Why am I missing being a troublemaker?

She couldn't take it anymore. She started shivering and sweating. It was a weird mess. The way she saw in her nightmares. She closed her eyes shut and started to calm herself.

'It's okay. I can do it. It's just dark. Remember, what Mary said, after darkness there always comes light. I can do it. I am strong. Think about good things' said Min Tae to herself.

She started thinking about all the good memories of her and her sisters. The way Mary always handles things for them. She and Sashi always gets in trouble no matter what they do. Kari always saved her from Mary's wrath. She remembered all of it. Their smile, their laughter, the day they fought and at the end they all cried together, school trips, camping, college, weird talks, laughing with each other for no reason. How happy they were before coming here. Life was so normal and boring before they came here.