That day...

Did you ever feel like making yourself feel die?? Like you are broken and only broken... Not beautifully broken... Just steadily and roughly broken and shattered into millions of peices ... Did you ever write something to you with pain and crying and only crying like.. you to yourself:

You don't know who are you..like look at you. No one loves you..no one wants you..you are a disaster in everyone's life you are just a hell mess I wish I were dead..

Nobody needs me nobody wants me ..not even myself..huh??what you know about yourself ha?NOTHING!!

Even...the hell leave it..you are just a mess remember that no one can help you..stop hoping any good thing in your life..nothing precious will ever happen in your life..you're a Scorpio.. right??! SEE AT YOURSELF!!! I hate you ..why don't you just die..no one even know that when you make a fake smile..and they think that you are the happiest person in the world..

*cries in pain* ahh..they never let me do anything that I want..I'm not a puppet..okay? Stop..just hell stop this shit..go and just..just die I hate you more than you think ...you're such a disappointment to everyone shame on you, shame on your life..

And more like this... Full of anger, rage and more than sadness... Like ending this world at the same time..