Good and bad

The past week has been rough, almost everyday I have gotten sick and Huiqing finally had enough. She summoned the imperial physician to see me this morning. I just lost my breakfast again. So I'm starting to get worried myself and didn't protest.

The imperial physician asked all the usual questions and then took my pulse. Then he smiled and announced that I am with child again! I almost jumped with joy but this is so much different than last time. He assured me though that some women get a morning sickness during pregnancy and it won't last the whole time. That relieved me some. Then a maid burst in the room calling for the imperial physician..oh no"imperial physician you are needed immediately at Noble lady Nings palace, there has been an accident!!" She said in a hurry. So we all left right away, I felt that I needed to be by my sisters side.

There was a commotion going on in her palace but they cleared way for the imperial physician. Sister Ning was crying bed shaking and hugging a pillow. Sister Daiyu was there and came to me hold my hands "thank goodness you are here sister" she said. "What happened??" I asked urgently. "We were admiring the flowers in the garden and as we made our way back sister tripped and fell down some stairs, it was only was a few but she immediately felt pain. I'm so scared for our sister and I wish I could have done something" she looked very worried and upset. "Sister don't worry the imperial physician is here, you did all you could" I said squeezing her hands in comfort.

We waited for the imperial physician to report and then the Empress Dowager showed up. "How is she!?" She said straight away. The imperial physician came over and reported to us alone..in a hushed tone "Empress Dowager she suffered a trauma that shook the fetus and has caused her to lose the child. I'm sorry but there's nothing I can do, she is already bleeding and it will pass soon." Oh goddess! My poor sister. The Empress Dowager looked upset of course but I decided it was more important to comfort my sister. I will tell the Empress Dowager of my good news later, when the time is right.

I stayed with sister Ning for the rest of the afternoon and just let her cry and talk. I decided to be silent was best except for nodding and soothing her tears by playing with her hair and rubbing her back. I felt she just needed me to be there for her but once she finally cried herself to sleep I left to let her rest for awhile. My heart really hurt for her, what a terrible loss.