X - Is This The End?

Broken trust is really hard to mend. Right now, I don't know what the right thing to do. His 'sorry' only works for his mistake but not for my broken trust for him. I don't know his reasons behind everything. Why did he do that to me? He married me while he is still married.

I couldn't stop the tears rolling down my cheeks as I stare at the small photo I am holding. It's a copy of their wedding photo. Noah's arms are wrapped on the woman's waist while the woman's arms are wrapped on Noah's nape. They look so good together. They look so happy.

If he was this happy with her, where am I in his life? Where do I stand in his life?

"How are you feeling?" Nico asked out of nowhere.

"I'm good. I guess?" I said unsurely. Who would be fine in a situation like this?

"Someone's waiting for you at the living room," he said.

"I don't want to talk to anyone of them right now. You know that" I answered him. I don't want to talk to any of the. I am fine with Nico. I don't want to hear more lies and excuses.

"You two badly need to talk. I assure you, it's neither Noah nor his mom," he said that made me confused. If it's not Noah nor his mom, then who? It's only the four of us who know about the issue, not even my parents.

I went to the living room to talk to whoever it is. If it's neither Noah nor Tita Raquel, I'm fine with it.

"Who are you?" I asked the lady standing in front of my portrait in the living room. Nico preferred my portrait to be in the living room beside our whole clan's portrait.

The lady turned around and faced me. It's her! Ana Maria!

"What are you doing here?" I asked. I don't want to talk to her. Seeing her reminds me of what Noah did to me.

"I want to talk to you," she said calmly.

I placed my bag on the vacant seat beside me here in a restaurant which she chose.

"What do you want us to talk about?" I asked her. Are Noah's lies isn't enough yet?

"It's about Noah. I know everything," she said.

"We have nothing to talk about. Don't worry, I am filing an annulment," I answered. If she's here to tell me that I should stop seeing Noah, there's no need for her to do that.

"I know Noah loves you dearly, hear him out. Listen to his reasons and try to understand him." What she said made me somewhat shocked.

"So now you fully understand the riddle, huh? Do you now know the correct answer? It's not the pound of gold that weighs more."

"Yes, you are the first wife. And even though I did not think thoroughly about your riddle, I know the answer. I know that a pound of feathers weighs more than a pound of gold.

"I'm glad you know that. Anyway, I came here just to bid my goodbye. I am going back to Spain. And I am going to wait for him. Just so you know, we have children. I know you are pregnant with his child but could you afford that our children will grow up without their father just because of you?"

Should I believe her?

Should I believe her? What if this is also one of their lies? What should I do?

"No. Y-your lying. You're lying Ana Maria, " I said, almost a whisper. Everything's so fucked up.

"I'm telling you the truth. If you don't believe me, I suggest you talk to Noah. Clear things out," she said. What if she's lying? I can't take another heartbreak anymore. Yes, I love Noah but I won't let myself be totally destroyed by him. But what if she's not lying? I can't be sure!

"Tell me everything, Noah," I said when I saw him inside our house. I am not sure if what I'm doing right now is the right thing to do. I don't know anymore.

"Braelle," he said as he tries to hold.

"Tell me everything," I said, trying myself not to burst into tears in front of him.

"Ana Maria was my girlfriend. I love here before then when our father arranged for us for marriage, the reason why we both didn't refuse. Everything was fine between us until a feud between our parents started. I decided not to stay in our marriage anymore. But my dad doesn't want to, he wants Ana to suffer in our marriage,"

"Our divorce is already on the process when I met you. That was the reason why I pushed through our wedding but dad did everything for the divorce not to take place.

"Why did you decide not to stay on your marriage anymore when you know in fact that you both have children? Why Noah? How can you do that to your children?" I asked him.

"Because I love you. I love you, Braelle. Believe me, please. I am working on everything now. Just... Don't leave me," he said. I am trying my self not to give in to him. Yes, I love him but that doesn't mean I'll give in. I know my worth and it's not healthy if we stay in our marriage and act as if nothing happened. My heart is shattered into pieces. My trust for him is broken. I can't also bear the fact that I'll take him away from his kids. No.

"Okay, I understand everything now. I understand everything now but I am still filing an annulment," I said.

"I know your side now but it won't work on me. It won't heal me. We can be civil, that's all I can offer you," I added.

"But why? What can I do for you to stay?"

I said before leaving, "There's nothing you can do. We ain't the same as before anymore."