YOU ARE MY SADNESS

I am smiling at my sadness,

Pretending it's alright,

I don't want you complaining that I was only seeking attention.

It was the first time I saw you this way.

You always told me that you would love me,

Was that just a lie?

I HATE YOU,

I did everything to see that smile on your face.

But you tested my patience.

And now I am scared of everything.

You hurt me the most,

I thought family is where safety is,

But you proved me wrong.

You made me cry,

with all those words you spoke.

You made me feel guilty,

For something I have never done..

And now you expect me to forgive you?

But why should I?

When you did not even ask sorry..

But in the end I do feel bad for you,

I see your unreal sadness and it kills me,

Knowing that I have to live with this pain...

Do I mean anything to you?

Would you care if I told you that I would want to die?

Would you care if I ran away?

Would you care at all?