Chapter 1

"Anna don't do this to me." I cried in bending knees holding her hands sturdy as she walk out. The dams over flow and rivulets start to trickle to my cheeks.

She face to me and my eyes widen as I see her tears flowing. She bring forth a wide grin and said "It's for the best of us." I don't know why but I feel a sudden blank after seeing her visage. It looked like I am being abstracted for a moment and let go her hand.

I can see that she is also hurt as I am, but I cannot descry anything in my mind about the thing that she said "It is the best of us." I cannot identify what she mean by that.

I ran to her and grab her hand. My tears didn't set off it continue to flow but that didn't bother me I don't care if she will presume that I am weak because she once said to me crying is only for baby. I sobbed hardly I cannot resist it. "What have I done to make you leave" I slowly utter. My voice tremors because of my crying that makes my word unclear.

She face again to me and just give a wide smile while her face is covered with flood. I can see that her cry is authentic and I can sense that she is oppose to what she's doing. I feel that there's interference involved in this break up I just can't tell what or who is it.

"Just let me hug you one last time"

I hugged her tightly and she hugged me back. "You know I really do love you even you will let go now but I will still be onto you. That's how much I Love You." while my tears are flowing in intense manner.

"I said to you I don't want to see you cry. Real man don't cry you know." she softly utter in my ears. "I Love You. If we were really meant to be, we'll end up being each other to the far future." she continued. Those are the last words she say before getaway the hug and run away with tears.

***

It's been 2 months since that happening but that occurrence did not dematerialize. It keeps flashing back in my sight like a program replay of that scene. My tears always emerge every time I can think about it.

She is my first and I want her to be my last. We've spent 2 straight years without separated and maybe due to that I bury my nexus to her deeply. I didn't expect that specific day will come seeing our relationship is very stalwart.

I abide myself to my room for the entire summer, I didn't even intend to go out. I mourned everyday and night, it seemed like a special person die or something.

When I missed the outside world I just go to my window and flick my thick red curtain a little, just enough for my two eyes to see the outside paronama.

I locked myself up from everyone. My maids just come inside to lend me my meals and when they need to clean my room. I uninstalled all my social media accounts to avoid being called or notice by my friends.

I didn't even talk to my mother and father because right after our break up with Anna, I was able to hark a gossip that my family and Anna's family are not in a good term because of business matter. It made me angry because it was maybe the meaning of Anna's words back there. Knowing this, I was able to devise a hypothesis of the reason Anna's exploit.

1st: Maybe it's because her family told her to stay away from me.

2nd: Dad warn Anna to stay away from me.

I didn't validate if the gossip where veracious because my hatedred towards parents ascended to paramount.

Everything after that event turn to gray. Gloomy atmosphere surmount around me. I do have many sleepless nights because I can always descry terrifying moment all over again wether I'm awake or in dreams, it haunts me. My tears automatically flows without warning.

I've change cavernously. My riotous behavior turned lame and my august gallant turn to vile. My life revolve inversely as I lost my only light.

***

School starts tomorrow, this will be my last year of being Senior High Scholl.

As lie down to my very soft bed there's a sudden knock. I just stare to doorknob while lying in my bed waiting for the knocker to enter.

The door created a sound as it is being opened gently. Then I see father holding the tray of my food, coming inside.

"Good evening my son. Here's your food" putting my food in my bed and sit partially. I just look at him coldly in a second, then I turned my back to him.

"Son, you must get back to your former self son. You are agonizing for nothing. Everything has reasons why things happened my son" he explained in low tone. I slowly looked at him and sit and offer a seconds of silent, "And you are one of the reason right?" I utter coldly. His eyes widened and have a silent thinking for his respond. I slowly avert my sight to the opposite direction as I get my food.

"My son...."

"I'm okey, You can go out now!" I exclaimed, cutting his respond. I didn't see his reaction but saturnine buoyant to the air as he open the door and take his exit.

"Everything happend for a reason? Huh!!? Reason my ass."