Love me in another lifetime

To the one I wished was meant for me,

I promise, I will read your masterpieces, I'll memorize them like the back of my hand and keep each syllable and letter inside my heart.

Maybe, someday I will read it to my children like some bedtime story that never gets old and I'll tell them that once in this lifetime, I had you and I am loved by you. I'll skim through the paragraphs and see myself reflected as some majestic art because your words are like a mirror that always described me in a beautiful yet painful way. I'll leaf through the pages and remember what we once had ― the dreams of future, the laughs and tears, the words and coffees and every I love you's.

I'm sorry if maybe, the universe did want us to have a second shot, but it is I that don't want us to get back again.

Forgive me if I chose to read them silently, to forbid the stars to hear them because I wished that you would forget my voice, of how it sounded when I call your name or the feeling it gives you when you hear me laugh, I know that remembering me will hurt you more. Don't hate me, if I refuse to look outside the window pane and closed the curtains so the sunlight won't make me feel the warmth that you gave me every time you look into my eyes. I'm sorry, If I just let those sweet caress of winds to pass through my skin and not even let them linger. Just like how I had let your love go.

And if in another lifetime you're going to search for me, do everything you can to find me.

Maybe, everything will finally be alright and fate would be a little bit kinder to us. Maybe, I'll love you once again and I will finally choose to stay by your side forever. Maybe, you will not just be a memory I'll reminisce but a living and breathing thing in my arms. You'll hold my hand, we'll go to different places together, watch every sunrise and gaze at the night sky and who knows? Maybe, we'll finally keep our promises and make our dreams come true together this time.

But for now, in this life and in this universe, all we have is goodbye and we have no other choice but to let go.