May 20,2018

Sorry I haven't posted in awhile. First i broke my phone like you guys know. Then my WiFi has been acting weird and I haven't been able to post but I found one of my old phones and I so that how I posted these.

On Memorial Day we have no school. My dad wants to take me and my brothers kayaking. At first I was happy and excited. But then he mentioned he wasn't to take us so we can meet his new girlfriend.  I don't know what to feel. I want to be happy for him because I guess she means somethings to him but I don't know.

Also my boyfriend has been talking about this date he is taking me and it makes me anxious. Thinking about it makes me feel like I can't catch my breath and I get this feeling in my chest. This will be my first date. It's just nerve raking.

Also tomorrow is Monday and I'm gonna try to make it a happy Monday. I also have therapy/counseling which ever you want to call it and that's makes me happy. I'm also opening up more since I've started counseling and it makes me happy. I'm getting better at coping with these feeling and it makes me so proud of myself.

Anyway have a nice Sunday. Bye