SEONGHWA

When i was little, about 12 or so i lived with my grandmother after my parents got in an accident. It was perfect my grandma was a sweet nice little old lady and i knew if i lost her i would be all alone. I was fine in school i didn't get bullied and i had a few friends that i liked. Let's just say i was a bit weird, i got it from her my grandma was always had a strange soul and she taught me all her tricks. She was a surgeon back in her good days and those were the best days of her life she always used to say. And she wanted me to be happy, just like she was so she thought it would be good if i was a surgeon just like she was. Her experience was still there to teach me all i needed. I did have a good time but how was i gonna make a career out of this.

I stayed home after school and she would come back from the market with dead animals, not for dinner but for dissecting and learning with. Sometimes she would get one of her friends from town to bring home a whole deer since it had similar body functions of a humans. We would work on taking apart animals all night and sometimes i would miss school over it. I loved her but she pushed me too far at points. Since we used all our money on animals that weren't dinner we were poor and we had a garden. My grandmother was to old to work in the sun all day so i had to do it alone. I was happy to though, i wanted her to be proud and be the son she never had. She was like a mother to me, i thought of her like that because she cared for me like her own.

By the time i was out of high school she got really sick and i was working jobs all over the place to support both of us and hospital bills. I had hope that she would get better and i visited her in the hospital she stayed at. She told me she was happy because it reminded her of the days she used to work here, it reassured me in a way. I soon put all my time to visit her after my shifts so i didn't have time for any type of school. She wanted me to go to medical school and i went to college for a while but it didn't work out. I told her i was going and when she asked i would say it was perfect and i was learning so much already. I didn't want to disappoint her and especially when her face lit up every time. I wanted her to stay hopeful just like i was so i didn't stop. It was a good thing i didn't stay in college though, the bank inside got robbed a few months later.

One day while i was working at one of my jobs i got a call from the hospital saying that it was urgent and i needed to be there now. I wanted to stay at my job so i could make extra money for some flowers for my grandmother. I had to choose and i knew that she had to be okay i had the hope for it so it worked, right. I stayed only a little longer until i got another call saying my grandmother had passed away. I was in doubt at first it couldn't be, i walked outside for a moment and the doctor explained what happened. It felt like my whole world died in front of my eyes and i regret every moment of not being there for her when she needed me most. I hated myself and i had nothing left, what else was there to this world.

I had to keep going though i wasn't that weak and i sure wasn't going to let myself give up not when i was so hopeful. Something would come around and i would be saved. I couldn't be more wrong after the events of the past few days i couldn't stand it. I didn't go to work anymore and i was to weak to work on the garden for food. I gave up and there wasn't anything left for me even though i tried so hard.

A day where i felt stronger than the rest i took the courage and visited my grandma's grave for the first time in 6 months. I missed her so much, as soon as i could see her name on the stone all my emotions came out. She always told me to stay strong but in this moment i couldn't listen to her any more. Being good reminded me too much of her. I did some bad things before i came here, things i wouldn't tell anyone.

That day i went to her grave a man was walking by and he watched me cry and talk to her. I saw him but i didn't pay any attention to him until he walked over to me and put a hand on my shoulder. He told me she couldn't hear me and she would never listen, and for some reason i believed him. It made me cry harder and i listened to him more and more. He was about the same age as me, he was a short man but seemed very wise. He had a lot going on and he was still a stranger to me but i couldn't turn him down, not when I've gotten this far. We had a lot in common but i wasn't going to trust him just yet. Just because i was weak doesn't mean i was stupid.

I went with him after we talked for hours and walked around he really helped me out a lot and i wanted him around more. He was sad and i saw that, he watched me cry and he knew i was too. Even though he kept saying everything was useless i still watched after him and followed him. I found he was a criminal because he told me right then and there the second day i met up with him. He told me all the gross and savage things he's done and said he's never got caught. I told him everything too wanted to finally have someone to relate too and he listened.

He wanted to plan a heist with me so we would finally do something bigger and get more out of it. I agreed because i was under his spell and wanted anything i could reach. We ended up kidnapping an innocent woman and we planned on doing experiments on her. First we tied her up and i used my medical skills to cut out her vocal cords so no one could here her. She didn't wake up but she was still alive. We wanted to see what would happen if we mentally tortured her for days. We wanted to know what happens to someone when they have enough words thrown at them until they've finally gave up. She ended up doing so and she was hopeless and no use to us anymore and our experiment gave us our results. The when we were done pointing things out we left her starve to death. At the beginning we found an abandon warehouse and out her in there, we forgot about her for a while and when we went back she was barley holding on. It was powering and it gave me back my strength that i didn't know i needed.

I have long forgotten about my grandmother and i haven't went back to visit her since i met him. After all this and me and my friend still see each other and plan new experiments but maybe, just maybe we could do more if we had more people. If we had a bigger group we could do so much more and experiment the things we've had our minds on. It would give us so much power and we would be unstoppable.

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