May 13/14, 2018

It's 10:00pm and I'm sitting in my room crying. Sometimes you need a good cry.

I don't know what to do so I'm writing to you guys. I doubt anyone is reading my stuff anymore because it's not Important but here I go.

If you couldn't tell my poem my dad moved out. This has happened before. He moves out gone for awhile and then he moves back in. It's not very new. But this time is different. He visit and he helps out financially sometimes but he's gone. He moved in with some friends and is saving up for his own apartment. I also found out her has a girlfriend,who has kids.

My mom found out through Facebook. Family had told her my dad posted a picture of his new girlfriend. He came over Friday and my mom cried. She told my dad that she was waiting for him to come back. She said she she has been with him through thick and thin. She grabbed her bottle of turkey and went to work with tears in her eyes.

My aunt told me my cousin was put in a mental hospital. My seven seven year old cousin was put in a mental hospital. She just brought it up in casual conversation. Then told me about how my other cousin graduated 1st grade and acted like being put in a mental hospital was a normal thing.

I want to tell someone about all this but idk.

I don't see my therapist till next Monday( May 21, 8 days).

My best friend we haven't talked in awhile and my other best friend I haven't even seen her at school to tell her about this.

My other friends I don't tell this all this personal drama because Im not that close with them

My friend who I use to text everything to, I can't tell him because I broke my phone.

If your wondering how I uploaded this I'm on my school iPad.

Monday May 14

Had to wait to get to school for WiFi because the WiFi T my house is jacked up.

I just got dumped. What I Great life I have right.

My friends are leaving me. My now ex girlfriend is leaving me and my dad left me.

Why won't anyone stay.

Why am I not good enough for them.

I just wanna be special.

Bye