Chapter 12

My mind going numb. The breeze of the air was cozy and in peace. I wrap myself deeply into the wind-breaker coat. I'll try to isolate myself from the people I closed too.....but I'm getting scared to be alone too. Everything was deep in the deems of the ocean. My thought from the past few days won't let me free. It keep holding tight into my brain and can't help not thinking about it.

About what?

Yes...

About him...

My eyes getting teary.

Maybe because of the wind.

Maybe because of the weather was too cold.

Maybe because I'm missing him.

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"Oh My God, thank you. Thank you Yoongi. Thank you so mu-...." I felt a slight move pushing me away and I lost the hug that I longing for.

"I-I'm sorry....but..." He hesitate for a while.

My eyes fix on him. I questioned my own self for what is happening right now that I did missed.

"But...but what???" I asked him trying to break the silence that lingering around the room.

"I'm sorry I didn't meant too....but....-"

"-who are you?"

"What on earth are you talking about Yoongi-ahh...." Jin start to blurted out and coming closed to him.

"Who is she? I'm sorry I didn't knew her, hyung..." Yoongi stated something unnecessary for me to accept and to heard it.

"I'm sorry but can all of you stay out for a while. I need to check on him first." The doctor spoke out try to maintain the unstable situation from getting out of hand.

After 15 minutes of waiting, the doctor came out from the room and asked Jin and Jimin to gave me and the doctor some private talk.

"I'm sorry Madam Min. I didn't want you to be upset. I know you're pregnant now and I hope this news won't let you down easily." The doctor seems too worried and I was thinking what was happening right now that make him felt burdensome to tell me the news.

"It's okay Doc. I need to know what happened on him."

"As you know that Yoongi was injured and had a really serious injuries around his back head. So, we did expected it might effect him but we cannot sure about this yet that's why we didn't tell you anything unless he fully awake. After what I see, he might suffering a Traumatic Amnesia and this case was rarely happened instead he did face a hard blow on his head. Lucky for him, his body was fine and he only need to recover his burned and head injuries. Some of patients was losing the ability to walk, talk and all the things that make their daily schedule unstable. For him, he still can do all the basic things human supposed to do. Thank God we're not losing him."

I start to listen the detailed carefully and digest all things that happened on him. Yes, it's true. He can recovered all those injuries and thankfully he be able to keep move normally. The things is right now....he is in Amnesia, Traumatic Amnesia. The sickness that no one would knew what kind of memories he had and what kind of memories he would forget too. The things that I really hope to happen on me after facing some bad moment, but I never could expect Yoongi would face this kind of state of life. 

I silence myself for a while and my act really does make the doctor panicked for a second. 

Wither to accept it or not, I still got no choice. 

Hwayoung, you still need to face this no matter what. It's already happened and let's take a really good care for Yoongi from now on.

I try to chin up my face and give a smile to the doctor. Responding on his explanation. Re-assuring him that I am fine about this.

His face loosen up a little seeing me smile and keep fiddling my fingers.

"I know you are strong enough Madam Min. I'll pray all the best for both of you. We will check further to make sure what kind of memories that still remain in his mind. And I really hope you will help us along in recovering him, and let him healthy and strong like before."

"Okay doctor, I will do anything." I'll try  to loosen my uneasy feeling that start to climbing up on the top of my heart.

"Don't worry madam, I guess he will stay here for another 2-3 weeks to make the wounds heal and at the same time we will work on some of progression of his memories. Further updates we will tell you immediately. Let's take it easy. Okay?" The doctor try to use all the words nicely just to make me feel at ease.

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The sound of rocks creaking on each other awake me from miserable. A light gusts passing through his mouth. He sniffled a little. My tale eyes could see how he hesitate to asked me something. My face turn around on him, giving a small smile to him.

"Are you okay?" Finally he said something.

"Okay.....I guess, even thought actually I'm not...ahaha....." I put out my dark blue scarf. No, this not mine. Its Yoongi's scarf. Wrapping it around my neck. 

"Let's go, its getting late. I'm sorry for disturbing you, Namjoon-sshi."

"It's okay, this is the only thing I can help too. Actually I loved to come here when I got some problems. Watching the ocean, the sounds of waves....It's just a great healing for me. It's like the waves had already pull the burden together with them and push it deep down to the ocean."

"Nice word..." I replied him and he just laugh a little. 

After having some conversation about Yoongi's current situation, the doctor guide me to check over him again to make sure that we didn't make any mistake. And it did turns out to be true that he really didn't play around for the fact that he did not remember me.

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"Yoongi-ah, I'm Hwayoung. I'm your wife."

"I'm sorry I don't think I'm married.

"What are you talking about, honey? Don't play around. I am your wife and I'm not lying!"

"Please go!!! Seokjin hyung!! Who's this woman? Why she keep saying she is my wife? I'm not married, hyung!!!"

I was too much in frustration that I keep asking and demanding for an answer why he didn't remember me. His own wife. My eyes became watery, and he start to annoyed on me and finally I'm getting scolded by him. The situation become too much chaotic and it's end with me crying loudly over him. Namjoon arrived a little late and he ends up seeing me crying and sitting down on the floor in front of the door. Seokjin told Namjoon to brings me out from the room first and let  Jimin take a look on Yoongi for today.

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"The dawn before sunrise is the darkest, but don't forget that the stars you've been wanting only come out in the dark." - Yoongi