Bedroom Blues

I felt incredibly giddy laying on the floor in the hallway the old carpet sticking to my skin, dredging up memories of the past. Memories of times when being here was actually a happy time for me. I didn't want to remember, it always left me feeling like a hollow shell. I curled in to a ball on the floor and focused on not falling asleep I needed to make my way back to my room before anyone saw me.

"Well look at what we have here."

To late I thought as I opened my eyes to look at the person who spoke. My eyes landed on a pair of legs. I lifted my eyes up until they settled on his face. His face to be exact I would have rather it be anybody else but him. Adam stared down at me with an alarming look on his face and that was when I realized I hadn't said anything.

"What do you want?" I asked closing my eyes back.

"You already have an attitude with me and I haven't done anything. I'm starting to think you just don't like me." he said sitting next to me on the floor.

That wasn't true but I'd never let him know it.

"You're right lets start over form this point on I won't remember how annoying you were earlier today and snap at you every chance I get."

I stuck out my hand for him to shake, he grasped my hand hesitantly not sure if I was being serious. His hand enclosed mine and a little jolt of electricity went through me.

"We've officially started over so don't mess this up." I said menacingly.

He just stared down at me and laughed really hard, it was a nice deep throaty laugh. I felt the sides of my mouth lifting up into a smile, I cursed myself for enjoying the sound of his laugh or the way his eyes crinkled. Gosh he was handsome.

"Ok that's enough laughing it wasn't that funny." he was enjoying himself a little to much.

"I'm sorry you didn't see your face it was too cute." he said still laughing but not as hard.

I rolled over on my side avoiding eye contact with him, he thought I was cute, no he said the expression on your face was too cute don't get confused. Humph arguing with myself was pointless and either way he used the word cute when he was talking about me right? Yes right it's a win-win either way I look at it.

"Hey are you ok?" he said leaning over me and staring into my eyes.

"Yeah fine." I said rolling onto my back.

"Ok you were doing that thing where you don't listen to me."

"Oh sorry."

I cursed myself what was up with me, his eyes stayed on mine and I wondered if he could tell I was having an internal battle with myself. If he did, he didn't let on. Our eyes stayed connected and if I was wasn't mistaken his face was getting closer. Yep it definitely was, his breath caressed my lips and then his mouth was on mine. I didn't know how to react a million thoughts racing through my mind. Kiss him back, don't kiss him back, push him off don't push him off. It was all so confusing I mentally sighed; I lifted my hands prepared to push him off instead I felt the skin of his stomach on my fingers stretched over tight abs that contracted when I traced an outline with my fingers. He pulled his mouth away from mine and stared into my eyes. My fingers were still on his stomach I quickly snatched them away and pushed him from over top of me. He tumbled back and fell on his butt I stood up quickly which was a serious mistake. My vision swam and I could feel myself falling but I never hit the floor and arm wrapped around my waste and caught me before I could fall face first into the carpet. I attempted to stand up properly but failed my body sagged into his side. I let out a sigh and just leaned into him soaking up the warmth that was coming from him.

"Come on I'll help you to your room." he said wrapping his arm tighter around my waist.

"Just go down the hall and up the stairs to the right and we'll be there."

We walked down the hall quietly there was nothing to say really. I definitely wasn't going to say anything for fear if I opened my mouth I was going to puke all over the place. I gripped the hem of his shirt tighter my feet were dragging and walking was becoming laborious, he pulled me along easily though. We reached the stairs and I stared at them incredulously. There was no way I was going to make it up those stairs, how the heck did I even get down them without falling to my death was a mystery. Catching on to what I was thinking he let go of me and turned his back to me.

"Alright get on." he said motioning for me to get on his back.

"You're actually serious about this?" skepticism laced my voice.

I stared at his back before giving up and climbing on, the movement didn't agree with my stomach and I felt the vomit creep slowly up my esophagus. He began making his way up the stairs and I silently prayed that he would move faster. I didn't know for how long I was going to be able to keep from throwing up. We finally reached the top of the stairs and took a right towards my room. We stopped in front of my door and I quickly hopped down from his back and ran inside my room to the bathroom. I lifted up the toilet seat and emptied the contents of my stomach into the toilet. I sank down to my knees and brushed the hair from my face, where sweat was beginning to form. I sucked in a breath of air and heaved again I wiped my mouth with the back of my hand and collapsed on the floor letting the cold tiled floor cool me down. I closed my eyes and curled into a ball and tried breathing evenly through my nose to calm down my nerves.

"Hey is everything ok in here." Adam said from the doorway of my bathroom.

"Yeah just peachy." sarcasm dripping from my voice.

"No need for an attitude."

"No need for stupid questions either."

I uncurled from my ball and sat up making sure I wouldn't get dizzy if I decided to stand. I stood from the floor and made my way over to the sink. I grabbed my toothbrush and spread some tooth paste on and brushed my teeth and rinsed with mouth wash afterward. I splashed some cool water on my face and washed it again. I turned around to exit the bathroom and found him staring at me.

"What?"

"Nothing you just forgot to flush." he said smiling a little.

"Oh." I said turning back to flush it. Nothing worse than a guy seeing you puke and telling you, you forgot to flush. Its ok you're not trying to impress him I thought to myself.

I walked past him and to my drawer to pull out a new raglan and some shorts.

"Close your eyes and don't peak."

"Me never." he said fake offended.

I turned and made sure he wasn't looking before I quickly took off my clothes and put on my new ones. I picked up my clothes and took them to the bathroom when I walked back out I was shocked to find Adam in my bed nestled under my cover.

"What are you doing?" I asked in a monotone voice.

"Let me sleep in your bed I don't want to walk back down those stairs, plus I carried you up them. I promise to stay on my side."

"Ok ok anything to make you shut up." I said climbing into bed and clapping my hands to turn off the lights.

"No way you have clap on and off lights that so old."

"Adam?"

"Yes?"

"Shut up before I make you leave."

"Ok." he said turning over on his side in the bed.

I stared up at the ceiling until the grooves looked like the were blending together. This whole situation was weird, I didn't understand it. Just because I said we could be friends didn't mean he could leisurely spend the night in my bed. I rolled over and stared at his back until sleep came over me.

I woke up to an arm wrapped around my waist and a killer headache. I rubbed at my temples attempting to alleviate some of the pain. It didn't work, I sat slowly up in bed and stared at the arm that was definitely wrapped around my waist. I followed the length of it and stared at the owners face. Adam. Memories of the night before rushed into my head. I groaned an pushed his arm off of me. I wasn't going to yell at him the minute his eyes opened. I remember the details of last night I had no right to. I found myself staring at him, he was handsome even if he had morning hair. He looked peaceful in his sleep mouth slightly open. Ugh so cute, I stood from my bed and headed for bathroom for the trusty bottle of aspirin. I opened the bottle and shook two in my hand and swallowed them dry.

I came out of the bathroom to see Adam sitting up in bed and rubbing at his eyes.

"Morning sunshine."

He gave me a smile, yawned, and stretched his shirt rising ever so slightly to show a bit of his taught abdomen. Creeper stop checking him out I thought to myself.

"Morning yourself. So what's on the agenda for today?"

"Uhh nothing, there's never anything on my agenda. I cook, I clean, and whenever I have time to myself I hang out with Ell. I lead a rather uninteresting life."

"Look at where you live how can that be true?"

"It wasn't true when I was younger, but that's the way it is now. I have to go asses the damage from last night, later."

I didn't want to talk about how things were it only left me feeling more hollow if even possible.

"Hey don't worry about it, I'll take care of it." he said arm wrapping around my shoulder.

"How will you take care of it?"

"Do you trust me?"

"Not particularly but there's always a time to prove yourself so why not."

"That's enough for me, but you have to do something for me."

"What is it?"

"Just say yes."

I thought about it for a second he could want me to do anything and knowing that he's one of Brian's friends didn't make me feel any better.

"Well?"

"Alright fine."

"Good be ready around two."

"Ok." he stood from the bed and headed out the door, leaving me to myself.

"Was that Adam just leaving your room?"

"Well look who decides to show up. Where did you run off to?"

"I didn't go anywhere I had to get away from your drunk brother Zack and when I got back here you were gone so I slept in the my room."

"And just so you know I came in here earlier and you two looked pretty cozy sleeping together."

"Nu -uh we stayed on our separate sides of the bed."

"That's what you think, but any who, I'm going to help you clean."

"Don't worry about it Adam said he was going to take care of it."

"Did you hear what you just said?"

"Yes."

"And you're going to trust him?"

"Yes."

"Just like that?"

"Just like that."

"Ok."