[9] Unspoken

"No, it was fine. I... I like you."

Did he just confessed to me? While washing the dishes?

I replied "This is wrong." as I covered my face with both of my hands since I don't know what to do. Should I cry?

He hugged me saying "I'm really really sorry, I just got carried away with my emotions."

"No! Don't touch me! Stay away from me!" I ran upstairs and locked my self in my room, as what happened can't really sync in to my brain.

Why did he confess to me right now? It just added up to my problems related to Sophia and Reign. And... Why did I do that too? Am I falling in love to him? No. No!

I felt like I was lost. Like I was nothing. I felt like I didn't have purpose in this world anymore.

I don't know what I'm supposed to do anymore!

I saw a piece of blade and I picked it up. I felt numb and I wasn't even thinking anymore.

I slowly sliced my own wrist and I saw blood immediately come out of the now open cut on my skin.

I couldn't explain it but it felt nice. It relaxed my entire body and then slowly... I fell asleep.

I heard screaming "Sean! Hey wake up! Hey!" causing me to wake up.

"What do you want? I told you to stay away, didn't I?" I said.

"Stay away from you? While you're slowly killing yourself? Heck no!" He was obviously angry.

"Come on, let's go to the nearest hospital here." He added.

"What? Why?" I asked.

"You know you're killing yourself, and now asking me why?" He responded.

I knew he saw my cuts, why did I forget to wear my jacket or something to cover this cuts last night?

"You'll come with me to the hospital or I'll gonna call an Ambulance right here, right now." He said deadly serious.

"Chill, I'm completely fine! See?" As I stood up...

I fainted.

When I woke up, all I could see was white light, white blanket, white ceiling, white everything and Ethan sleeping. I moved my body so I can sit down comfortably, causing him to wake up.

"Oh, th-thanked God y-you're okay!" He said stuttering.

"Where am I? Where did you take me?" I asked.

"We're currently at the Emergency Room. And unfortunately the doctors can't seem to find what's wrong with you. They had to take several tests and they said they will inform us as soon as they know what's your results." He responded.

"I know I don't have the right to ask you this... but... can you please tell me what's wrong with you?" He added.

"I... I don't know either." I lied. I know my cancer got worse, I didn't take pills the old doctor gave me since I just ran out since the other week.

Moments went by, a doctor went to us carrying piles of tests results.

"Sir, how long do you want to hide that had been diagnosed with cancer and the matter of fact you had cancer for almost 2 years and it had gotten worse." the doctor said. 

"What? You? Cancer?! How? When?" Ethan questioned us furiously.

"I... I-Im s-sorry!" was all I could say.

"I will leave you two here, I'll be right back with the lists and possibilities medications and pills." the doctor said and he just walked out.

As we all calmed down, Ethan asked "Why did you hide it from us?"

"I just don't want to be a burden to anybody." I replied.

I noticed that he was texting someone, I saw it was Uncle Harold! I immediately grab his phone to prevent him telling Uncle Harold what happened.

"Give me back my phone. Please" Ethan said.

"No! Don't tell anybody about this." I begged.

"Okay fine, just give me back my phone." He said, then I gave his phone back.

After hours at Emergency Room, the doctor said I was being discharged and he then gave me a prescription for my medicine.

As we headed back home, I noticed that there was another car parked. It was my dad's.

When I went inside, I saw mom and dad crying and even Uncle Harold was here. I thought their work break will start next month?

When they saw me, they immediately hugged me, three of them.

"My God Sean! Why didn't you tell us you had been diagnosed with Cancer since last 2 years?!?!" My mom blurted out while crying.

"What? How did you know all of this?" I asked.

"Ethan told us." My dad replied.

My tears started to fall, I walked and stood in front of Ethan. He couldn't even look directly to my eyes. I slapped him "I shouldn't have trusted you." I said.

"P-Please, I c-can e-explain!" He said.

"I don't need any of your explanations! It was clear enough for me to know that you shouldn't had trusted!" I yelled.

I ran upstairs to my room, I just cried and cried. I trusted Ethan! I never thought he could do this to me. Then... I fall asleep.

When I woke up, my things were gone; my phone, and even the closet was empty,. I immediately ran downstairs just seeing my luggage full of my stuff.

"Oh Sean, you're awake! perfect, we can go home know. Give your Uncle Harold thanks for letting you stay here and Ethan for taking care of you." My mom said.

I thanked Uncle Harold and after that, I saw Ethan just sitting on the living room couch. I just ignored him and I got inside of my mom's car immediately.

When we were about to go, I saw Ethan on the gate with a sad face. As the engine starts, Ethan knocked on the window. I let the window down, "Sean, I'm really really sorry. I hope you can forgive me for what I've done. You know how much I like you, and it was not easy for me to that too. Please, just forgive me. Here's my phone number, in case you needed any help. I'll pay you back from what I've done." He said.

He was concerned, and even if I was in his position I would do that too. I understand him now. "I'm sorry for slapping you earlier."

"No, I deserved it." He replied immediately.

"So... friends?" I asked.

"Friends! Don't forget to call me, so I can save your number. Bye! See you soon!" He waved as I closed the window and the car started to roll.