The Party

Emily's P.O.V

I couldn't believe Bella said yes. The last time we were at a party I got a little to drunk. I don't remember what I did, but I know Bella wouldn't tell me. 

The rest of the day went past really fast. After I met with the English  teacher and got a detention, I was allowed to leave.

I saw Lilly's car parked near the other side of the school and started rubbing towards her. I then noticed 2 unusual things.

Firstly, Bella and Rosie were not in the car.

Secondly,  There was a boy in the car.

"Hello sis" Lilly said as I climbed into the back. 

"Who is this?" I said prepared to make fun of her.

"I'm her boyfriend, Mathew" He said putting his hand out and I shake his hand.

"Did you know she wet her bed until she was nine?" I said putting a huge smile on my face.

" ha ha ha, now let's go and get ready for the back to school party" Lilly said clearly embarrassed.

"Oh yeh Bella is coming as well" I said.

All of a sudden the car stopped and Lilly turned to the left and parked.

"WHAT?!" She screamed " SHE NEVER GOES TO PARTY'S!"

"I know that's why I was shocked when she said yes immediately"

"She must really like you" Lilly says in all serious still shocked.

" Bella, no we are best friends and she has a crush on someone anyway" I say then see Lilly's look " A boy"

"Umm guys I'm still here" Mathew says in front of me.

" Sorry Mathew" She says and kissed him on the cheek then starts driving again.

Lilly had a really anxious face on though. A complete stranger could tell something was wrong. 

Lilly was thinking something would happen between me and Bella at the party.  In fact she was acting like She knew something would happen.

I ignored her. Why would she say stuff like that about Bella. I love Bella, of course I do, she's my best friend. I know She doesn't like me like that right?

I climbed out of the car and walked into the house ignoring everything everyone said.

I ran up the stairs, locked my door and laid down on my bed.

" Wow" I said staring at the ceiling " That was strange"

Just as I got up, my phone buzzed and Bella was calling me.

"Hello" She said I couldn't help noticing something wrong with her voice.

"hi" I answer

"Is it ok if I stay at yours after the party?" She asks.

"Sure, why?"

"I can't face my mum right now"

I understood immediately, sometimes Bella had times where she couldn't face anyone. Most of the time it was her mother.

Her mother isn't  bad or anything. Bella is  just going through a very hard time. She has been since her father died. But I knew that wasn't the only thing she was just scared to tell anyone.

Even I didn't know.

" Yeh, I will  just take the mattress out of the basement"

"Ok" I couldn't help hearing the sadness in her voice when she said.

"When are you arriving?" I ask avoiding what just happened.

" Umm" She said as the doorbell rang.

"I'm assuming that's you" I say laughing and I run downstairs.

My mum and dad are at work in England and won't be back for 3 months so Lilly is looking after the house and me.

So that meant Bella was allowed to stay here as long as she wanted to.

"Come in" I say smiling.

" Thank you" She says and we both run up to my room.

"Nice outfit" I tell her.

I was telling the truth she looked beautiful in that outfit. Her ginger hair is curled. She is wearing jeans and a white t-shirt with a tartan cardigan.

"You look hot" I say.

She blushes then giggles " So do you" .

" I am in school uniform"

" I know"

Luckily, even if that was awkward she had a smile On her face. I knew I could cheer her up.

I quickly grab my black mini skirt and pink one sleeved crop top and got changed.

" Wow" I hear Bella say as I step out of the bathroom.

"How do I look?" I ask.

" You look like the hottest person in the world" She says smiling checking out my outfit.

"Come on then let's go" I say smiling even more.

                                       ***

Bella's P. O.V

" Wow" I keep thinking as I enter Lilly's car.

Emily looks really hot in that outfit. I almost gave away I liked her when she came out with it on.

I still can't believe she made me go to this Party though. I don't know many people in our school. They either avoid me or I avoid them. It's an endless circle.

When I stepped out of the car and saw the house I almost ran away.

Already from the outside you could see drunk people dancing, couples making out, and people sneaking away to themselves.

It reminded me exactly why I hated parties.

" I am going to go find Mathew and Lilly" Emily says beside me " I'll be right back I promise"

I just nod as she runs away.

I suddenly felt really thirsty, so I went to the kitchen to grab a drink of water.

"What you looking for?" A girl beside me asks.

" Just some water" I answer.

She giggles and passes me a cup. I drink it really fast and feel something burning in my throat.

" Oh sorry, my bad" She says giggling " Wrong cup, here is the water"

I quickly grab the cup believing her and drink it really fast trying to eat rid of the pain.

I quickly realise it is also alcohol.

I start to giggle.

" Thank you  ma'am" I say and bow to the girl in front of me.

She laughs " Follow me".

I follow her doing exactly what she says still giggling.

Then suddenly someone grabs me.

"Bella?" She says " Are you drunk?"

"No of course not" I say trying not to kiss the girl in front of me.

Emily, my crush, is in front of me.

I grab her arm and take her outside.

I take her hand then kiss her. She doesn't stop me but she doesn't kiss me back.

She pushes me away shocked " Come on Bella your drunk, we are going home"

" But I don't want to" I say throwing a tantrum like a little kid.

" Well your going to have to" Emily says and grabs my arm as we walk back to her house. 

I keep pulling backwards towards the party but this beautiful girl won't let me.

We enter her house and she puts me in her bed.

She makes me drink a litre of water and then pulls the covers over me.

"Get some sleep Bella" she says to me giving me a small hug.

" Ok, goodnight Emily I love you" I say then fall asleep immediately not hearing her answer.

                                 ***

Emily's P.O.V

I dragged Bella out of that party and back home as soon as she kissed me. It was a drunk mistake right?

Bella wouldn't agree, she believes that what people do when they are drunk is what they really want to do. They just don't have anything stopping them when they are drunk.

So I gave her some water and told her to get some sleep.

"Get some sleep Bella" I say and give her a small hug.

"Ok, goodnight Emily I love you" She says and falls into a deep sleep.

I sigh and go downstairs turning the sofa into a bed.

"Hey" I say to Lilly as I step into the kitchen returning the glass.

"Is she asleep?" Lilly asks and I just nod.

" Yeh, I gave her some water to drink and she went to sleep after telling me she loved me" I said and sighed again.

"I did tell you!" Lilly says before seeing the look on my face " Sorry". 

I couldn't stop thinking. Bella liked me. She really liked me.  I didn't like her back I knew that right? So Bella was gay?

Oh my god.

No wonder she was always down.  That's what else was wrong. She was struggling to cope with that. She felt left out. So Bella lied about her crush? She lied to me? She lied to everyone.

Even though I really wanted things between us to go back to what they used to be, I knew they couldn't.

My head was bouncing. I was so confused. I needed time away from Bella if I wanted to clear it.

That's what I would do but first I would have to make sure she was safe in the morning.

                                     ***

Bella's P.O.V

I woke up with a huge headache. I sit up holding my head and take a sip of water.

" Hey, are you awake?" Emily asks stepping into the room.

"Ye, yeh I am" I say " What happened last night"

"I'll let you know soon ok?" She says looking down " but first I need you to pack your things and have some breakfast"

"Ok" I answer as I start packing.

What happened last night?

Oh my god , I was drunk. I just hope I didn't do something stupid.

Once I had all my stuff packed I quickly got changed and ran downstairs for breakfast.

" Hi, Lilly" I say noticing her give me a I am sorry face.

"Hey"

" So does anyone want to tell me what happened last night?"

"Let's see," Emily says " You got drunk, ran off with some girl, I saved you, then you kissed me, I took you home, put you to bed and you confessed you loved me"

Oh no. I told her I actually told her.

"I...I need to go" I say grabbing my bags and running outside.

Just as I leave I hear Emily say something " It's for the best"

I ran home crying. I knew it would go like this. I promised myself to never tell her. Never and I did. Why did I have to get drunk?

" Hey honey" My mum said as I ran inside "What's wrong?"

"Just leave me alone" I say as I run up to my room still crying.

I lock the door and jump onto my bed, head first onto my pillow.

It's all my fault.

Everything as usual is my fault.

It's my fault Dad killed homeself, it's my fault Emily isn't friends with me. It's my fault everything. My mums sad because of me. Rosie is sad because of me. Everyone is sad because of me.

I quickly jump up and search my cupboards for my medicine.

It's supposed to make me better and in times like this I needed it.

If I didn't take it, that would be the end of me.

So I take It lie down.

"Hey honey, are you going to school?" Mum says knocking on my door.

" No" I reply .

My mum understands. She knows I need to lock myself up in my room sometimes if I want to be better.

***

Last summer

"Hello?" I say to whoever is at the other side of the phone.

"Hello, is this Mrs Jenkins" A man says.

"No, but this is her daughter, can I help you with anything?" I reply

"Can you ask your mother to come to the hospital regarding her husband"

"Why what happened to him?" I ask worried.

I am so scared. What had happened to my father, was he alright?

I knew my father preferred Rosie to me. But I still loved him so much. I regret getting into a huge argument with him now before he left for work.

"It's not my place to tell you that" he says back.

"We will be at the hospital as fast as possible, Thank you" I say then hang up.

I quickly call my mum and tell her. She tells me to get Lilly to drive me to the hospital with Rosie.

So I then call up Lilly and she agrees to take me.

When I get there I see my mum crying.

I run towards her "Mum what's wrong?" I ask.

"It's your father, He... he killed himself" She says and bursts into tears, I join her.

I felt so guilty. I said so many things to him, so many nasty things. It's my fault. It was all my fault. I became unconscious.

And that's when it started.

***

I needed Emily so much right now. It was worse now. Way worse. I never want to end up locked up again. So I need to get better, much better.

I convince myself more than anyone else that everything is alright. That nothing is my fault. I of course don't believe it but it's enough to stop me.

I calm down and go to sleep.