Prologue

WARNING!

I was awakened when I felt someone touching my thigh.

"Tito lucas?"

I was surprised seeing him right beside me. His hair was still wet and he had just finished taking a bath.

"Sssh," Tito pointed his finger in my lip to shut me up. "Your mom might hear us. Come with me, let's play." He whispered.

He held my hand, strangely. His palm was warm. There is something on it.

"I'm sleepy, Tito. Maybe we can play tomorrow. It's getting late na. Baka magalit si Mommy." I told him.

Tinanggal ko ang kamay niya at umurong. Yumakap ako kay Mommy na mahimbing ang tulog. Nakatitig lang ako kay Tito.

"How about these?"

May kinuha siya sa kanyang pocket short. Dalawang lollipop na chupachups at isang galaxy chocolate.

He knew how much I love lollipops and chocolates. Same as with my biological father, who secretly gives me such things because he knows Mommy will get angry.

"I know, you love these and you don't want to miss it," He playfully smiled at me.

My eyes lit up.

I immediately approached him and took it. I hugged him tightly. "Let's go, Tito. Laro na tayo." Hagikgik ko na animo'y sayang-saya dahil sa ibinigay niya.

Tito picked me up while hugging him. He slowly closed the bedroom door so as not to make any noise. Mommy might wake up.

Amoy na amoy ko ang panlalaking pabango niya. It smells good. Gan'tong-ganto rin ang amoy ni Daddy 'pag bagong ligo.

Mas inilapit ko pa ang ilong ko sa leeg nito at suminghot. It's really smells good and I can't resist it.

Narinig ko naman ang pagdaing ni Tito na wari'y nakikiliti. Kayat pagak akong natawa.

Imbes na sa may sofa kami pumunta ay dumiretso kami sa may guest room. I was wondering why we headed to the guest room to play.

"Tito, ba't tayo dito maglalaro?" Inosenteng tanong ko.

"Baka magising ang Mommy mo 'pag naglaro tayo sa sofa." aniya.

Nakarating na kami sa may guest room at binuksan ang pintuan.

He switched on the light.

Tumambad sa amin ang malawak na kwarto. It has two huge bed. Floral ang bedsheet at may iilang unan. May nakapatong ring isang doll house na bigay sa'kin ni Daddy noong christmas.

"Tito, ibaba mo na ako," Tapik ko sa balikat niya.

"Okay. Huwag kang malikot."

Tito approached the bed.

He slowly lowered me.

I felt something hard stick in my stomach before I could get down. I wondered what that was.

"Ano 'yan, Tito?," I pointed my finger directly to the thing that was hiding between Tito's short and T-shirt. It's long and big like a cucumber.

He smiled. "It's a toy. Do you know how to play it?"

I shook my head.

"Okay, then I will show you how."

I just nodded innocently.

"Wait." Naglakad siya papunta sa may pinto.

I heard the clicked sound like it's locked.

I swallowed. "Why did you lock the door, Tito?"

My heart began to pump like a horse. I don't know why I felt... nervous.

He's staring at me like he wants to eat me. His eyes was on fire darted on my chest.

"You and your mother are really beautiful,"

He slowly approaching towards me.

"This would be fun, Alice."

He removed his t-shirt and saw his masculinity.

I don't know why he took off his t-shirt. Hindi naman mainit dito sa loob ng guest room. This room was well-ventilated.

"Huwag kang mag-alala, masaya 'tong gagawin natin."

I tightened my grip on the lollipop and chocolate. I stepped back because of his approach.

Natuon ang pansin ko sa harapan ni Tito. I was a bit curiuos what's behind on his bulging short.

"Touch it." He commanded.

Mas lumapit pa siya sa'kin na halos ilang dipa nalang ang layo sa mukha ko. Napalunok ako lalo at mas bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko.

I doubt whether I will touch it or not. I just stared at it. It scares me. It looks like a huge leech.

"Give me your hand," He extended his hand to me. "I will teach you on how to play it. Trust me. Don't be scared, Alice."

I swallowed twice. I just stared at his hand. Hesitant.

Something's not right, but I don't know what it was.

But I sighed when he suddenly took my hand. He slowly brought it closer to the hump in front of him.

I close my eyes tightly when I feel it. Tito gripped my hand tightly. Very hot. Pretty soft. Even though it was covered with a thick cloth I felt it was too big and long.

Bigla naman itong pumitik na ikinagulat ko. "I-I'm scared, Tito."

I looked up at him and I could see his grin. A smile full of mischief that raised goosebumps on my skin.

"No, Alice. It wasn't. Now, rub it slowly." He commanded again.

"Like this," He rub my hand... up and down then he let me do it alone. I felt again as if it had hardened and slightly tingled.

"F*ck!, Alice," Tito hissed.

Napapatingala na ito na ikinataka ko lalo.

"Should I stop, Tito?" Nag-aalalang tanong ko.

"N-no." he said. "Remove my short, please..."

"What? But why, Tito?" I Innocently asked.

"Just remove my f*cking short!" He shouted.

Nanginig ang buo kong katawan dahil sa pagsigaw ni Tito. Napapikit ulit ako ng mariin.

Mommy... Mommy.

I could feel the hot liquid flowing down my cheek. I could not open my mouth and only my sobs could be heard.

I felt one of his hands on my head. "You can do it, Alice. Your Mommy did play it, you can do it too," He smiled. "I'm sorry if I shouted at you."

Iminulat ko ang mga mata atsaka tumingin sa kanya. "T-talaga po?"

He just nodded and smiled sweetly.

I looked again at the object in front of me and slowly reached for the garter of Tito Lucas' short. Napasigaw ako dahil sa tila may sumampal sa mukha ko. I close my eyes firmly. I also felt a little droplet was spewing out of my mouth.

"Open your eyes, Alice Rome." Tito Lucas said.

I slowly opened my eyes and saw the thing that looks more scarier. It's like a snake, the head is pinkish and it has some veins in it's body.

"Open your mouth," Hinawakan niya ang bagay na 'yon at itinapat sa aking bibig.

Napaamang ako. "W-what are you doing, Tito?"

Naguguluhan. Natatakot. Hindi alam ang nangyayari.

"I thought you want to play this thing?"

Base sa tono ng boses niya'y para siyang dismayado. Ginalaw-galaw niya ang bagay na hawak niya sa harapan ko. "It's harmless, Alice."

I was about to open my mouth when we heard a footstep and a knocked behind the door.

"Alice, are you with your Tito Lucas?" si Mommy.

"Sh*t!" Mahinang mura ni Tito Lucas.

"M-mom-"

I could not continue calling Mommy when Tito suddenly covered my mouth.

Impit na ungol lamang ang aking iginawad.

"I'm with her, Honey. Nakatulog na ang anak mo dahil sa paglalaro namin. Ako na ang magbabantay sa anak mo. Nangungulila sa Daddy niya kanina kaya sinamahan kong maglaro." Tito lucas said.

My eyes widened.

He's not telling the truth, Mommy!

No, Mommy! No!

He's lying!

Pilit kong kinakalas ang kamay niya sa bibig ko pero sobra itong mahigpit.

"Okay. Good night, Honey" And that's the last words she said before she left the door.

Hindi pwede! Mommy!

Mga ilang segundo ring nakatakip ang kamay ni Tito sa bibig ko bago niya tinanggal ito.

Tatakbo na sana ako nang bigla niyang haklitin ang braso ko.

"Dito ka lang." Matigas na sabi ni Tito.

Para na siyang isang demonyo na kanina'y isa lamang siyang anghel.

He gripped on my shoulder tightly and forced me to kneel. Napadaing ako. Naiiyak. Napahikbi nalang ako. "P-please Tito. A-ayoko na."

"But it's not done yet, Alice. You can sleep later after we play, understand?" Hinawakan niya ang panga ko. "You want to play, right?" Tila mas lalong humigpit ang pagkakahawak niya sa panga ko. "Right, Alice!?," Gigil na sabi nito sa akin.

I nodded reluctantly. Maybe mom's already on our room and continue her sleep. And seem to have lost my strength. Para saan pa't soundproof ang bawat kwarto dito sa bahay. And I hate the fact that, no one can hear me, no one can hear us. It's just me and Tito Lucas.

Wala na akong nagawa nang biglang hawakan nito ang aking ulo gamit ang kaliwa niyang kamay, then he immediately inserted his thing on my mouth. Halos maduwal ako sa ginawa niya.

Nagpumiglas ako pero masyado siyang malakas. Hindi ako makahinga na animo'y nalulunod.

"This would be quick, Alice."

Impit na ungol lamang ang lumalabas sa siwang ng bibig ko. It barely fit in my mouth and reached my throat.

He moved his body while inserting his big thing forward and backward. I became depressed and weakened even more. I just cried while his thing was in my mouth.

Hindi ko na alam kung ano nang nangyayari at kung ano ang ginagawa sa'kin ni Tito Lucas.

Tila umikot ang paligid ko.

Naramdaman ko na lamang ang pagdampi ng mainit na kutson sa aking likod.

"Alice..."

-

"Alice, hey! Wake up!"

I had awakened from a nightmare with beads of tears and sweat rolling down my face. My heart beating so fast as if my heart wanted to lose anytime.

"Tahan na, 'nak," I could feel the arms around me and it was Aunt Melliza comforting me and caressing my hair and back.

"T-tita, I'm scared. I'm really, really scared." I kept telling her as I squeezed myself more into her. "Those images... t-those images in my mind, Tita. N-nakakatakot."

Dad, please... come back to me. I missed you so much.

I thought I would never dream that thing again. That was a long time ago but why can't I forget it? Why did that thing happen to me?

And why do I have to suffer like this?

"It's okay, sweetie. Don't be scared. Nandito na ako."

I closed my eyes, trying to calm myself down, and remember what Daddy always tells me if something bothers me or feel something uneasiness.

"Just count, one, two, three, Alice and deep breath my little princess. Everythings' gonna be alright."

I counted one to three before took one deep, deep breath.

You will get through this soon, Alice.

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UNEDITED