Chapter 4

Chapter Four:

I looked myself into the mirror and widen up my perspective. I able to descry the miserable me after staring myself for a long period of time.

"Is this the self that the others sees in me?" I can't help asking myself because even I had a hard time knowing that it was my reflection. I can feel the coldness that subjugate within it, I feel unease seeing it's presence -my presence.

I actuate the faucet and deluge my countenance with water so that I can affirm if what I'm seeing is the actuality. I looked at the mirror once again and see no alteration, except for the globule of water dawdling in my countenance, nothing change.

My legs are enervate and then I fall to the floor. "How can I change my self...." kneeling on the ground.

Whilst I cower to the floor and slowly utter "This saga commence after the tragic advent, maybe I need to amnesia myself. Anna I'm sorry.... I must forget you!" I exclaimed. "I will forget you despite of my promise, so that I can mend myself." I mourned s loudly.

I cried out so loud without noticing my mother entered the room. She approached me and held me in her soft arms. "It's okey my little one. Problem really stuck to us all he times, and it's up to us whether it we face it with open arms or just we turn our back to it. We've encounter them to teach us valuable lessons in order for us to grow strong."

I looked at her eyes and sighted her unfeigned look. I wiped my tears in her apparel and said "Thank you mom."

I stand and traipse towards my bed, mom follows me from behind. She sat on my bed as I lie down and cover my eyes with my hands.

"You can talk to me if you want. You know we're here to support you. To let you know I and your father felt bad to you lately, because you were cold as ice but still we do our best to understand you because you are our only son." Her voice is so mellow it melts the inside me. It is penetrating I do know that they felt bad towards me but they still abduct the negativity that they felt towards me and turn it to care which I didn't take a grasp because of my pathetic self. I didn't know if she's crying or not but I able to feel 2 droplets of water hit my arms.

I didn't utter a word.

My mother traipse towards the door and I run into her and hugged her tightly. " Thank you mom... I'm sorry for those disturbances that I cause to you and father.... I love you two." She pat me and hugged me back "I have to go already, you too sleep tight have a wonderful dreams" she kissed my forehead and give me a beautiful smile and then she leave.

I now realized how stupid I am squandering my entire summer for nothing. Whatever Anna's reason why she broke with me maybe it was very important or a must. Wait!! I must not dwell to much time in the past so that I can continue traversing towards the forthcoming. I hope you are doing okey Anna.

I sense a little thirst so I get a fresh milk in my room's mini reef. I sprawled to the window where I can see the outside. It's 9:00 o'clock already and so the road is somewhat empty but as I gander my sight I saw in a little distance. There is a light post and under it is a couple. They looked happy with each other while looking at the moonlight, I recall to the times when me and Anna is doing the same. And tonight I didn't cry. "I guess I'm already alright. I enjoy watching them while shipping them in my mind.

I saw the boy pulled his phone from his pocket and showed it to his partner and they both laughed, I remembered my social meadia accounts. I reinstalled Twitter, Instagram, Facebook, and Messenger. Subsequently I opened it to check what happened to the social cyberspace. I saw their post, tweets, retweets, like, love and comments. Afterwards I opened the messages a throng of people messages me. It's to many to read it all. I read some of it:

"They Kamiku why are you not updating anything."

"Can I ask you a favor?"

"Kamiku where are you going this summer vacation?"

"Hey I saw you yesterday crying while Anna walk out. What happened?"

"👍"

I continue scrolling to the down until I saw a chat of a certain person that caught my attention it's Anna's message.

"Hey!! I hope you can read this ASAP before you will incarcerate yourself. (It looked like she can see the future) You have not done any wrong."

"I'm sorry for breaking your heart. I didn't do this without adequate reason. But sorry I can't tell you what is it to this time, if given a chance to meet again I'm gonna tell you. Disinter your nexus I'm setting you free. Please don't cry nor mourned 😑 I'll hate you if you do such."

I'll be transferring to USA for some reason.

Enjoy your life,  continue living into the fullest. Don't worry about me I'm perfectly fine. Just don't forget that I love you. I'll cherished the times that I've been with you. 

I am hoping you can find another girl that you can be with.

My tears trickled seeing Anna's final message to me. I typed fastly to respond but I always press the wrong letter because my screen inundate with my tears.

"I still have many pending Question on hold and I'll be waiting for your that time will come. I love you very much, I don't think I can find someone like you."

I shred my tears and try to smile knowing she's doing alright.