Raging Hormones

CURRENTLY REWRITING THIS STORY SO SOME PARTS MIGHT BE CONFUSING. REWRITING THE ENTIRE BOOK

HEAVILY UNEDITED. 

I found peace in your violence and hormones

Zoe's pov

I wish life could just be normal, no werewolves no alpha position just normal, sometimes I wish that we can be like the humans who have it easy in life, they get to have an adventure of finding who they want to be with but me.

I am just stuck with one person and it is annoying, at times being an Alpha's daughter, you have the responsibility of going everywhere, attending every meeting, and meeting different people every day.

When sometimes I just want to be alone in my room with myself my music and my books because that is the only time I feel normal.

Life can be frustrating at times but why do I have to be dragged every time? Can't they give me a little bit of space or freedom it's always Zoe this Zoe that can't they just leave me and let me be?

"Ugh girl be fast I am tired of waiting for you, gosh," my best friend Stephanie said.

"I'm coming," I said.

"Zoe! Get your chocolate bum down here!" My mom shouts.

Geez, she should chill.

Well my parents are dragging me to another meeting again and it is at Alpha Hades' pack the Midnight Crawlers in Xin and from my pack the White-Fang pack, I know the horrible name of my pack, it's in Nix so it is going to be a long ride to the airport and then the flight is going to also take a while.

So yes, I'm Nixan. Nixan royalty that is.

I have two best friends one is Stephanie she's the betas daughter, then there is John he is the third in command's son.

"Why did my dad have to drag me along?" he says also being annoyed with following his dad on every trip.

"Zoe you might meet your mate in that pack so be on your best behavior." My dad says

"When am I not?" I rhetorically ask. I am a troublesome girl and my parents believe that going to this pack will make me calm.

My inner wolf her name is Ife has been feeling restless at the thought of finding our mate and she thinks it's in his pack. Well, I have to see about that since I never wanted a mate or imagined having a mate.

"Why did the moon goddess invent mates?" I ask myself. It is not cool. I am not a girl of love but what is the essence of not finding love? Not experiencing heartbreaks? And not also know the feeling of finally understanding what true love is. You just have someone assigned to you and you do not ever experience heartbreak. Only a few experience that.

Well, I do not do all my mates and falling in love thing. I don't want a mate. But who am I to defy destiny? I would like to be loveless for the rest of my life. I don't want a mate I want to reject my mate and find a love like a human. But I also want kids. I am just confused about everything.

My opinion on male wolves is really bad. Most of the males I have met have wronged me in so many ways, my dad isn't a good mate to my mom, I was almost raped by a male twice and I just do not want a mate and all that drama that comes with it but I guess I can't decide. I just have to make sure to remember to reject when I see him. And I should not act like a lovesick puppy.

"Zoe are you listening to us," John said.

"Um sorry guys I wasn't listening I am sorry, so what were you guys talking about I am confused guys," I said to my two best friends.

They both roll their eyes at me like it's normal for me to be confused. Well it is but still a little bit of love will be appreciated.

"'It's not important Zoe just that maybe we may find our mates at this party. Wouldn't it be awesome?" Stephanie asked.

I scoffed "Awesome as if!" that pack has a reputation of killing and murdering people, especially those who are disrespectful or rouges, even though I hate rouges, I do not go to the extent of whipping them the cutting them with silver.

Silver is our kryptonite. Our weakness.

They do that to rouges and trespassers before killing them. In all honesty, they are monsters. The devil's incarnate and I will be so ungrateful if my mate is in that pack if he is then I will have a valid reason to reject him."

"As if, if you reject our mate I will make you regret it!" Ife, the name of my inner wolf.

She replies to me,"Such a bully!"

"Shut up," I replied.

"Just think what if our mate is the hottest wolf there wouldn't you want to take him there and then?" She asks me

"I would love to but it's not about looks. What if he is an abuser, we will continue this conversation later Ife."

Then I blocked her, well I didn't block her I just built up a wall to mute her.

"Zoe you wouldn't want to reject your mate, and I know no wait I am very sure of the fact that you will fall in love with him. I know you well. I have been with you since we were both toddlers and there is no way you will want to reject him" Ife manages to break through the wall and leave that final message to me.

Then wolves catch my eye.

Wait, they aren't meant to be off pack grounds.

As the car moves on to leave to the airport I see some people running after us.

What is going on?

"Fine. What was that?" I say startled after feeling the car shake.

"What?" A voice questions

"Rouges!" Someone says then John scream.

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Numb Empty Confused

These are all the emotions running through my mind as I stare at Stephanie's pale body.

I am not even sure if she is dead. She was bleeding a little but we wolves heal quickly.

Why? Just why did they have to do this?

Is she gone forever or am I just overthinking? Is this just a figment of my imagination?

What if she dies? That means she doesn't get to find her mate. I miss her.

I feel so pathetic, crying for someone who might not be dead. I am overreacting, aren't I? She just fainted and she is no longer bleeding.

I will fill you up as to what went down. So we were attacked by rouges, they are like really bad wolves, I have explained that all they do is kill people. Like rouges are synonymous with terrorists in this concept. I couldn't shift, that is, I could change to my wolf form all because I'm a white wolf.

Also, being a white wolf is like a taboo in our community. Well, our Nixan community since we are still in Nix. It's like me being a white wolf makes them feel I do not belong to their continent. Like I am an outsider. No one knows why it's normality now.

So everyone else shifted and fought like the warriors they are.

What was I doing? I was just in the car watching it all go down. They pretty much used the same fighting technique previous rouges have and all wolves were made to study their fighting techniques immediately they turned two. Simply put we won and then Stephanie fainted from the lack of blood.

So she is laying here unconscious. She shifts a little and John rushes to her side. He looks at her with longing eyes right now I don't really understand what is going on because I feel like they are hiding something from me. Anytime I talk about finding our mates they look at each other and smile. They try their best to be sly about it but I noticed it. It's all okay they will tell me soon, I hope.

We finally get to the airport now off to Oronto in Xin to meet the Midnight Crawlers and their Alpha.

We are finally on Hades pack ground and I smell something nice. Something enticing. I can't place a finger on what the smell exactly is.

"Guys, can you smell that?" I ask my friends. "Smell what?" Stephanie asks

"Oh, it's nothing never mind," I say.

I can't be the only one who smells it. Can I? Maybe it's the lack of food or tiredness.

"Okay," Stephanie replies with a knowing smile on her face.

We finally get to the destination and it's time for me to follow my parents to meet Alpha Vincent Hades. Even his name sends chills down my spine.

Then I smell burnt firewood and cinnamon similar to what I smelt earlier.

I bumped into a hard wall realizing a few seconds later that it's a person. I look into his eyes my wolf starts jumping all around.

"Mate." My wolf whispers and I am in deep shock.

I don't know who he is yet since we haven't yet broken eye contact. All I can see are his eyes. But can I just say he has beautiful eyes?

I found my mate in the Hades pack. Yelp.

I think I'm falling and all I have seen are his eyes.

"Yes!" I say with excitement to my wolf. Why am I suddenly excited? I don't want this.

"Mate, it's our mate!" my wolf replies to me.

He growled "mine "and I realized who my mate is. Oh no the only dangerous person to walk this Earth is my mate. He is truly handsome. My mate is the dangerous Alpha Vincent Hades.

" let's jump him, " ife says,

"Wait!"

"Wait for what?" she continues and I leave her hanging.

Mate?

What!

You know, I don't think I am falling anymore. Nah I still am, but I will try my best to pretend that his presence doesn't affect me. But it does. Looking at his ravishing body all I want is to devour it and have it for myself.

I really need to control my hormones.