Sydney's Regret

Sydney's path.

Sydney's pov

When you begin to regret your existence everything flashes before your eye. I regret all the mistakes I made.

I should have stayed with Jordan, I shouldn't have been so hungry for power. I should have been a good woman. From when I started to my parents left me and betrayed me. I have been the isolated child since I was conceived. 

Why doesn't my happiness ever last? Is it a hoax I'm meant to deal with? An illusion only I can see beyond. Am I the fault? Am I the flaw? Am I the problem? Should I be here? Is this healthy?

Treating others and ignoring myself, Sinking deeper and pulling others out, The darkness hurts, I can feel it creeping in, I've kicked everyone who brought any bit of light, Cast them aside, Now there's no one. It's pitch black. Soaking in nothingness and emptiness, I drown and drown but I seem to be loved. If only I had realized it sooner. 

I made a mistake. Love is my mistake. Fell in love,