Chapter 35: Lily, why are you here?

Everyone is on their classes, it's a normal day. Ivy looked at her watch, she knows she is late already. She didn't run nor brisk walk. She walked slowly as her thoughts is occupied from yesterday. Yesterday where she is being eroded.

Ivy couldn't bring herself to join her class, she knew that judgement is what she will get from her classmates. This is the first time that Ivy skipped class. She doesn't have the courage to face everyone and decided to go to the rooftop for some peace.

She sighed and look at the view from the rooftop to the field, the wind gust as she watch it. Tears welled up again on the corner of her eyes as she remember of what happened yesterday. It traumatize her, she hugged herself as she cries.

After the party, everything seems not right. Lindsay along with her group of friends branded her as a slut. Everyone thinks she is now a slut.

"Does Lilith also believe that I'm a slut?" Ivy asked in her mind, "I assumed she believed that I'm a slut"

Her father slapped her, her mother wouldn't believe her. There is no Lilith on her side. Ivy cried knowing that no one would believe her. The sudden thought of Cole made her cry more, she blames herself of Cole's death. If only Evan didn't saw them at the party, Cole is presumably alive. She is the reason why Evan is imprisoned and Cole is dead, she held the responsible. it's all her fault. Ivy grabbed her bag and dug inside, she fished out a cutter.

A paper cutter. She stares at it as the blade reflects light. Ivy, on her peripheral vision, she saw a glimpse of a shadow swiftly passed by. She looked at the side, shook her head and looked back on the paper cutter she is holding.

"You are nothing, Ivy"

"It's your fault why Evan is imprisoned and Cole is dead"

"You are so dumb, Ivy"

"Ivy, everyone will be happy if you killed yourself. There will be no burden in your family. No one will call you slut again if you killed yourself. You'll not hear any insults again if you killed yourself"

"Just kill yourself, Ivy."

Ivy heard the whispers. She put the paper cutter above her wrist, her hand is shaking. She moved the paper cutter away and slit her cheek instead where she was slapped by her father.

Ivy screamed in pain and stood up, blood drop as she walks to the railings. She looked down from the railings.

"It's easy if you jumped yourself from here"

"Ivy, jump!"

"Jump, Ivy and you will never be a burden again"

Ivy heard the whispers as she stares down. Ivy want to end it all, she want to end all the pain she felt, the insults. She knew she is insecure, she knew she is good for nothing and she knew she is weak. She climbed on the railings.

"Ivy!"

Ivy heard someone called her, she turned around and it is Lilith. Her best friend. "What are you doing here?"

"Oh! Don't be dumb, let me ask you that. What are you doing there? Could you come down?" Lilith said as she walked towards Ivy.

"Move one step closer or I'll jump!" Ivy threatened. She don't want her best friend to see her, ending her life. She don't want her best friend to see her being weak.

"Okay" Lilith said, halting her tracks mid-way from Ivy.

"I want to end my life. Why are you here? To save me? To save a slut?" Ivy let out a laugh followed by her tears.

"Who says you are a slut, huh?! And why I am here? I'm not here to save you but I'm coincidentally here to chill out and found you standing on that fucking railings and even though you don't brand me as your friend anymore. You are still my friend.. My best friend.."

Ivy cried as she heard the words from her best friend.

"You are not a slut. You are my best friend who is a fucking nerd who is kind."

Ivy didn't know that Lilith still thinks she is her best friend. Ivy also thinks she is her best friend.

"I..I couldn't take it, Lily.. I'm…"

"Ivy? Ivy?" Ivy's eyes blurred, everything is hazy and vaguely hear Lilith's voice calling her name and everything went black.