It's Only Real If It Hurts

Staying by his side as he had promised, Jinn took care of Kai and the days had gone by rather quickly. Although Jinn had forbidden himself to touch Kai, the sexual tension was quite high as they cuddled with each other, spent their time flirting, giggling, and catching up as well as having petty arguments, easily falling into old habits like they had spent no time apart.

"Will you let me help you?! I let you shower alone, and it took you forever. It's gonna take you a whole other hour to get dressed and you'll miss your doctor's appointment.", said Jinn with irritation in his voice as he tried to pull Kai's bathrobe off.

"It's fine, I promise I can get dressed on my own!", said Kai, holding onto his bathrobe for dear life, with a grin on his face.

"I really don't understand why you've been so damn shy this whole time, it's not like I haven't seen you naked before Kai." said Jinn raising a brow.

"Yeah, I know that. It's just...", said Kai, sucking his lips inward and ending his sentence before finishing what he had to say.

"What?", said Jinn raising a brow.

"It's just that I kinda have a hard on.", said Kai, lowering his head with a grin on his face.

"So?", said Jinn as he squatted down in front of Kai, a smirk on his face.

"Fine then, just ignore it.", said Kai raising both his brows as he removed his hands from his robe, holding them upward as if he was surrendering. Given the okay, Jinn's grin widened even further, his dimples making an appearance as he untied Kai's robe. As the robe came undone, Kai's body revealed new beauty that Jinn hadn't really noticed as he had been so focused on making sure that Kai wasn't in pain. Even though he was still thin, he had gained a bit of muscle as his chest was more defined and the small definition of abs Kai always had, had finally managed to make their way through. Opening Kai's robe further, Jinn revealed the hard on standing at attention that Kai had mentioned he had. As Jinn's heart began to race, he quickly took a deep breath, letting it out slowly. Raising his piercing blue eyes to look at Kai, those big beautiful brown eyes were already staring back at Jinn, the hunger behind them equal to or possibly greater than his own.

Lowering his head to look down at the member already pleading for attention in front of him, Jinn spat in his hand, eyeing Kai the whole time as he gripped Kai's member, stroking it slowly. Biting his bottom lip and furrowing his brows, Kai breathed heavily, as Jinn's big warm hand squeezed lightly, stroking him slowly to the base.

Not wanting to miss the different expressions Kai usually made while he was being pleasured, Jinn stared Kai dead in the face the whole time. "God your so fucking sexy.", said Jinn, a sinister smirk making its way onto his face. Quickening the speed of his hand, Jinn leaned forward, acting as if he was going to put it in his mouth, but he simply spat on Kai's length, stroking him faster as his grin turned into a smile, both dimples making an appearance.

"Uhh…ugh. Shit.", Kai moaned softly as he leaned his head backward, closing his eyes.

"Like that?", said Jinn as he leaned forward, his suave voice speaking softly, before he placed a kiss on Kai's long exposed neck.

"Mhmm, like that, like that!", Kai moaned, his voice whining as he panted, but that only turned Jinn on more.

"Fuck.", Jinn whispered under his breath as he closed his eyes momentarily before positioning himself in between Kai's legs, opening them wider with his free hand and his side. Still focused on Kai, Jinn leaned himself downward as he continued to stroke the beautiful man before him. "Kai.", he said softly as his lips were inches above Kai's member.

Without hesitation, Kai lifted his head and opened his eyes to look down at Jinn who had a smirk on his face. Sticking out his tongue, Jinn swirled it on the head of Kai's member, causing him to unexpectedly flinch his body, aggravating the stapled incision. Biting his bottom lip and closing his eyes, Kai groaned through his teeth, placing his right hand on the right side of his lower abdomen.

"Babe, should I stop?", said Jinn as he saw that Kai was in pain, but even so, he continued to stroke Kai's still rock-hard member, his lips still just inches above it.

Quickly opening his eyes, Kai stared down at Jinn, his breath still heavy. "Please.", he begged and with the okay, Jinn took Kai all the way into his mouth. As his body flinched again, Kai let out a cute sound between a pained groan and a high-pitched moan, as Jinn took him to town. With his head bobbing up and down, and his hand stroking to the base, Jinn's mouth, met his hand in the middle of Kai's member.

"Mmm, shit, mmm.", Kai moaned, squeezing his eyes shut. Strangely, he did not mind the pain so much as long as the pleasure continued.

Removing his hand, Jinn went all the way down, allowing Kai's member to hit the back of his throat. Gagging for a second, Jinn recovered, sucking his cheeks inward as he came up and went back down again.

With pain to his right and a knot swirling in his lower abdomen, the pace of Kai's breath quickened. "Jinn…Jinn, I…I'm…I'm gonna cum. I'm gonna cum!", Kai stuttered as he felt it happening. Stiffening his body although it hurt, Kai gasped, continuing to breath heavy as he squirted out into Jinn's mouth.

Swallowing, Jinn continued to suck Kai's member, like he hadn't just finished.

As his body jerked from the sensitivity of his member, Kai groaned although it felt good.

"Jinn, Jinn.", Kai said softly, saying without saying that he wanted Jinn to stop.

Slowly bringing his mouth upward, Jinn swirled his tongue along the head of Kai's member one last time before he removed his mouth, causing Kai's body to jerk once more. Licking the corner of his mouth, Jinn leaned forward, removing Kai's hand to look at the incision he was holding.

Seeing that it was fine, Jinn got up off of the floor, to stretch out his legs before grabbing Kai's underwear and squatting back down to help him slip his feet through. "Well, that was fast.", he said with a smirk on his face.

"Fuck…you.", Kai said as dry and slowly as he could before he opened his eyes, roughly closing up his robe.

"But you usually last a little longer than that, I'm just surprised.", Jinn teased.

"That's what happens when no one's touched you in a whole year.", said Kai rolling his eyes, Jinn was certainly enjoying teasing him too much.

"Really?", Jinn said with both brows raised, his smirk disappearing as he allowed Kai to lean on him while he pulled the underwear up.

"Really."

"Well, excuse me if this makes me sound like a complete asshole, but I'm kinda glad.", said Jinn, as he grabbed Kai's socks, slipping them on as well as his pants.

"Like I said, fuck you!", said Kai as he lightly pushed Jinn's shoulder.

"I'm just being honest, Kai.", Jinn giggled as he once again allowed Kai to lean on him while he pulled his pants up over his backside. "Okay, well I need to go and brush my teeth again really quick, but don't worry. I don't think I'll have any trouble lengthening the time it takes you to cum.", said Jinn leaning down to kiss Kai on the forehead and quickly running out of the room before Kai could say anything.

"Jerk.", Kai whispered under his breath although he was holding in his laughter.

After Kai had finished getting dressed and Jinn had brushed his teeth, the two had made it to the hospital and were waiting to get the staples taken out of Kai's abdomen.

"Mr. Pak?", called the nurse coming out from the back room and Jinn helped Kai stand to follow the nurse. When they got into an examine room, Jinn helped Kai sit up on the bed, then going to sit down himself.

"Alright Mr. Pak, how are you today? Any swelling, nausea, vomiting or smelly drainage coming from the wound?", said the nurse as she read his file.

"No.", said Kai, trying to get this over with as soon as possible and Jinn narrowed his eyes at his stubborn boyfriend.

"He gets nauseous all the time.", Jinn budded in.

"Jinn!", Kai said softly, narrowing his eyes back and talking through his teeth, but Jinn simply ignored him, turning his attention back toward the nurse.

"Is this a regular occurrence or are you forgetting to eat before taking medicine?", said the nurse with a smile, as she thought these two were too funny.

"His appetite has been funky, maybe he's just not eating enough.", said Jinn.

"Okay then, that's nothing to worry about. He's on a strong dose of pain medicine, so that can happen. If he doesn't have much of an appetite, just make sure he eats toast or apple sauce, something light, but solid enough so that there's something in his stomach, okay?", said the nurse with a smile. In unison, Jinn and Kai both nodded and the nurse left the room.

"Can you not do that?", said Kai narrowing his eyes at Jinn.

"What? You mean not be concerned about my boyfriend who just had major surgery? Yeah, sure absolutely.", Jinn responded, his sarcasm clear as day.

"…", with a smile, Kai giggled, what would his comeback even be?

After a few minutes the doctor came in to examine Kai, slowly helping him lie back. Lifting up his shirt, the doctor began examining the incision. "Drainage is normal, you can apply a pad to catch the fluids and there's no hardening or swelling in the area.", said the doctor as he lightly pressed his hand on the wound. "It's healing nicely, how about we get these staples out of ya?", said the doctor standing with a smile.

"Please?!", Kai said enthusiastically, but Jinn only let out a soft, yet heavy breath. He had been so worried about Kai for the last two weeks; it was a relief to know that everything was fine.

***

Walking down the hall, Richard, was sighing back-to-back and people were starting to stare as he walked by although he didn't care, he was too lost in his thoughts to care about anything else at the moment. Jinn had shattered his heart, leaving him all types of discombobulated and he had totally bombed his interview to be a line cook at the hospital. Although Richard had been the one to angrily storm out on Jinn, he could not stop thinking about him. Jinn hadn't answered any of his calls, nor had he responded to any of his texts. It had felt like the jerk who had broken Jinn's heart had suddenly passed through like a hurricane, causing chaos, and just like that, Richard was the one to be washed out with the tide.

Surely Jinn was probably mad at Richard for slapping him across the face, but was it really over? "Did he really mean to end things just like that?", Richard thought to himself as he walked down the hall and suddenly, he heard a familiar laugh, a laugh he would never mistake to be someone else's.

Quickly turning around, Richard widened his eyes to the point where they could have popped out of the sockets. Walking in the opposite direction, Richard could not believe that he was seeing his ex-boyfriend here of all places. As if he was joined at the hip, Jinn kept some guy close to him with his arm firmly placed on the guys lower back and Jinn's hand on his right side.

"Jinn??", Richard said to himself, confused as to why Jinn was here with some guy, but then it dawned on him who that guy must be. Sneakily following behind the two, Richard inched closer, hoping to get a look at who Jinn was with. Glaring at the sight in front of him as he walked, Richard's eyes began to water as he couldn't believe what he was seeing. Jinn was laughing and smiling like he had never seen before and the man was being clingy, Jinn had not once been clingy during the last five months they had spent together.

"I'm gonna go get the car, I'll be right back babe, okay?", said Jinn, removing his arm from Kai's lower back and helping him sit down on the bench in the vestibule of the hospital.

"…" Letting out a small exhale, Kai massaged the right side of his abdomen as he sat.

When Jinn had gotten far enough away for him to be seen, Richard took the opportunity to inch closer and as he got a look at this person's face, his heart nearly stopped beating as tears streamed down his face. So that was the bastard who had ran away to Japan, breaking Jinn's heart, and the same man he had actually met that night in Jinn's apartment, it was Kai! It was one thing to know that Jinn still loved someone else, but seeing it hurt so much more.