Nothing

I know that I should feel sad,

Feel some sympathy

I know that I should feel heartache

I'm waiting for it all to hit me

... ... ...

I'm waiting and waiting,

But I still feel nothing

I feel no hate

I feel no sadness

I feel no sympathy

I feel no love

Like a layer of ice

forming on an ocean

suppressing the waves

of emotion

My mind feels like chilling air

in October evenings

Cold and afloat

making my body numb

as my nerves freeze

I've turned into an ice block

With frozen expression

And under oppression

Damn this depression

I still feel nothing

Yet tears are still coming

No matter how frozen I am

These tears never seem to freeze with me

And sometimes I wonder,

would it be better to feel and let emotions in,

Or is it just a waiting hell of hurt?

So in the end I still feel nothing