In my feels

Dear old friend of mine, I know it's probably been a minute,  and probably two since I hit you up the line.

And you probably hate to hear my voice, cause you probably hate me like that, but I really do miss the days when it was us  boys.

When we kept hanging around by the green as kids staying up late, it was a wonder how we managed to dream.

But I guess as boys you really know how to keep  check of the other person's back, but maybe I fell off course of things and lost track.

Dear old friend of mine, it's been more than a minute cause it's been a while.

I'm out here on the other side of the world, I guess doing fine. Living it big where size all matters including my big fake smile.

If I could go back to the way of things, beforehand of when I tried to get a grip of our dreams

I might have done it all a lot different, lived out the fullness of our dreams, rather than these broken pieces.

But I am writing this letter hoping we could try to fix all we are. Cause without my old time friend I'm left with a scar.

So dear old friend...

My manager reads through my lyrics and asks me, "what's up with these lyrics. Which friend dumped you". I look at him, and with an annoyed tone tell him, "don't ask stupid questions! Can you find the right artist for these sort of lyrics". "I mean I could try, but these sort of lyrics don't particularly appeal to the sort of artists we work with", he tells me.

"Well figure it out", I tell him with a sharp tone. "Okay, Mr Moody. Who took a shit in your cereal today", he says while walking off.

I soon hold my head,trying to find my composure. My phone beeps, showing that there's a new message received. I open it up and see that it's Catherine.

I'm so glad that you listened to me today  and decided to make amends with TK. I always new you were the bigger person when it came to handling situations.

Maybe we can meet up later! Tell me when you're free. 😉😉

The message read.

I felt like calling Catherine in that exact moment,  but at the same time I felt like leaving her message on read. But I couldn't do that to her, she didn't deserve any of that. So I sent a message back telling her,

Hey Cath! We can meet up tomorrow at that coffee spot from the other day. ☺☺

Meet me there at 2pm

You and I really need to talk...

After sending that message, I went to my bed with a notepad and start writing out a song.

I really deserve to come out of the friendzone, so caught up in my feels that all my friends know.

I can't look into the future though, but looking into things I always knew you'd grow up to be so beautiful.

I don't act this way as usual. What I got to do to show you how I feel. What I got to prove to you.

Cause I still think I really deserve to come out of the friendzone, so caught up in my feels that all my friends know.

And I know you feel the same, so what are you waiting for. Take a look into your heart, and find out I'm the one you're searching for. 

Still I really deserve to come out of the friendzone.

I don't act the same when I hear you calling out my name, which probably sounds strange cause not every knows how to pronounce my name.

But isn't that the beauty of it all, you don't have to ring up on me because I know your call.

Right now we're the best thing that never happened, so much of us could be store, but we haven't started unpacking.

Still why couldn't you and I be, and why you got to friendzone me.

Cause I still think I really deserve to come out of the friendzone, so caught up in my feels that all my friends know.

And I know you feel the same, so what are you waiting for. Take a look into your heart, and find out I'm the one you're searching for.

Still I really deserve to come out of the friendzone.

So tell me girl what's the real issue, why can't I be with you.

If there's another guy I don't feel he deserves you. He might score you, but I'm not the one to rate you.

I might be the best you never had, but you still play me like this and leave me sad. But I should be the one for you to have.

Cause I still think I really deserve to come out of the friendzone, so caught up in my feels that all my friends know.

And I know you feel the same, so what are you waiting for. Take a look into your heart, and find out I'm the one you're searching for.

Still I really deserve to come out of the friendzone.