September 5, 2020

I woke up this morning and it just didn't feel real. I felt numb and like i was watching someone else's life. Then my friend asked me "how are you" and i just started crying. It feels like so long ago that I was told that my papaw was gone but it was just yesterday. So many times today I though I was finally done crying but then i just took a breath and cried again. It hurts so bad and i just wished I could've seen him one more time, hugged him.