Chapter Seven – Letting Go

Ericka Seto – Tang Says?

Dearest Ericka,

Maybe you already know the news and I am here to confirm it to you. I am pregnant. However, Lim was so mad. He thought that I cheat on him! He never even want to talk to me now, unless I tell him who the father is. How could I! I do not even know and I do not want for his pity if I tell him the whole story. As you know, we never even consummate the marriage! That idea made me so frustrated and lonely that is why I went drinking on a bar and I do not remember what exactly happened! I guess I was assaulted. I do not know what to do. Please do not tell your brother. In addition, I cannot afford to kill an innocent soul. Please Ericka, I need your help on the matter.

Love Nina.

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Beep . . . Beep . . . Beep . . .

A tear falls from my eyes as I watch my brother still sleeping on his coma. I wish I could tell you what really happened to Nina that time. She can never betray her greatest love. Yugi have no way to know his real father because there is no one but you from the very start.

Oh my poor brother, your sons needs you. I reaches for his hand and kiss his knuckles. After that, all I can do is pray that everything would be okay.

Seto Dom Yó-gi Says?

"How dare you!" I shouts as I gave him a heavy blow on the jaw.

"What the hell? What did I do this time?"

"What did you do?!" I shouts as I give him another blow on the face then I grabs his collar.

"How long? For how long did you start on fooling me? You stole her!"

Dione punch me on the face then push my hands off him.

"I do not know what you are talking about," he said.

"Do not deny it. Shin-li admitted everything."

He wipes the blood from the cut on his lips.

"It is not my fault if she fell in love for me. Grow up. You cannot direct a person if whether she will stay on your life or not. She is free to choose on whom she will going to love."

I taps my forehead remembering my first ever fight with Dione – a fight for my first love. From that day on, we became rivals on everything.

I thought we are fine now. He even helps me with Shin-li. Then now, we have a conflict on the same woman all over again.

I turn to Michelle who is sleeping on my bed. It is good that I still have a couch to spare my sleep. Noting happened. I broke off the kiss then left her alone yesterday. I may be a badass but I do not use women. I cannot disrespect my mom that way. I know her pain and I cannot do the same mistake as my dad.

I stumbled off the couch and head on my bathroom.

Huh! This whole mess is wrong.

I punches my bathroom's mirror then wash my face and my bloody hands right after.

July 4

-Mom's death anniversary.

I get the sticky note that is pasted on the washroom mirror, crumpled it then throw it on the wastebasket.

It has been eight years now . . .

After I already fixed myself, I scribble a short note for her then left it on the bedside table.

'I left for a very personal matter. You had better go home by the time you wake up and finished eating the breakfast that I prepared. I realized that it is her whom I really love. Go back to Dione and reconcile with him. You deserves each other. One more thing, we may be brats fighting each other, but he is still my cousin and I will always care for him. I wish you all the best.'

-Your Friend Yugi.

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With a heavy heart, I head towards that place again – the place to which in spite of everything I did in order to move on, keeps on bringing back the pain.

As I kneels in front of my mom's grave, tears starts falling from my eyes while I utters a short prayer.

"How are you mom? It has been eight years now since I last saw your face and since I last heard your voice. How I wish you were still here. You are the only person who ever made me feel that I am extra special and worth loving. I miss you so much. I love you. I really am."

By that, I left a bouquet of orchids over her tomb. That was her favorite.

As I head off, I received a message from Duyu.

"Young Master, Mr. Prime Minister is already awake. He wants to talk to you."

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I gently opens the door of his hospital room.

"Dad," I said with a heavy heart as I walks towards him lying on the hospital bead.

"Come over son," he said in a low voice.

Tears starts falling from my eyes as I hear him calling me son for the very first time. I tried to hold back the tears but the moment that he touches my hand and caress it; I finally burst out like a child.

"How do you feel?" I ask.

He just gives me a weak smile.

"Do not worry about me. You? Is everything alright?"

I just remain silent.

"It has been eight years now, since your mom left us."

To my surprise, tears starts to fall from his eyes too.

"You remembers," I whisper only enough for him to hear.

"Yeah," he nods as he stares on the ceiling. "You know what, with this life of mine, I admits I have so many regrets. One thing is when I let my first love to go. I am just a normal human being who is not perfect," he said with a smile.

"Son, in this life, there are some things that are worth forgetting and worth to be let go. But, I just want you to know that no matter what, I also loved your mom once in my life. Yes, I became cruel to her because he cheated me, and you are the fruit of that."

"That is why you never even make me feel as a part of your family," I said while shaking my head.

"But in spite of everything, I still do loves you as my own. It is not in the blood but in the heart."

Then he touches his chest.

"Maybe, I became cruel to you too, because whenever I see you, I can remember everything. However, no matter what, I still gives you everything that I thought would be enough. I am sorry. Losing your mom is the second greatest mistake I ever done, and I still regrets about it until this moment. Can you forgive me for everything, my son?"

"Dad," I burst out as I embraces him for the very first time. Yes, for the very first time, he makes me feel that I am loved. "I love you dad," I whisper.

He just nods and give me one last smile as he struggles for air.

The next thing that I never expect to happen is when he finally inhale his last breathe in front of me. He was smiling – a very genuine smile.

"Daddy . . . You cannot leave me this way . . . Daddy, I love you dad . . . You hear it? Do not leave me . . . please . . ."

I just cry there while embracing him.

In your arms, as the dawn is breaking

Face to face, and a thousand miles apart

But I can't find the words to say

To touch you deep inside

Can we give just one more time

Or let this be our last goodbye . . .

He finally left me. The moment that he told me that he loves me, he still chose to leave. I love you Dad. How I wish you still gave me a chance to show it to you . . .

But only love can say

Try again or walk away

But I believe in you and me

That sun will shine one day

So I'll just make my part

Praying you'll have a change of heart

But I can't make you see it through

That something, only love can do . . .