Chapter Fifty.

Alex's POV -

I watch her sleeping form, the way her chest rises and falls softly. The small movement reassures me that she is alive, breathing. I don't dare blink in case I miss a slight movement because I don't think I'll ever be able to let her out of my sight. My eyes are heavy with the guilt eating me up alive. I feel the tears continue to build up, streaming down my cheeks despite me desperately trying to stop them.

My lifestyle is the cause of her pain. My lifestyle is the cause of her nightmares. The way her body trembles even as she sleeps because she's consumed by fear, I caused that. The violence and constant fighting with rivalry, creating enemies has cost me the most two important women in my life.

Ariana may still be alive but her spirit and heart have been damaged.