We Meet Again

"Meeting you was fate

becoming your friend was a choice

but

falling in love with you was beyond my control".

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Suga's POV:

I peered out over the balcony, my eyes taking in the bright colors squeezing through clouds. It was chilly, pulling out my thin cardigan around myself. The scent of rain hung in the air as I watched the sky darken and the colors fade away as morning fully arrived.

Nights were the harshest I couldnt sleep, I would always be trying to do something to distract myself from the memories that creep in my vision, sometimes I'll surrender to these thoughts and let them take the hold of me. On most of the days I would find a way or another to distract myself, though usually it would be playing video games or just drinking to my hearts content.

Wow! Time flew by so fast. By now she must have had two children or more if they are not twins, would be as beautiful as her. I smile imagining how pretty they must be.

"So she didn't love me at all, right?" I said to myself like I used to every now and then to come into realization that it wasn't love, so what was it?

"I better get packing" I mumbled to myself and now that Jimin went to bring the house contract and everything I was alone.

It took a while for me to pack but not a lot of time as the furniture and everything else was the house owners so I only had to pack some of my music stuff and clothes.

I had another drink, and the last one in this house.

I was caught up in my thoughts when I heard Jimin screaming while entering the apartment "Oh my gosh! You wont believe this, your house is simply exquisite" he showed me the picture and told me to sign the contract.

The front of the modern house has as much personality as a blank page. It was clean and geometric, that's all one could really say. Beyond that it was just a box to put people in.

"Its already noon, you should get ready" Jimin said while the movers bought a few boxes I owned inside.

It was all furnished and I was happy for that cause I didnt wanted to get into the hustle of bringing furniture and all that.

The houses in the street were different from one another but were architecturally beautiful, as this was one of the elite classes place. But I felt nothing different even moving here, everything seemed the same to me.

"Yeah you're right" I answered getting inside the house.

A nice kitchen, a living room, a dining room, and my bedroom was on the other floor which was quite spacious with a walk in closet and a bathroom. More than enough for a single being living alone. The small garden at the front and the huge balcony attracted me the most, although you could only see the street and the house right in front mine but you could still breath in fresh air.

Album launch party:

She is here, dressed beautifully smiling while she talks with her husband. My heart is beating rapidly as if it has been lit with fire.The nausea swirled unrestrained in my empty stomach. My head swam with half-formed regrets. My heart felt as if my blood had become tar as it struggled to keep a steady beat. My melancholy mood hung over me like a black cloud, raining my personal sorrow down on me.

If I had known he had a share in the label I wouldn't have given a hell about it.

"What is it?" asked Jimin while having a sip from the coffee we were served.

"She is here" I said trying to not look at her.

He choked and exclaimed "Are you serious?".

"Yeah" I answered pretending to listen to our PD's thank you speech.

"But didnt she move to America?" he asked looking around to find her.

"I dont know, maybe she came back who knows".

"So what are you going to do now?".

"Nothing, punch her husband in the face".

"What?"

"Just kidding".

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I had to perform my single August D but I felt as if this was the opportunity to make her feel what I have felt.

"In five minutes you'll be performing" said my manager 'Jimin, I had chosen him as I knew didnt do much for a living and he had supported me throughout, this was the least I could do for him.

"Tell them I am not performing August D, change it to "After the heartbreak", or otherwise I wont be performing at all" I told him while the hairstylist did a bit of finishing touches on my hair.

Even my friends and family are drifting away

I feel anxious as time passes by

It feels like I'm all by myself

I hope everything disappears when I'm alone

I hope things disappear like mirage

I hope things disappear

I hope my damn self disappears

I'm abandoned like this in the world

In this moment I'm drifting away from the sky

I'm falling

Pretending not to be lonely, pretending not to be in pain

Pointlessly pretending to be okay

Pointlessly pretending to be strong

Don't climb over the wall I've built in front of me

I'm the island in this vast ocean, don't abandon me

Today the moon shines brighter

On the blank spot in my memories

It swallowed me, this lunatic

Please save me tonight

(Please save me tonight

Please save me tonight)

Within this childish madness

I know you wont be able to save me tonight

You left me stranded in an alien place

One that knew no light

I thought you would come back to save me

But you didnt

"Are you insane?" he called out, unable to just swallow what I had said.

"Okay then I wont perform" I shrugged and stood off from the dressing chair and opened up a jar of beer.

He knew it was no use but to do what I told him, I just took a sip from the beer can when he snatched it from me "I wont do as you say if you want to drink".

"Okay, okay" I answered knowing that he at times could be more stubborn than I was.

Jimin rushed out ,called the band to change the track, and made further arrangements in just a matter of few minutes. He was unbelievable.