! .....you both don't want to share with me ?...."

' In love what you get....pain - betray & tears - loneliness , nothing else....'

" MOM ! You can get your happiness with MR .KAY But MY DAD is left alone without you....what did my father get to fall in love with you ?...(sigh) "

"DAD says that you left us because of your love for MR KAY then what about my DAD .Why did you marry him if you don't love him?....But LOVE OF YOURS became a BETRAYAL IN LOVE for me " (sad)

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'HEY ! MR. LOVE ! ! ...CAN YOU STAY AWAY FORM ME . DON'T TRY TO COME NEAR AT ME .'

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*hiccups... hiccups....(a person got two hiccups by someone's remembrance)*

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" DAD !...I am sorry , Because of me you got angry and hurt today.....What should I say to you.....? or how can I calm you...? "

(dairy closed)..... thinking and slept.....

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Other bedroom in ZHAO VILLA ;

"BELLA ! today I am in pain....."

' Did I wrong to force SAHAR to accept her happiness over me ....over us ? '

' I talk to her rudely today ...I am not feeling good .maybe she would be hurt after my words ! '

(sad) 'Why did we have sad ending ?

Because of us , our little SAHO is suffering from pain ....'

'She doesn't believe in love and doesn't want to marry for love .... just because of our marriage - separation...'

' I was not a good person....I was not good husband and couldn't become even a good father.....'

" I want from SAHO that do start her new journey of love and find her happiness in someone's for HER TRUE HAPPINESS not in responsibility of others loneliness . "

" She want to stay with me and rejecting her happiness Because of LOVE . According to SAHO , Love is PAINFUL & BETRAYFULL .She is running away from reality cause of ME " .....

What should I do BELLA ?....Please help me for our SAHAR & HER HAPPINESS...! (sigh)

I LOVE YOU BELLA

I MISS YOU BELLA....

Good Night .....

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* Should SAHAR move forward for her happiness or she should try to reunite her parents ?*

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