My heart

Huiqing is combing my hair out after a nice hot bath with rose oil and lavender. I decided to prepare well for the Emperor, since it had been some time. With a gentle kiss of blush and the tiniest bit of rouge on the lips. I want to be waiting for him so Im already dressed in my fine silk bedroom robe that's a deep plum purple. My favorite actually with a large lotus blossom on the back that I embroidered recently during my period of peace. Some of my finest work and now the Emperor can admire it as well.

The Emperor arrived just as I finished getting ready so I greeted him by walking out through the curtains of my dressing room and bowing. A tad dramatic but he seemed taken with my appearance. Helping me up he said "Finally to be able to lay eyes upon you again. Somehow you seemed to grow more beautiful in your absence." Caressing my face, then gently forcing my head up to look into his eyes. Making me blush intensely.

Then he said "Ive missed you....As Emperor i realize I am not to favor one women over all others. But with our short time apart I found my thoughts filled with you. Foolishly I tried to fix this by visiting the harem very often. Only to find my self walking past your palace on way back and wondering what you were doing at that moment..."

He was quiet for almost a minute running his fingers through my loose hair. "I even craved your smell and feel of your butter silk hair." He said while lifting my hair to inhale deeply. Making me shiver with a weird pleasure...it's hard to believe he's this in love with me. Looking back into my eyes he says "You are the truest desire of my heart. I would be with you only, if I could. You must know even if there was a 100 women in the harem I would still only truly love you. Only you, my perfect lotus blossom" these words brought tears to my eyes. Tears of joy..of love. He gently wipes them away.

"My Emperor dearest these words are more than I could have ever hoped to hear. As one of the Emperors women to gain your respect and maybe a little passion was all I've ever wanted. However I have loved you since our first moment together. You've always had my heart. But I have accepted you could never return this. But you say you truly love me? Only me? How could I deserve the Emperors devoted love?" I calmly said but my voice shaking slightly towards the end. He responded by holding my face and kissing me with such passion I almost forgot how to stand up, wobbling he took me in his arms. And in a husky voice he says into my ear "You deserve it because I say so. You are the most magnificent women I've ever seen and yes you and only you."

Then he swept me up and carried me off to my bed room. We spent most of the night making love but also talking. He seemed to open up more than before and I truly enjoyed seeing this talkative side of him. We laughed over stories of our childhoods but also shared somber times. Finally falling asleep right as the sun started to come up.

Huiqing purposely allowed us to sleep in much later than normal. I'm assuming the night maids told her how late we stayed up. I woke up to the Emperor brushing my hair from my face. "Good morning my love. I've decided we should just spend the day here. I want at least one whole day alone with you." He said smiling and then ordered a big breakfast.

Our breakfast was wonderful but he wouldn't even let me get dressed. He claimed we must relax and enjoy the day together. We ended up in bed shortly after our late breakfast. I assume this was his true intention, not that I minded. He worshipped my body for most of the day which was mind blowing and also exhausting. I tried to return his favors but he insisted he wanted my body for the day. Finally we subsided because both of us were famished. Having another large meal for dinner.

During dinner I finally thought about the harem and how this will go over. I'm sure there may be a few ladies that won't be so happy about the Emperor spending an entire day with me. "My dearest I hope our day together is not frowned upon in the harem. I don't want to stir anything up, having just returned." I said finally after worrying enough. "It was my decision! And I deserve a day with my beloved concubine after being apart. They will not dare get upset with what I want and I want you." He replied firmly but then softly touched my face.

We slept really well after a game of chess. Both of us were pretty full and tired from our day together. I woke up pretty early, the early morning mist still in the air. I started to admire the Emperors firm jaw then went to touch his soft lips but he opened his eyes. Startling me so I pulled back quickly. He clearly noticed, smiled and pulled me into his arms. Then we made the most passionate love in our time together. Leaving me speechless and unable to walk properly.

"Unfortunately I cannot put off matters of the Empire for another day my love. No matter how hard it is for me to leave you. My most beautiful lotus blossom." Then he kissed me with a lingering goodbye and took his leave. Promising to return to me very soon. I felt my heart go with him, for he truly has it now. Which in the harem is a dangerous thing...