Lost Passage: Chad

There was an open school fair at my sister's university and she invited me to come and watch their performance. She was the captain of the cheerleading squad. I was so proud of her when she was assigned to be the captain. I was working as a freelance model temporarily until I found a job that I really want. I live on my own and seldom sees my family. So having me watch her during her performance would mean a lot to her. As her only brother, I support my sister with everything I can.

I was on my way to their university when I dropped by a convenience store to get something to eat. That was where and when I first laid my eyes on Kris. He got this smile that really captured my heart. By the logo of the university on his uniform, I knew I will meet him again that day and I did.

Later that day, I saw him running out of their school, I followed him and found him preoccupied sitting on a bench. We had a minor accident but because of that, I was able to convince him to drink with me. I wanted to know what bothered him but he still sees me as a stranger. Someone had been bugging him that night, someone named Luke. I tried to ask who it was but I didn't get an answer.

I felt bad when he got knocked out that night. I don't know where he lives. I don't have a way to contact his friends or family since his phone was drained of battery. So I had no choice and brought him home to my unit.

That was the time that I got the chance to watch his beauty. His face looks peaceful while sleeping even with the small bruise on his cheek. My heart can't stop trembling as I undid his clothes until he's on his underwear. He got a sexy body and soft skin. I even got a hard time containing myself with the temptation in front of me but I stayed gentle.

I thought he could be the one for me, the one that I can spend my life with, the one I can call mine. But that changed when I finally met Luke. I knew by the way he looked at me that he wanted me out of his way.

Days had passed and my sister got an invite from Kris to come with them. She was given the address and the name of a private resort villa. My sister didn't want to go and I understand the reason why after she told me about what happened between her and Luke. I felt sorry for my sister but her problem is not my problem. She moved in with me after she transferred to a different university since my apartment is closer to her new school.

I really thought that was my chance to get closer to Kris so I asked my sister to let me go with them in her place. I was happy when I saw him but after knowing that the place was own by Luke, I felt like I'm missing my chance already. What can someone like me do against someone who was born with a silver spoon on his mouth? But I got to take chances... I can't lose hope.

It has been several weeks since I last saw him. I haven't talked to him after that incident. That kiss was not supposed to happen but I was not able to control myself. He didn't like it.

I sent messages to him to meet me so we can have a talk. I want to apologize to him for being such an ass. But I never got any reply from him. If only I didn't look for him that night, we might still be good friends.

After we played billiards, Niko and Alex went up to their room to rest. I followed Niko to their room to check on Kris but he was not there yet. I went out to look for him but what I witnessed was beyond my expectation. I saw Luke kiss him and it crushed my heart. I felt jealous. I wanted to stop them but my feet failed me. I was not able to move. I should be the one kissing him and not Luke. I've been wanting to do that since the first day I saw him.

Kris is a really good looking guy, especially with his smile. I have relationships before but this was the first time I felt this to someone. I can't stop thinking about him. I wanted to see his smile all the time. I wanted him to be mine.

"You're spacing out?" My sister Claire asked me as she joined me for dinner.

"A lot has been going on in my mind, I'm losing appetite," I said as I put the fork after I took a bite of our food.

"You can tell me anything... Maybe I can help."

Well, she told me about what bothered her before maybe I can tell her what's disturbing me right now.

"Uhm... When you can't stop thinking about someone and you're willing to do everything to make him yours, what do you call that?" I asked.

"Well, if it's not you who you're referring to, I would say you just described me and how crazy I was with Luke."

"I didn't mean it that way, sorry... it's about me."

"Well, from the person who had experienced that, I would say... You're obsessed."

"Really?"

"And I'm telling you, brother... It won't do you any good. I have learned my lesson and I paid for what it cost me. But now I'm already over it."

"But how am I going to deal with it?"

I like Kris a lot and I'm sure I'm not obsessed with him... or am I?

"How come you have problems like this? You're not new with relationships or being in love." She reprimanded me.

"I know! But he was different. I never felt this to my exes."

My sister knew about my past relationships since I used to post pictures on my social media. I am a proud boyfriend.

"Does this person knows you like him?" She asked me.

"Yes, I already told him."

"What did he say?"

"He didn't say anything because I did something crazy and now he doesn't even talk to me."

"What did you do to Kris?"

"Nothing more than a kiss... Wait... How did you know it's him?"

"Of course I do, I'm your sister! You've been stalking his IG since you got home from that vacation."

So she's been watching me all this time. I felt embarrassed.

"Oh.. So what should I do now?"

"Kris is a great guy. We may not have spent a lot of time together but I know he's kind enough to forgive you but you have to do it personally." She suggested.

"What if he doesn't want to see me?" I opposed it. I don't want to mess it up again.

"Don't be such a baby! He will listen to you. Trust me."

I decided to meet him in person. Claire told me about the café that Kris works at. She warned me about Luke since he works there as well but I will go there to meet and apologize to Kris. I need to fix what has been broken even though I knew deep inside that my chance is like finding a needle in a stack of hay.

I must do this...

I must...

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