LOOSING

look at you, all glowing. You look so good " ,

" you seems different " ,Mia observed Bliss.

" well I am not pregnant! " Bliss smiled at her.

" gosh you've changed " ,Mia softly touched Bliss weary face.

" we are meant to, now aren't we little baby ?" she  talked to the unborn child .

" Bliss look at me. " she looked in her eyes " your light has dimmed "

" it's nothing.  The job.. is tough sometimes. I get tired " Bliss explained.

" it's not tiredness . Tell me is it? " Mia was concerned.

" now don't worry. Tell me about your honeymoon. It was a long long trip. " Bliss lit up.

" yes. Totally recommend it "

" haha. Well I am all about old age and reading, these days "

" what are you reading ?"

" well " , she tried to dodge the question. " some things "

" take time for yourself,Bliss . Life is beautiful if you live out yourself "

" how long he need to wait for that?  Five months?! " Bliss places her hand at her belly.

" four to five. Yes . Blue says we will name the boy David " she said happily.

" David? " something shocked Bliss.

" yes, I thought of Daniel, but now I like David better . It's good right? "

" yes?  Oh yes! Certainly. It's.. It's beautiful " Bliss was occupied by a new theory.

                     *********

" hey Blue, long time no see " , Bliss was standing in the living room at Saiph's house.

" when did you come in? " Blue replied.

" I said, hello!  " her voice echoed.

" so I guess the good time's over " Blue gave a friendly look.

" everything's about to be over "

" why so? "

" because your foundation is upon lies " she was overly bitter.

" I didn't know we were enemies " Blue was offended.

" Neither did I, but you keep poisoning everything " she yelled.

" Bliss, what's gotten into you? " he looked worried.

" YOU and your games " she was shrieking.

He was so shocked to see her like that,  that was not how she used to behave even in worst circumstances. Blue was able to see in her, what nobody else knew about.

Saiph. Long ago when he was quite young, Saiph used to scream and cry for no reason, he used to fight and get himself hurt . The wildness in his eyes then was exactly what Blue saw today in Bliss's. Blue could see what Mia was talking about, the harm . Saiph himself told him that he was using her as an escape. The results were awful.

" you are getting involved in things that you are not meant to be in " ,he said to her.

" like what?  Hmm? " she was still fighting with him.

" Saiph " he only said one word.

" it has nothing to do with him. I'm talking about you! " screamed.

" why? " he tried to direct her toward the real matter.

" because it's you who is trying to ruin everything. You are playing these games to I don't know, for some revenge or God knows what you want "

" from who? " he wanted to hear her say Saiph's name so he can turn the tables.

" So you admit? " she forcefully said.

" I admit that everyone has his own darkness to carry but you are falling into someone else's "

" why are you beating around the bush ? What do you want to say? " she was tired of fighting him.

" don't let his words get inside you " Blue felt as if he had sinned by saying that.

" are you talking about Saiph? " she asked ,perplexed.

At that very moment Saiph opened the door and both of them looked at him with a strange terror.

" why are you staring at me? " he said after a moment.

" Blue was saying.. that... "

Saiph moved closer and hugged Blue

" you didn't tell me you are going to be a dad!  I'll tell Mia that you forgot " he laughed

Bliss didn't continue her sentence anymore.

" Bliss, he told you yet? Blue is going to be a daddy " , he had his arm around Blue .

" I met Mia " she said.

" why is your blood running cold? " He looked at Bliss.

" something I.... heard " she said.

" yeah?  What? " Saiph asked carelessly.

Bliss looked at Blue with threatening eyes .

" you are wearing contacts? " Bliss said without looking at Saiph.

" oh, yes " he moved away while taking them off.

" well then, see you " Bliss also walked away to the door.

" why are you leaving? " Saiph said.

" do I need to stay? " she asked.

" I've seen you after weeks "

" do you need to talk about something? " she said rudely.

" are you mad at me or something? "

" No " she shook her head and turned toward the door.

Saiph followed her quickly. " what's wrong? "

" you don't talk to me Saiph. Like even when you are talking....  I mean..... If you want to talk, then at least say what you want to say "

" what? " he said plainly.

"uff " ,she put her one hand on his shoulder and shook him with every word she said

" when you talk , you keeps leading me to some things that you refuse to talk about. And that exhausts me, it confuses me Saiph. Because I feel like you want me to know it, but when I tell it to you you get mad at me "

Saiph covered his face with his hand and said humbly :

" you were leaving? "

" look at you, do you even hear yourself?  I mean how could you pretend....

" so what you are saying ,is that you are tired of me, and you don't want to hear what I have to say, and I should.... "

" I'm saying I am here to hear what you have to say. I'll listen everything. So why won't you tell me? "

" I tells you what I want to tell  "

" you don't. You are keeping things. Who are you kidding?  "

" why are you being like.... "

" just tell me one thing, no shush.. Tell me " she pointed her finger at him

" do you want me to know things or you don't? "

" I don't control that " he replied.

" I am only asking, what do you want? " she repeated.

He kept looking at her without answering. She waited for some time and she turned to leave.

" I get confused " he answered from behind.

" about what? "

" about what is it that I want! " he finally found words.

" that makes sense " she smiled at him.