After School Reality

When I graduated I didn't go to College like I wanted to but instead I stayed living here with my dad and started to apply to places and eventually got a job at Cracker Barrel. I work as hostess and so far I have only had 1 rude customer or a "Karen" yell at me for a problem I couldn't control and I've had to tell many people they had to wear their mask while they weren't dining and some people have been a little rude about that so yeah.

I've also been talking to my best friend Austin about getting an apartment with him and possibly trying to get a job at the hospital I went to for Clinicals. He wants someone else to live with us and get a 3 bedroom apartment but that will cost a lot of money and I don't exactly know if i trust her enough to live with her but he just like i wanna get a 3 bedroom apartment anyway so he isn't really listening to me but like if he doesn't listen I just won't live with him end of that.

Also i started talking to an old friend of mine and I kinda like and I told him about how I was assaulted and i was really scared and nervous to tell him because it just a subject people tend to ignore. Anyway he didn't react bad he just apologized that I had to go through what I went throught. I also told him and I could see us living together and being happy in the future and all he said was he would love to live with me and we kinda rarely talk so like i don't exactly know whats happening their.

So life isn't exactly what I thought it would be after graduation but its not terrible. I'm just living one day at a time figuring things out. I'm been talking to my mom and my friend about me wanting to go back to therapy and I'm also gonna talk about what my brother did. My last therapist I didn't say anything about what happend but I was still telling myself it wasn't a big deal, I shouldn't be this scared or fearful about it. Now I see that I have my reasons of being scared and nervous and my feelings are valid and I can't keep these memories and fears locked away.