Chapter 4 His Terms

Winter's pov.

My wolf she's doing all she can to take me over. I'm on the other hand doing all I can to just stay calm. Breathe ..I tell my self..just breath... I'm barely getting any air intake..pain's in my chest..mind fogging me out. One thing I know.. I can't break down in front of my pups. They've always seen me strong a mother and a father to them both..they don't know what I'm experiencing at this moment... this world Is not fair or I wouldn't be enduring the pain right now from the bond..because my mate didn't claim me six years ago...I haven't felt the bond in so long almost forgot how much it truly hurts..something then touches my face wiping the tears from my eye's and cheeks.

I look up into the eyes of my son Julious and..I can see he's troubled to see me so upset. "Mommy, why are you crying it hurts my heart to see you like this."

Lilly engulfs me in a sweet hug. She says. "Mommy, you's not sick are you?"

My mind muddled with troubles...I don't know what to tell them.so I lie..." Mommy's fine....mommy hasn't seen her family in a long time is all." I don't know if they buy it but they don't question me...I force a smile on my face to seal the lie..finally..they seem satisfied with the gesture.

"Why don't I have Amber take you two to get some ice cream from the kitchen..what do you say?" Alpha suggests. I nod in agreement.

"Yes, please." They say in unison.

"Thank you, Alpha," I say avoiding eye contact..eye contact's too personal I don't want him to see me like this or look into my eyes and be able to read me...I just can't handle it right now it would be too much. I have to stay calm...I can't lose control over my wolf I'd look a fool in front of our mate and he doesn't deserve to see how his very presence affects me.

I'm coming close to being done with my paperwork hopefully he won't even mention the pup's..a part of me wants him to accept and claim his pup's..the other part of me wishes he'd ignore the whole conversation the way he did claiming me as his.

I hear him ask the pups to follow him..he open's the door informs Amber to take the pup's to get some ice cream...when he turns and closes the door behind him we're officially and completely alone..talk about goosebump's..here we go.

My wolf and I feel close to the edge of our limits..he's too close..too much..so overbearing..his very scent taking my very breath..feeling suffocating. I feel his wolf..eager..pulling at the bond making the pain intensifi..taking small glance's of my mate is worse..he's very handsome..he is the epitome of strength and protection..of all I was supposed to have.

This pain is a reminder though he is not mine and he even ashamed me by not claiming me as his...I know it had something to do with Amy..they were together for so long before I found he was my mate..everyone knew of their love.

According to pack tradition's though he should have still ended with her and began with me his one and only mate..that's how it's always been done..but not for me obviously.. he still looks like the man that taunts my dreams..yes, I wonder why I was given a mate I can't have...feeling's I can never mend on my own...why she even gave me his pup's..and I did it alone..diaper's, bottle's, manner's, potty training, and more not to mention I gave birth alone... no family.

"Winter...you and the pups should come live with me at my residence." He states confidently.

"What?" I yelp out. "I..I...can't Alpha. It only hurts being close to you..we should distance our shelves. Have I not suffered enough? How could I bear living in the same house?" My breathing's become loud my pulse in my ear's..tears blinding my eye's from the thoughts of enduring this pain daily..making me feel sick.

"Winter, let's not forget you kept the existence of my pups from me..their father..if word got out I have a son..an heir to my Alpha line...he will be in grave danger you and Lilly as well. Their's nowhere else you all will be safe especially as safe as under my own roof for that matter. Look...I have no intention of ever hurting you..even now your very pain I feel too..an trust it breaks my own heart..my wolf's heart. Winter, you need to hear me...I will mark and..mate you..and complete our mating bond..and those are my pup's whom will reside under my roof where they belong as do you..do you understand?..you are mine..and I will have all that's mine. Understand, before you walked in with my pups you were going to be mine."

Okay! I wasn't expecting him to say THAT! Where does he even get off after everything talking to me as such."Are you mentally insane? Hua? I think I will not be mated to someone banging his mistress thank you! By the way, those are MY pups...you didn't want me or do you remember? Better yet you didn't even have the kindness to reject me." I fire off at him. I have years of resentment built up and it's all thanks to him!

"Everyone in the pack knows you were my mate..they'll know as I did who's pups they are. You will be my Luna..our pack's Luna as the moon Goddess herself intended...I also intend...this isn't up for discussion but what is..is how you want to tell our pups..and might I add..you have done an immaculate job of raising our pups all this time by yourself..you have made me a very proud man today..but don't take my kindness for weakness you will be mine Winter the fact won't change. I admit I made mistake's I will be rectifying....as for Amy..she met her mate a few year's back now and for the best of the pack, she mated him..and defused war on our land's...I will give you time Luna but our outcome is still inevitable..my wolf won't wait for forever..that's also why you'll be staying under my roof see or he won't let me sleep. I might have better control over my wolf than you but only so much more when it comes to our mate..or have you forgotten?" Richard says without hesitation.

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