[16] Nightmare

Ethan

"So... friends?" he asked.

"Friends! Don't forget to call me, so I can save your number. See you soon!" was all I managed to reply before I burst into tears. Here I am, waving goodbye to the person whom I fell in love with, who took care of me, who robbed my heart, who made feel that I was being loved...

It felt 'ugh'... It felt nice and free, when you're able to do good things for the person whom you love the most. I am greatful for the times when I still had him by my side. At this moment, there's nothing more I could do but to let go.

The house was empty, again. I thought I can move on easily, but here I am bursting into tears, crying for the same person everyday, every night, and every hour for the past 3 weeks. Even Uncle Harold tried his best to confront me, saying that it was going to be okay, that there's tons of other guys out there and I should stop crying and try to find my soulless self again. But how? I did everything, just to forget him, but everything, everywhere I look, there's a memory of him. I don't know what to do.

One time, I went to Sean's old room, it was... empty; just his bed, his table that used to be shiny but now covered with dusts, his big and wide window and his closet. When I tried to open his closet all I saw was hangers, dusts, webs, and... his diary.

I turned to the first page of his diary, "Sean's Diary". I managed to read the first pages of his life. And it was so inspiring and at the same time... I felt jealous. It wasn't just any type of diary but a coming out diary for Reign. I wish I had his life.

November 21, 20##

Hi Self!

Literally, i have no idea what I'm going to do with this journal. Maybe a coming out journal? Or... a confessing journal to my crush? The heck, i don't even like this colored pencils it has all the colors of the rainbow.It's my bestfriend's idea. Her name is "Sophia Rockwell' btw. She gave me this journal and this colored sh*ts . She thinks that being gay will turn me into a colorful barbie.

I dont know.

Coming out to my mom was pretty easy. I know she'll understand , cause again she's a mom and there's no secret that moms never know.

While coming out to my dad is not easy. He seems tolerant but it took days until he fully accepts me.

There's only one person or...a cyborg...Yes, I always considered a cyborg as a person/human because why not? They're also human, and I'm an open minded person.

That needs to know that I'm... Gay.

I was cut by a continuous sound of the door bell so I ran down stairs to open the door. Once again I saw the boy who stole my heart, Sean. I was dead silent, I can't think of what should I say, luckily he asked me first "Ethan! It has been 3 years since we last talked, how are you these days?". "Yeah, it's fine. There has been ups and downs since you... 'left me alone' hahaha" akwardly laugh. "I'm sorry for causing you that... I don't mean to." he replied. "Yeah, but no worries. I never blamed you. I blamed myself for letting you break into my heart." I countered.

"You'll never had to suffer again." he said. "Reign and I were done. We can continue loving each other now. "And why..." he didn't let me finish my question when he shut me by his finger and he moved closer to me and began to smack his lips into mine. His lips are the softest, it felt like clouds and it tastes like candy.

We've been kissing for 3 minutes straight before his tongue started to be at it's wildest. His tongue dances with my tongue, and I'd never felt like this before. I used to imagine things like this, but who'd really ever thought that it would ever happen?

He started squeezing my a$$ and it heated me up even more. I ran out of air forcing me to break from our kiss. "Urgh... hhhh" I moaned. He went to my ear and whispered "What's the problem? Don't you like this one?" then he started to lick and kiss my ear causing me to moan more, and even louder this time. I even felt goosebumps at the sensation of his soft and delicate lips against my neck, fuck, he really knows what he's doing and it's driving me insane!

After that, he began to undress me by pulling my shirt up without breaking our kiss. "Stop!" I pushed him away. He got confused for a second but then he saw a smirk creeping out my face. "Let me handle it, my way." I whispered. "Oh yeah? C'mon, show me what you've got." I started kissing him slowly, but his actions we're faster than mine so I gave up and let him dominate me again.

We went to my bedroom without breaking our kiss. Once we were at my room, he pushed me to my bed. He started pulling his shirt out, I... never seen him topless before. When I saw his 6 pack, it made me craved him more and make me wanna eat him alive. He went closer to me and pinned me to my bed, he held my both arms with just one hand. He began kissing and sucking my neck, "Urgh!?!" I escaped a loud moan. He then stopped and smirked at me and started to unbuckle his belt. He started to pull his jeans down revealing his perfectly cut waist and his huge manhood. I was stunned, his....  uhmm... his junk was huge!

"Are you ready?" he asked me. "What do you mean? I'm always ready." I replied. "You do really want me to go inside your f*ckin' hole, huh?" he asked. "Y-yes D-d-daddy!" I screamed.

I woked up by the hardest slap I've encountered. "What are you saying 'daddy' ?" Uncle Harold asked. "Nothing, just having a nightmare." I replied. Then Uncle Harold proceed to leave the room. Here I am, dreaming again. Creating a fantasy that would never happen in Reality.